Gay Black Female : no.69(1998:Jan.)
- Title
- Gay Black Female : no.69(1998:Jan.)
- Description
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The January 1998 issue of Gay Black Female (GBF) magazine highlights various aspects of Black lesbian identity, empowerment, and visibility. Founded in 1990 by Stephanie "Dakara" Wynne, the magazine serves as a platform for creative expression and social advocacy for the Black LGBTQ+ community. The issue includes editorials, personal reflections, and essays addressing themes such as self-concept, the impact of HIV/AIDS on Black women, and historical contributions from Black women during the Harlem Renaissance. Key articles encourage self-awareness, storytelling, and solidarity to combat racism, sexism, and health crises affecting the community.
The magazine also features literary content such as short stories and poetry, discussions on self-esteem and personal growth, and historical retrospectives, such as Amanda Love's tribute to the Harlem Renaissance. In addition, the publication celebrates achievements within the Black lesbian community and offers resources like employment opportunities and personal ads, fostering connection and representation. - Date Issued
- 1998-01
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- Gay Black Female
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- Wynne, Stephanie "Dakara"
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- Black lesbian
- Black lesbian identity
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- Periodical
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GAY BLACK FEMALE January 1998
6
GayBlack FemaleMagazine
GAYBLACKFEMALEJanuary 1998
FROMTHEPUBLISHER
( "GBF")
G.B.F. Magazine
4
Feature
H
ey heyeverybody.
It'sa newyearandwe all gotanother
opportunity
to makesomepersonal
andbusiness
changes.
AsIcontinue
towalkthisplanetI'venoticed
thattheBlackWoman
www.gayblackfemale.com
doesn'thaveanyrealidentity,
andI'mnottalkingaboutallblack
womenso let memakethatclear.It'sjust thatwhenI watch
filmsI seeblackwomenasstudents,
hairdressers,
socialworkDistributed by
ers, secretaries,
welfarerecipients,
somesportsfigures,some
BookazineNational Distributors
politicians,
someactresses
etc.,andthat'sfine,butItjustseems
&KoenDistributors
likewereinvisible.I don'tmeantotally,butit'slikewerenotbeingtakingseriousandI havea problem
withthat.I knowthere
G.B.F. Magazine was founded by Stephanie Wynne areplentyof hardworkingstraightandgayblackwomenthat
in 1990. and copyright 1991 G.B.F. Publishing. aretakingcareof business.
Nodoubt.Itjustseemslikenobody
The contents are not supposedto be reproduced. wantsto listentous,especially
someGayBlackFemales.
Somebut people will do what they want. All rights timesI'membarrassed
thatI'mevencaughtupin thisgaylifereserved. Letters to the Editor. artwork. pho- style,andnextmonthI'llbetalkingabout'OnceA Lesbian
Altography, manuscripts, and other correspondence waysA Lesbian?'ForsomeI'msuretheansweris yes,andfor
may be submitted to G.B. F. at the above ad- somehellno! I wasoneof theonesthatsaidhellnoI won'tbe
dress. Thanks for your support'
a lesbianforever.It ain'tabouta man,it'sabouta choice.In
November
97issuea womanwrotein aboutthe'ThreeMonth
Publisher - Editor in Chief
Lesbian'and shemadea fewinteresting
points.It mademe
thinkabouta fewthingsI'llbetalkingaboutnextmonth.Anyway
Stephanie "Dakara"Wynne
I wastalkingaboutvisibility.
A lotofpeopledidn'tknowuntillast
yearthat I wasthe publisherof GBFMagazine.
WhenI first
Executive Editor - Ta'Shia Asanti
startedGBFI usedseveralnames.One,I didn'twantanybody
to findthemagazine
whoknewmeandtwo,GBFwasn'tmeant
Contributing Writers
to last.Butnowthatit'sbeencloseto eightyearsI'mstarting
Ta·Shia Asanti
seehowGBFcanbea vehicleformeanda lotof otherpeople
wholiketowriteandexpress
themselves.
Ourwebsitehasbeen
Stephanie "Dakara"Wynne
upforsevenmonthsandI haven'tdoneanything
to it. Butnow
Traci Bryant
it'sreadytogoandbelievemewhenanybody
inthewordtypes
Gale Edeawo
in the words'gay' or 'lesbian'theywillfindGBF,and if you
AmandaLove
don'tknowanything
aboutcomputers
youwillbeleftbehindwith
thenewtechnology.
Actuallycomputers
arequiteeasyto use
Front Cover Artist
duetothenewtechnology.
Soin 1998andintothenewmillenniumGBFPublishing
willbeready.Willyou?
Darryl Wi11i ams "Set,£,n.t''
MagazineLayout
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1998 ISSUE#69
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Table of Contents
Stephanie"Dakara"Wynne
AlsoI wantto saygoodbyetojoJowhowroteforGBFMagazineforoverayear.joJois pursuing
a careerincomedy
inPhiladelphia.I reallylikedjoJo'sbrassywritingstyleandI'llmissit.•
Why Black Women
Must Speak Up
by Gale Edeawo
Building A Positive
Self-Concept pt.2
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GBF's in tho Biz
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by Ta'Shia Asanti
GBF Short Story
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Prisoner Of Love
by Stephanie "Dakara" Wynne
Back by popular demand
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What Sistah' s Can
Do To Stop Racism
by Ta'Shia Asanti
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Who Are The GBF's?
by Stephanie "Dakara" Wynne
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GAY BLACK FEMALE January 1998
Why BlackWomen Must Speak Out
by GaleEdeawo
OShasbecome
thethirdleadingcause
of deathamongblackwomenbetween
he agesof 25 and44.Thetotalnumberofyoungblackteen-age
girlswiththevirus
is alsoclimbing.At the rateit's going,by the
year2000therewillbemoreblackwomenand
blackbabiesdyingfromthevirusthananyother
groupontheplanet.Asblackwomen,whatcan
we do to makeoursistersawareof thisseriousdiseaseandhowcanwepreventbecominginfectedwithit?Howmaweeducatecommunities
ofblackwomenacrossthenationwho
havealreadytestedpositive,on howtheycan
live together,healthierlivesevenwith the virus?
Education
helpseveryone
Wecanbeginby realizingthatweareoursisters keepers.We muststarttalkingabutthis
situation.
WhetherHIVnegative
or positive,
we
canall benefitfromeducating
ourselves
about
this rapidlyspreadingdisease.Mensuffering
with the virus havelong beenwritingtheir
stores.Manywhitewomenare beginningto
sharetheirstories.Nowit is timefor we black
sistersto hear,share,readandwriteour stories.
I amcompiling
a literaryanthology
of shortstories writtenby blackwomenwho havecontractedHIVor whoarecloselyconnected
to a
womanwiththe virus.Theanthologywill be
comprised
of biographical
shortstorieswritten
fromtheheart,byor aboutblackwomenwho
havetestedpositive.I am in searchof stories
written by the innocentandthe not-so-innocentwomenwhohavebuseddrugsor worked
as prostitutes.
I amespecially
interested
in storieswrittenby
womenwholovedandtrustedthewrongperson;womenwhothoughtit was safeto say
"yes·to unprotected
sex;womenunknowingly
infectedby theirhusbands,
boyfriends
or lovers;womenwhothoughtii wouldneverhappento them.I amseekingstoriesaboutblack
womenfromall walksof life.
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F
Writersmayfeelfreetousealiasesandchange
theirlocales.Otherthanthat,yourstoryshould
remaincompletely
trueandfactual.
Sisters,starttalking
Sisters,wemuststarttalking,notonlyinwardly,
buttooneanother.
Wemustcommunicate
with
blacksistersthroughout
the world.Our long
silenceis increasingour rate of death.The
deadline
forsubmissions
isApril,1998.Please
send30 pagesor less,doubled-spaced
on
whitebonded,letter-sizepaperto:
IntimateEbony
PO Box451866
LosAngeles,CA90045
INTIMATE
EBONY
CALLFOR SUBMISSION
(PRESSRELEASE)
I amcompiling
a literaryanthology
of shortstories writtenby BlackwomenwhohavecontractedtheAIDSvirus,orarecloselyconnected
to a womanwiththeVirus.I'mlookingfor biographicalshortstorieswrittenfromtheheart,
by or aboutBlackwomenwho havetested
positive.I am in searchof storieswrittenby
theinnocent
andthenotsoinnocent.Women
whohaveabuseddrugsor workedas prostitutes. Especiallyinterestedin storieswritten
by womenwholovedandtrustedthe wrong
person. Womenwho thoughtit was safeto
say"Yes·tounprotected
sex.Womenunknowinglyinfectedbytheirhusbands,
boyfriends
or
lovers. Womenwhothoughtit wouldnever
happento them. SeekingstoriesaboutBlack
womenfromall walksof life. Thereis nocast
system,orspecificgeographical
location,
when
it comesto theVirus.
planet.Whatcanwedo as Blackwomen,
to makeour sistersawareof this serious
diseaseandhowwe can preventbecominginfectedwithit? Howmayweeducate
communities
of Blackwomenacrossthe
nation,whohavealreadybeentestedpositive,on howtheycanlivelongerhealthier
livesevenwiththeVirus?
Wecanbeganbyrealizing
that"WeAreOur
Sister's Keeper.'We must start talking
aboutthissituation.Whether
HIVnegative
wecanall benefitfromeducator positive,
ingourselves
aboutthisrapidlyspreading
disease.Mensuffering
withthevirushave
longbeenwritingtheirstories.ManyWhite
womenarebeginning
tosharetheirstories.
Nowit istimefor"We"BlackSisters,
tohear,
share,readandwrite,OURSTORY
...
Writermayfeel free to use an aliasand
changetheirlocale. Otherthanthat,your
storyshouldremaincompletelytrue and
factual.Sisterswe muststarttalking,not
onlyinwardly,
buttooneanother.Wemust
communicate
withBlackSistersthroughout
theworld. Ourlongsilence,is increasing
ourrateof death.
Pleasesend 30 pagesor less,doubled
spacedon whitebonded,lettersizedpaper. Submission
deadline
April1998.Send
to:
INTIMATE
EBONY
P.O.BOX451866
LosAngeles,CA 90045
■
AIDShas becomethe thirdleadingcauseof
ANTHOLOGY
deathamongBlackwomenbetweenages25
(BLACK
WOMEN
ANDTHEVIRUS)
and44. Thetotalcountof youngBlackteenagegirlswiththeVirusis alsoclimbing.At the It is timefor Blackwomento hear,share,
rateit is going,by theyear2000therewill be readandwrite"OurStory.'Inregardstothe
moreBlackwomenand Blackbabiesdying AIDSvirus. Let'stalk.
from the Virusthan any othergroupon the
ti
Building a Positive Self-Concept
By Traci Bryant - NYU
or thoseof youthatreadpartoneof myseriesI sureyoumightof Wheredoourexpectations
comefrom?Theycomefromourfundamental
foundit somewhatlimiting.
Thatwasonlybecause
ofspacereader. beliefsaboutourselves
andthewondaroundus. Ourbeliefsarebasedon
I hopethismonthI candaritya bitmoreofwhereI'mcoming
fromand our self-concept.
Everyone
of us hasa self-concept,
whichis thecontragoingwithmycdumn.
lingfactorin our performance.
Ourself-concept
is a combination
of allthe
ideas,thoughts
andexperiences
thathavehappened
lo usoverthecourse
Questions:
ofourlivesthatcometogether
toforma composite
imageofthepersonwe
believeourselves
to be.Wealwaysperformin a mannerconsistent
with
1.Am I usualyoptimistic,
anddo I usualyexpectthingsto workout our self-concept.
Theself-concept
is madeup of threefundamental
ingreweU?
dients.Understanding
of the self-concept
is a keyto understanding
and
unlocking
humanperformance.
Thefirstelement
of theself-concept
iswhat
2. Do I understand
theimportance
of myselfconceptin determiningwe calltheself-ideal,
or theidealself.Everyoneof us hasnumerous
picmybehavior?
turesfeelings
andthoughtsof theidealpersonwewouldmostliketo be.
It'susually
a composite
ofallthepeoplewehaveadmired.
Wearecontinu3. Whois thepersonI wouldmostliketobe - whatis myself-ideal? allyadjusting
our behaviors,
actionsandwordsto try to be morelikethat
idealperson.
4. DoI usualyexpectthebestof otherpeople?
II
Thesecondpartof theself-concept
is theself-image.
5. DoI likemyself?
is thewaywe seeandthinkaboutourselves;
it'sour"inner
mi'ror."Wetendto walk,talk,sit,act,think,andrelateto otherpeoplein a
6. DoI understand
thedifference
between
self~iking
andarrogance? manner
consistent
withthisselfimage,or innermi'ror.lfwewishtochange
wehaveto changethisinnerpicture.
ourexternal
performance,
Thelawof expectations
is a powerfuconceptthatsaysthatwhatever
we expectwithconfidence
becomesourownself-fulfiling
prophecy. Thethirdelementof theself-concept
is self-esteem.
II is therootof selfPeoplewhoenjoyhighlevelsof accomplishment
arecontinually
talking concept
andthecoreof humanpersonality.
Self-esteem
is themostimporlo andaboutthemselves
asthoughtheyexpectthingslo workoulwel. tantelementin humanperformance.
Thepersonwithhec1lhy
selfesteem
Expectations
havea powerfulimpacton ourrelationsh~s
withothers, likesherself.Peoplewho genuinely
likeandacceptthemselves
as valuandtheyhavea powerfuimpactonwhatwebecome.
al:lehumanbeingsperformat higherlevelsof effectiveness.
Say,"I like
myself,I likemyself,"
overandover,un0it is drivendeeplyintoyoursubTherearcthreekeytypesof expectations
thataffectourlives:first,the conscious.
expectations
our parentshadof us - theseexpectations
havea ci'amaticimpacton howwe performtoday;second,theexpectations
we
haveof our chldren,our spouses,
our suborcinales
andthe people Peoplewhogenuinely
likethemselves
andacceptthemselves
asvalual:le
wholookup to us - peoplewholookup to us alwaystry to ful11our personsli\e andacceptotherpeopleto thesamedegree.II is impossil:je
expectations
of them,whethertheyarepositive
or negative;
third,and to likeor to loveanybodyelsemorethanwe likeor loveourselves
At the
perhaps
mostimportant
of all,theexpectations
we haveof ourselves
- sametime,ii is impossible
to expectanyoneelseto ll<eandrespectus
whichmaybe highor low,positive
or negative.
morethenwelikeandrespectourselves.
Saying
"Ilikemyselris a positive
affirmation
thatcausesusto performin a moreeffective
manner.Theroot
problems,al behavioral
problemsandall d[ficultiesin
Thelawof attraction
saysthateachhumanbeingis a livingmagnet, of al personality
thatwe radiatethoughtenergyandthatwe invariably
attractintoour interactions
withotherpeoplelowself-esteem.
livesthepeopleandcrcumslances
thatharmonize
withour dominant
thoughts.
If wewishto attractdifferent
people,different
circumstancesCanyou answerthe fo/lowi1g
quest.bns?
If notyou mightwantto re-read
whereI'm oomingfrom.Weasblack
anddifferent
events,we haveto changethecontentof ourconscious thisarfic/eandrealyffy to understand
minds.Wecandramaticaly
improvethequalityof ourlivesby laking womenstraightor gay musttrulyfeelgoodaboutourselvesbeforewecan
wehaveveryhighexpeccon~dof ourmindsandmanufacturing
beliefsandexpectations
con- flutyfeelgoodaboutsomeoneelse.Sometimes
sistentwithwhatwe wantto happenin thefuture.Remember,
what tat.bnsof otherpeopleandwe don1knowwhy.
youthink,youare.A positivementalattitudeis an absdutely,
indispensal:le
prerequisite
forsuccess.
Theonlyfactorsthatdetermine
how 1. Listthreeexpectations
youhaveof yourself.
wela persondoesor howfar hegoesareattitudinal.
Attitudes
come
fromour expectations
aboutoutcome.
If we expectthingsto turnout 2. Whatis themostimportant
statement
youcanmakeaboutyourself?
wel,we havepositiveattitudes.
If we expectthingsto turnoutpoony,
we havenegative
attitudes.
Winnersmakea habitof manufacturing3. Whalis yourunderstanding
of the statement
"Whalyou think,you
!her ownpositiveexpectations
wellin advanceof the event. If we
are?
makea habitof always
expecting
thebestoutof everything
we do,we Nextmonth - AcceptingResponsibilityand TakingCharge
haveoneof thekeysto a successfu
l[e.
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GAY BLACK FEMALE January 1998
J.
GAY BLACK FEMALE January 1998
GBF's in the Biz
For The Love Of Bessie's Girls
byAmandaLove
During my last year in college, I was
introducedto the incredibleworldof the
HarlemRenaissance
ofthe 1920's.It was
sointeresting
andsurprising,
anditbrought
upemotionsin methatrangefromjoyand
fascination,
to prideanda-deeprespectfor
whoI am. I feltblessedto beableto share
my knowledgewith my friendsand colleagues,and hopedto be ableto do it in
thefutureat somepoint.
COMMUNITY NEWS
bookletwill be revised,I hopethat it can
bringthesameemot,onsthatwere
brought
to meduringthegatheringofthe material.
So sit back,relax,andenjoythe lovelyladiesof the HarlemRenaissance.
byTa'ShiaAsanti
=
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~
aboutslavery,it isTHEstory.It is powerful,
rich
December
endedanotheryearof GBF'sbeing
andmovingbeyondanythinghuman.It is spirivisibleandpresenton theplanet.Wewhoare
tual in its natureby its merepresence.Folks
hereforthewrapupof 1997needto countour
: (youknowwhatfolks)aretemiedat therelease
blessings
becausemanyof us didn'tmakeit.
of thissignificant
partof ourstoryandthetruth
AsGBFmagazine
movesinto1998
wehopeto
abouthowthisnationwasbuiltandthebacksof
continue
bringing
youstories,newsandwriting
whoit wasactuallybuiltupon.Butwemustsee
whichreflects
ourdiverse
lifestyles,
thoughts
and
process.Let'smakeaneffort thismovie,~ we nevergo to anothermoviein
talents.Wealsohopeto expandto newlevels in ourparenting
in publishing,
takethe maga- stay in committedrelationshipsand work l~e. Takeyourkids,yourfamilies,yourfriends,
The'WorkingWomanandMan'worked anddimensions
together.Letstumback at leasttwice.....thanksbe to StevenandDebforefrontandreachsis- throughourproblems
infactories,
barbershops,asdomestics, zineto theinternational
of our ancestors
and bie.
ourpublisher, to the spiritualpractices
and manyother9 to 5's. And on the tahsacrosstheglobe.Ms.Wynne,
feeltherichness
andpoweroftheirexperiences.
weekendstheymightgo seethe revue tooka leapoffaitheightyearsagoanddecided LetsknowthatwhoweareasBlackwomenwho
Music
to putsomething
outtherein writingto confirm
'My Magnolia'at the LincolnTheateror andaffirmourexistence.
Theuniverse
hassup- lovewomenis perfectandnaturalandindivine ErykahBadu,Live
go strollingdownStrivers'Rowif they portedthispublication
butyouknow,therentis order. Letslet go of shameandembraceour
didn't go home sitting on the stoop late and baby needsa new pair of shoes. love for one another,for in God's/Goddess Someoen
described
herto measthe"BillieHoliAche' ■
watchingthe kidsplay or listeningto We.....L..amrequesting
thesupport
ofthewhole world,therearenomistakes.
day reincarnated.'I tendto agree. Ms.Thing
will raise the conscienceand social
standingof everyone'thought. ObviouslytheupperclassNorthernNegroes
hadthe WE.B.wayof thinkingandthe
laboringSouthernNegroeshad the
BookerT.wayof thinking.
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fulllipsandhips,a longstringofpearlsfallingdownandaroundherneck.Carefree,
drinkinglemonade
withherhandonherhip
in her flowered flapper dress. Livin',
LastyearatSistahfest
I washelpingQueen laughin',lovin'the womanshe'swithand
set up the SacredSpaceand we slipped havin'a swelltime.Thetwentieswereso
into a conversationaboutsistahsof the special. Therewasn'tTV,but therewas
past. WhenI startedramblingon about radio.Thereweremovies,buttheaterwas
to do this: subscribe
to GBF
reallyshowsushervocalabilityonthe"Live'CD.
the differentsistersthat camebeforeus, the rage. Therewas no Hip-Hopor even DukeEllington
ontheradioor MaRainey GBFcommunity
justvoice.Bynoweveryone
has
she suggestedthat I do a workshopnext Be-Bop,but therewasthe Bluesandthis onthephonograph.
Theelitewerepro- Magazine.Whenyousupportthispublication, Books, Flicks & Sounds Noelectronics,
heardtheinfamous
'Tyrone'whichmanyof sisyearandbringsomeof thisknowledgeto newthingcalledJazz. I twas the Roaring fessors,artistsof variousmediums,
Re- yousupportBlackwomanownedbusiness.So ReviewsbyTa'ShiaAsanti
allyousistahlovingwomenshowussomelove.
tah hasmadetheirpersonalanthembothgay
thewomynin attendance
thatweekend.I 20's and peoplefelt fortunate,free, and altorsandvariousotherprofessionsOn
Nowon the biztip.....December
tookus home Books
andstraight.Thestorybehindthe songis that
hadgottensomuchofeverything
thatcould readyto live. Peopleof Africandescent theirweekends
theymightgotoa salon withsomespecialeventsincludingKwanzaa.
shewroteit on thespurof themomentduringa
SoulKiss,ByShayYoungblood
begottenfrommytimesatSistahfestthatI werestrivingfor allthejewelsof life. They to hearCounteeCullenreadsomepo- Thepracticeof NguzoSaba,TheSevenPrinsoundcheck. Tyronehasbecomeone of her
was morethan eagerto give back. This werethe 'New Negroes·discovering
and etryor goto oneofA'leilaWalker'swell ciples.Formoreinformation
onhowto practice A souttully
writtennovelaboutthejourneyof a biggesthits. EveryGBFhasat leastonesistah
theAfrican-American
Holiday,
callthe younggirl'snearromantic
onlyhelpedtofuelmyenthusiasm
to share developingwho they were as a people. knownsoireesiftheydidn'tgohomeand Kwanzaa,
affairwithhermother shecandedicatethe songTyroneto. I havea
thispreciousinformation
aboutthe Harlem Racepridewasof utmostimportance.Al- listento DukeEllingtonon the radioor AfricanCulturalCenteron54thStreetinLosAn- andhermother's
survivalof seriousheartbreak couple.Buttherestof thealbumis justashot.
eventevery throughracist,sexisttimes.Thisisa mustread The live recordings
bringa newenergyto the
duringthe 1920's.
mosteverything
thatwaswrittenaddressed MaRaineyonthephonographPeople geles.Theyhosta largeKwanzaa
year.Theprinciples
of Kwanzaa
canandshould butaseasoned
songsfromherfirstalbumthattouchyouinside.
writer
who
ha
mastered
the
use
the race issuein someway. But believe weredifferentyetalwaysremainedthe be practicedby everyone,especiallyAfricanespecially
the
ofwords.Youngblood
tellsthisstoryfroma spiri- Thefivenewsongsareawesome,
I knewI neededto havea bookletthat la- me,atthattimewetrulytalkedthetalkand samein someways.
Americans
allyearlong.I wanttocelebrate
and tualplace,takesyouon a walkdownmemory remakeof Chaka's'Stay.' Theseheresounds
diescouldreadlater,andhavesomething walkedthewalk.Wehadindependent
film
honorLinda"Queen'Hollinswhois sistahto so lane thoughthe writingis purelyfiction,we areforeveryone's
ears.I feelyouMs.Badd-Du,
to useto go off anddotheirownresearch makerslikeOscarMicheauxandAliceB. Extensiveand multifaceted
was what manyof us. Herrebirthdaywasin December. think.....Enjoythis oneoversomecappucino, youalldatgirl,on andon......
onparticulars
thatinterested
themthemost. Russell,aviatorslikeBessieColeman,ac- couldbesaidtodayofthecommunity
of Thewayis opensis,thewayis open,we love softjazzanda rainywinterafternoon.Sureto
It was a bit thoughtprovokingbecauseI tivistsand journalistslikeAlice Dunbar- samegenderlovingfolksofthe Harlem youmuch.Forthoseof youwhohaveseenthe do yajustright.
Queens of African
andphilanthropistsRenaissance.Butfirst let me explain filmTrainStationwrittenby yourstrulyTa'shia
wantedto includeso muchinformation,I Nelson,millionairesses
Music, Various Artists
Asantianddirectedbyyourveryownpublisher
wantedit to readeasy,unlikea research likeA'leilaWalker,
andacclaimed
artistslike thatatthattime,therewerenopolitically
Films
of GBF,wewouldliketo sharesomeverygood
book,andI wantedit to befun. I chosethe writer Zora Neale Hurston,singer and correcttermsusedfor folkswhowere newswithyoufaithfulreaders!TrainStation,a AMISTAD,
StevenSpielberg,
DebbieAllen
Thisis a wonderful
combination
of traditional
Africansounds,allfemale.FromAngelique
Kidjo
tlifor the Loveof Bessie'sGirlsbecause BessieSmith.
'likethat'. Theyjustwentwiththeirfeel- filmaboutBlacklesbians
inthe1950's,
hasbeen
I relateandidentifywithBessieSmith.She
ingsandtheenergyofthefriendswhich acceptedintothe 1998PanAfricanFilmFesti- If thisfilmdoesn'treceiveeverysingleaward to the MohatellaQueens,balladsandcarnival
wasa womanwhowouldnotbekeptdown. Nowsegregationwas the normand Ne- theysurrounded
themselves
with,and val,theveryfirstlesbianfilmto be acceptedin availableto man,wearegoingto marchandI musicthisCDtakesyouhometothemotherland
festival,heldat MagicJohnson meanmarch!Thisfilmis themotherandfather throughthe vocalchordsof beautifulBlacksisthat was that'swonderful,
Her spirits were up throughouther life groeshadtheir own community
butreallydifferent
from theinternational
of RootsandSankofa.Debbiesharedtheper- tahs.Thiscollection
is calledtheSoulKitchen
of
whereshecouldneverbe calledpitifulor evenmoretightlyknitthantoday. Within today. Fromtoday'sviewpoint,it was Theatres.Pleasesupportusbyshowingup in sonalstoryof the makingof thisfilmwithmil- Africanmusic. No wonder,thesewomenare
numbers.Theyneedto knowwe havebeen,
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For The Love Of Bessie's Girls
continued
Prisoner Of Love
ByStephanie
'Dakara"Wynne
requests
fromreaders 'So howwasit?"AskedCheri.'Whatdo
Ourwhitestaris rightinfrontofus. Just Dueto numerous
reachoutandit'syours.It'sreallyyours, forthe fullversionof 'Prisonerof Love' youmeanhowwasit? It'sa fuckin'funky
asshe
hasprompted
metore-runthestory.Itried assprison"saidTiegersarcastically
Angelinatoldmeso.
toputthewholestoryin thisissue,butit startedupherLexus.'What'swrongwith
said
wouldn't
fit. Soit willbedividedintotwo you?Ijustaskedyoua littlequestion"
TheWomenof the Time
'I toldToitoithatI wanted
issues.Thisstoryis nottrueandtotally Cherioffended.
as
exaggerated.
It doesn'trepresenthow tobefriends"saidTiegerapologetically
BessieSmith
GBF'sliveandhavesex. Soif you'rea shepulledouttheprisonparkinglot. 'You
then toldToitoithatyouwantedto befriends?" werehandcuffedto a partner.
Bessiewasandis the Empressof the visualpersonanddon'tlikeprofanity
'Damnshe
AskedCherishocked.'What?Yougonna fine!"SaidTinylookingat a womanabout
Blues.Shewastherageofthedecade. don'treadthisstory.
bailouton mycuzbecauseshe'slocked a thirdofTiny'ssize.Tinywasattracted
Shewentfromtravelingshows,to makto
Toitoi(Toy-Toy)
shouted
intothe down?"SaidCherigettinga littleirritated littlepetitewomen.Usuallyunder5'1 so
ing records,to evenstaringin movie Afriend?"
Toitoiwashercousinandshehad thatitwouldmakeher57 289poundframe
short.Bessiemarriedbutshelovedher prisonphone."Ohsonowyouwannabe because
friend?Fuckyou!"Toitoi herback.'I ain'tbailingout on her"said lookintimidating
women.LillianSimpsonwas one of mymuthafuckin'
andTinylovedto intimiAlsosamegenderlovingwhitefolksfound Bessie'smainlovesduringhertouring slammeddownthe prisonphoneand Tieger.Cherididn'treplybutstaredat the datewomen.Shesmiledto herselfand
stoodher5'9inchframeupfromthece- dryhillsideareatheyweredrivingthrough. lickedthechocolate
refugein Harlem. Theyfounda place daysin themid-twenties.
offherfingersandlit
mentstool.TiegerwatchedToitoibeing HowTiegergonnaleavemycousinafter a cigarette.'Fuuuck!"SaidLilBitpointing
wherepeoplewerelikethemandtheycould
If youfoundsomeoneyouwantedto be beopen BlairNiles's1931novelStrange EthelWaters
escortedbehindthe cellbars,probably all shedidfor thiswomanCherithought. at a finedarkskinnedwoman.'Wherein
girlfriends
with,rentpartiesorget-togethersBrotherspeaksof this whenone of the
for the last time. Tiegerhungup the CherifrownedandIii a Newport.
thehellis shefrom?Sheis fine!"SaidLil
at salonsalongwiththe DragBallsat the characters
saysaboutHarlem,'In Harlem Ethelwasanacclaimed
singerandac- chewedupphoneandgotthehelloutof
Bit as the womenpassedby. The dark
Savoywere
placesyoubothcouldgo. 'Un- I foundcourageandjoy andtolerance.I tressduringandaftertheHarlem
'Yo Cheesy"yelledTinyoneof Cheesy's womanlookedover in their direction.
BroncoStatePrison.
derground
vibe'bestdescribes
theatmo- canbemyselfthere....theyknowallabout Renaissance.
groupiesas shewaddledoverto Cheesy 'She'slookin'overhere"saidLil BitexcitSheperformed
infamed
sphereduringthattime. Bluessongslike meandI don't haveto lie.•
orCheesy
for andLilBit.'Ayyodidyouhereaboutwhat edly as she nudged Cheesy.I know
movieslike Cabinin the Skyandwas Toitoiaka'DaBigCheese"
'Proveit OnMe'and'B.D.Woman's
Blues'
wellknownforherBluesstyleevendur- shortis what she was calledaround happenedin the laundryroom?"Asked thoughtCheesy,
because
she'slookingat
hadlyricsthattalkedabouthowfolkswere Fromgoingto rentparties,to hangingout ingthe periodof BessieSmith'sreign. BroncoStatePrison.Itwasrumored
that nny outofbreathasshesatnexttoCheesy me. Cheesylooked directly into the
livin'. Somewrittenworkhadslightrefer- with your friends,to listeningto Ma or Ethelhada longtimegirlfriendnamed Cheesy
andfewotherpeoplepulledoffa makingthewoodenbenchmoan.'Stella woman'sdarkexoticeyes.'She'slooking
ences~ youwereinthatliterarycrowd.The Bessie,orjustreadingPassina
orHometo EthelWilliams
andwasfairlyopenabout hiestthatgrossedthemeightmilliondol- threwsomebleachinthiswhitegirlseyes. at meman!"YelledLil Bit.'Shutup,she
butch/femme
lookwasdefinitely
goingfull Harlemfor thefirsttime,therewasa place herloveofwomen.
larsandthatthemoneywasneverfound. Thenshehada fewhomiesholdthewhite ain'tlookingat you"saidTinyin ajealous
throttle. GladysBentleyreally demon- forusduringthe1920'sHarlem,
theHarlem
Although
nobodyreallyknowswhathap- girlsarms,andtheyputa sockin theher toneasshethumpedLil Bitin thebackof
stratedthatwearingherfulltuxedoin her Renaissance.
Yes,it wasfarfromwhatit's MabelHampton
pened,everybody
thinksCheesy
hasthe mouthwhilethe girl's eyesburnedout. thehead.Thedarkwomancrackeda grin
cabaretacts. Somebutch/femme
women liketodaybutit'sourherstoryAndit'sours
money.
Cheesyletsthemthinkwhatthey Theyput Stellain thehole.Canyou be- andlookedaway.I'm a get that Cheesy
atthattimemarried
theirfemalefiancesand to standuponin orderto liftthosethatwill Mabelwas a well knowntheaterper- want.Sheknewthetruth.
lievethatshit?It'sgettingcraz.y
roundhere" thoughtlickingherbottomlip.
some even had elaborate weddings, comeafterus. AndI don'tthinkthat'stoo formerduringtheHarlemRenaissance.
saidnny reaching
intohershirtpocketand
bridesmaids
andall. Somemarriedmen bad.InoneofAngelina
a meltedSnickers
bar.'Yeahthat Tiegerknewdeepdownthatshewouldn't
walkedintoherthreewomancell grabbing
WeldGrimke's
un- Shewasalsowellknownlaterinlifefor Cheesy
asfrontsor eitherjusthada husbandand published poemsshe writes about a hergayandlesbianactivism,
were is craz.y"said Cheesylookingawaynot leaveToitoi.Shereachedintoherashtray
likebeing andclosedthedoor.Herroommates
a girlfriend.Beingthatmendidn'ttakesex womanandsays,
a foundingmemberof the Lesbian outin the yardso shecouldcry alone. reallyintotheshegossiplikeshenormally andpulledouthalfajointthatshestubbed
or lovebetweenwomenas 'real' sex or
knock,knock.'AyCheesy
areyou was. At that momenttheyhearda loud outbeforegoingintotheprison.Shewas
Herstory
Archives.Mabelspentmostof Knock,
'legitimate'
love,havinga girlfriendwasn't Thouareto mea lonewhitestar,
herlife,1938-1979
withherlifepartner inthere?"AskedLil Bitthroughthedoor. hornsound.Theboathadcomein. The happyto get rid of Cheri'sass. She'sa
too difficultor if your husbandwas also ThatI maygazeon fromafar;
LillianFoster.
Cheesyquicklyclearedher throatand boatisa loadofnewwomenbeingbrought problemTiegerthought.MaybeI should
samegenderlovingit wasevenmoreso ButI mayneverpress
driedher eyes.'Yeah I'll be out in a intotheprison.Cheesyshookoffherhurt haveher rµbbedout. Shechuckledto
convenient.
Again,hanging
withyourgroup Mylipsonthinein mutecaress,
GladysBentley
on the benches herselfabouttheidea.Shepulledupinto
minute"said Cheesy.Cheesyhad an as she sat comfortably
andtheoneyouwerelovin'wasthemain E'entouchthehemof thypuredress,
imageto standupto andthatmeantno waitingforthefreshfleshtowalkby. Upto herdriveway
ofherandToitoi's
threebedsourceof rolemodels,anda refugefrom Thouartso far,sofar...
Gladyswasa bluessingerandpianist crying.Shewipedherfaceandgrabbed thispointshehadbeentrueto Tieger,but roomtriplexlocatedsomewhere
in Los
meansociety.
duringthe1920's.Shewasknown
herpackof Newportsandopenedthe shit'saboutto change.Cheesywatched Angeles.SheparkedandgotouttheLex.
closelyasthewomen
gotoffthebus.Each 'Ching,ching.Ching,ching" it washer
door.
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storeswerethe booksactuallyhavegay
themes.Also,therewerenoprideringsor
pinktriangles So whatdid they have?
Whatwasit liketobea Negrowomanwho
was•inthelife'duringthe20's.Wellif you
werein Harlem,you could hangout at
Gumby'sBookstoreor go to the Clam
Houseto party Oryoumightevengoto a
friend'srentparty. MabelHamptonsaid,
'Privatepartieswerethe best placefor
Blacklesbianandgaymentosocialize.
We
useto go to partieseveryothernight.
Thegirlsall hadthe parties•It wasa socializinggettingto knowwhoyou are as
thiswomanwholoveswomenandother
folkslikeyoukindof vibe.
NowstraightNegroes
weresomewhat
acceptingand in a lot of respectsmoreacceptingthanwhites.A lotof Negroleaders
and role modelswere'known'[in a not
openlytalkedaboutbut'everybody'
knew
to lovefolksof the samegender.Bruce
Nugentoncesaidaboutthe timeperiod,
'Youdidn'tgetontherooftopandshout,'I
fuckedmywifelastnight.'Sowhywould
yougeton theroofandsay'I lovedprick'.
Youdidn't. Youjustdidwhatyouwanted
to do. Nobodywasin the closet.There
wasn'tanycloset.'
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Of Love
EMPLOYMENTOPPORTUNITES
continued
again,but with a morefunkiertone.'Ex- do this myway okay,but I did tell her
cuseme,but youjustcrowedme'saidthe that I wantedto be friends.Whydon't
whitegirlstandingwith herarmscrossed. you comeoverand let me giveyou a
SaidTiegerseducCheesy& Lil Bitwalked.Thelineinstantly fullbodymassage?'
gotquiet All eyeswerefocusedonthefat tivelyassheslidherhandsbetweenher
blackgirl, the shortblackgirl and the tall closedlegs.'Is it safe?'AskedT-Bone
blackgirl.'Sowhat'sup?Iseverything
cool wantingto be assuredthat everything
Tiny?'AskedCheesysteppingin frontof was goingto be cool,becauseif she
It waslunchtimeand Cheesyhatedwait- Tiny'Yeahis everythingcool?'SaidLil Bit droveallthewayacrosstownshewasn't
ingin line.Soshedecidedto fiexherrepu- steppingin frontof Cheesy.Everythingis goinghome.'Everythingis cool baby
tation.'I'mhungrythena muthafuck.
Lil Bit cool'saidTinywhileglaringintothewhite I'llbewaitingfor you'saidTiegerasshe
howmanypeopleare in frontof us?'Said girlseyes.Tinyturnedaroundandstarted gaveT-Bonedial tone.T-Bonepicked
andwasout
Cheesy.
LilBitimmediately
beganto count. bullshitingwithCheesyandLil Bit.'I'm so upherkeysandtoothbrush
'It'sthirty-fourpeopleincludingme'saidLil sickof thisshit' mumbledthe whitegirlto thedoor.
Bit proudly 'Whatchagonnado Cheesy, her friend. Tinyheardher,but chosenot
whatchagonnado?'AskedTinyin a goofy to get ill on her.As theygot closerto the Whyshe wannatrip whenI'm locked
toherexcitedkindaway.Cheesylookedat Tiny food areathe whitegirl was still bitchin'. down?ToitoiakaCheesythought
as if to say,shutup youfatstupidoaf.Tiny Tinyquicklyturnedaround.'So what'sup self.Cheesythoughtaboutherconveroomplaining
butyou It'sbest sationwith Tiegerearlier.Thirty-three
wastotallyunawarethatherlifewasabout ho? Nobody's
tochange.'Tinylistenup,thisiswhatI want you chill or be laid out chilling'said Tiny more months.Cheesysighedat the
you do.Go crowdthatwhitegirl withthe andturnedbackaround.Thewh~egirltook thoughtas sheturnedoverinherbunk.
cheapbluejacketand redscarf,andthen a final dragfromherfriendscigarettebe- Shehatedbeinglockedup,butit'sworth
callusupthere.Onyourwayuptherebump foretheyenteredthefood area.Herface itshethoughtEightmilliondollarsisdefiintoa few girlson purposeand don'tsay wasclearlygettingredderandredder.Tiny nitelyworthit Whatif Tiegerfindsthe
excuseme. It will makethemfeel likeyou grabbeda trayandbeganloadingupona moneyand runsCheesythoughtThe
don'tgive a fuck' said Cheesyconfident largehelpingof potatoeson herplateshe bunksqueakedasCheesyturnedover.
thatTinycoulddo it. Tinyquicklyscanned suddenlyfelt somethinghoton top of her Herlastthoughtbeforeshewenttosleep
thewomeninfrontof them. Can'tnoneof jhericurl.Tinyscreamed
asshefeltthehot wasof Tieger.Shecouldn'thelpit she
themkickmyassshethoughtas shepro- gravy on her head. She quicklyturned lovedher.
ceededto walkto the frontof the dinner aroundto see an emptygravypot in the
line. Tinylookedbackas shewaddledto- whitegirlshand Tinylungedforthewhite 'That'sit babylRightthere,rightthere,
wardsthe frontof the linebumpingintoa girlsthroatjustasthewhitegirlswungthe don't moveT-Bone'pantedTiegeras
womanhereandthere. Whenshealmost pot andhit Tinydirectlybetweenthe eyes they grindedeach other.They were
straddledacrossTieger& Toitoi'sking
wentblack.
reached
thefrontoftheline.Someone
from andnose. Everything
behindhersaid'Wheredoyouthinkyou're
sizebed in a 'scissorposition'(Tieger
goingfatgirt?'Butwhentinyturnedaround Tiegerrelaxedon the couchwithher cell straddled
herlegsandT-Bonestraddled
phonein hand 'We've been talkingfor her legsandtheir coochiesmet in the
nobodysaidanything
hours aren't you worried about your middle),andT-Bonewasworkingit out
Tinykeepswalkingandthenstepsin front phone?'AskedT-Bone.'Areyoukidding? T-Bonelickedon Tieger'stoesas she
of the white girl that Cheesytold her to Shit,I don'tevenhavea bill'laughedTieger gyrated her hips against Tieger's
standin frontof, whowas havinga con- as shekickedoffherhopumps.'Ohyeah coochie.T-BonefiippedTiegeroveron
versation with anotherwhite girl. Tiny I forgot,you roll largelikethat' sighedT- herbackand pulledherto the edgeof
'What'swrongbaby?' the bed and began suckingher clit
smirksand beckonsCheesy& Lil Bit to Bonesarcastically.
comeupfront.'Excuseme'saidthewhite Asked Tieger.'You know what's wrong Tiegerlickedher lips withdelightand
girlwiththecheapbluejacketandtwomiss- Tieger.Didyou dropToitoi?'SaidT-Bone moanedloudlywith pleasure Tieger
ingfrontteeth.Tinydidn'tpay her any at- withher deepraspyvoice.'Damnthe girl grabbedT-Boneshairas sheclimaxed
tention.'Excusemel' Said the white girl ain't beengonebut threemonths,let me for the fifthtimethat night 'Alrightmy
cellphone.Herringeron hercellphoneis
set to the cash registersound. Tieger
quicklyreachedinto herpursefor her cell
phone.'Hello'saidTiegeras she walked
towardsherfrontdoor. 'Hi baby'saidthe
raspyvoice.Tiegersmiledas she put the
keyintothe lockandopenherfrontdoor.
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turn'saidT-Boneasshelayedon herback but she knewthat was hopeless.Cheri
andopenedherthickhairylegs
sighed.Hercousingoteightmilliondollars
andI ain'tgotenough
ToitoiakaCheesywokeupin a badmood. stashedsomewhere
Shehada dreamthatTiegerwascheating for mycarnote.Fuckthisbrokeshill I gots
on her.AfterbreakfastCheesycalledher to getpaid.I lovemycousinand all,but I
cousinCheri.'Willyouaccepta collectcall gotsto get PAIDNOWCherigrabbedthe
fromToitoi'the operatoraskedCheriwho keysto heroldHyundaiandbailedoutthe
pickedup the phone.Cheriacceptedthe door.
call.Shecouldtell by howfast hercousin
spokethatshewasupset.'Thedreamwas 'Damnyou were good last night' Tieger
so real'saidCheesyfeelinga lossof con- said to T-Boneas she leanedover and
trolof herlife,woman,andmoney.'What's kissedheronthe lips.T-Boneopenedher
crazyaboutthe dream is that she was eyes,focusedand thenremembered
that
sleepingwithT-Bone'said Cheesycalm- she was with Tiegerand not Jinjer.'Hey
ingdown.'T-Bone?YeahI guessthatwas baby' said T-Bonewith a groggyvoice.
a dream'said Cheriknowingthat Tieger Tiegeratethe fuckout of her coochielast
and T-Bonefell out yearsago and don't night and now she was feeling proper.
evenspeakto eachother.'WellI doubtthat She'snotasgoodasJinjer,butthat'sokay.
will ever happen'said Cheri confidently. 'So whattimedoyouhaveto beat work?'
'CheriI needfor you to watchmyshit on TiegeraskedT-Boneassheslidoutof the
theoutside.YouknowI'll hookyouup.Just bed.'Nineo'clock'saidT-Bone
irritated
that
keepaneyeonTiegerfor me.As a matter shehadto getupandgoto workwhenshe
of fact on Saturdaynightcouldyou drive knewthatTiegerhadagripofmoneysomeby at aboutthreein the morningto see if whereandsheshouldbe hookingherup'I
youseeanybody's
carinthedriveway
other gotto do somerunningaround,but if you
thanthe Lex' saidCheesy.Cheriagreed, feel like comingby laterI'll cookyou dinmainlybecauseshe knewher cuzwould ner' said Tiegeras she walkedinto the
takecareof her.Cheesywill tell Tiegerto bathroom.T-BonewatchedTiegergo into
breakheroffa littlesomething,
soshewas the bathroom.Damnshe's fine and she
downto do what ever her cousinToitoi doeshavea niceass,butthatwon'tmean
wanted. ToitoitoldCherithatshewasstill I won'trubherassoutifit comesdownto it
pissedoffthatTiegertold hershewanted T-Bonethoughtas shesat up. I'mgetting
to be friends.Cheri agreedthat it was mesomefuckin'moneyonewayoranother
fuckedup that after being togetherfour T-Bonegrinnedto herself.
yearsthatTiegerwantedto befriendswith
Toitoijustbecauseshe'slockeddownfor HeyLil Bithaveyouheardanynewsabout
threeyears.Afteranotherten minutesthey Tiny?'AskedCheesywhenshegottowork.
hungup Cheesystoodtherethinkingfor a Herand Lil Bit workedin the woodshop.
moment.
Whatwouldshedoif Tiegerfinds 'Danasaidthatshewastakento the hosthe moneyandbails?DamnI was a fool pital last night'said Lil Bit.'Really?'Said
for takingthisfuckin'rap Cheesythought Cheesyfeelingslightlyguilty.'Whathapas she walkeddownstairsto the game penedwiththe whitegirl?'AskedCheesy
room.
'I thinkshewentto thehole'saidLil Bit as
sheput on hergoggles.
Cherihungup. Damnshe thought,I sure
wish I knewwherethat moneyis. Cheri Later on that afternoon,the wood shop
thoughtaboutfollowingTiegereverywhere, supervisorbroughtin three newwomen.
'Checkoutwhatjustwalkedthroughthe ing there.Lil Bit suckedher teeth and
door'saidLilBitexcited.Cheesylooked. walkedaway.'What'swrongwith her'
Itwasthedarkskinnedwomanshesaw saidKitten.'She'salright.Sowhatroom
yesterdaycomein offthe boat.Cheesy areyouin?'AskedCheesydisplaying
all
couldn'tbelieveit. 'Oh yeahI'm a get thirty-twoteeth.
that' said Lil Bit noddingher head.
Cheesydidn'tsayanything,becauseLil I hate gettingup early in the morning
Bit ain't gettingshit. The dark woman Cherithoughtas she turnedonto her
boldlycameovertothem.'Heyya'IIwhat cousin'sstreet.Cheriwantedto get the
arewesupposed
tobedoing?'Shesaid moneythat Toitoihad promisedher as
in a Jamaicanaccentwhile looking soonas possible.ShecouldseesomeCheesyin the eye.Lil Bit quicklyintro- one comingout of her cousinshouse.
ducedherself.'I'm Lil Bit andthisis my Cherislowedher cardown.'Hell nawlI
homieCheesy'saidLilBitextending
her knowthat ain't T-Bonecomingout of
hand.The darkwomanshookLil Bit's Toitoi'shouse'Cherisaidoutloudto herhandlightlyandthenquicklyextended self. Cheri quicklypulled up behinda
her hand to Cheesy. 'My name is whitevan.Shecouldn'tbelievehereyes.
Katrina,but everybodycallsme Kitten' WhatthefuckwasT-Bonedoingcoming
saidKitten.Lil Bit noticedthatCheesy out of Toitoi'shouse?Whatthe hell is
hadn't releasedKitten'shand.Lil Bit goingon? What if Toitoi'sdreamwas
quicklypickedup a pair of gogglesto true? Damn!Whatif Tiegeris messin'
breakup the chemistryof Cheesyand withT-Bone?Butthey hateeachother
Kitten. 'Hey Kitten you might need Cherithought.Chericouldsee Tieger
these' said Lil Bit handinga pair of wavingto T-Bonefromherwindow.Oh
gogglesto Kitten. Cheesyreleased hell yeah I'm aboutto get paid Cheri
Kitten'shandas Kittenreachedfor the thoughtand startedhumming'WereIn
gogglesTheywalkedoverto a large TheMoney'asshesunkintoherbucket
woodtablewithvariousnamescarved seatandwatchedin her mirrorT-Bone
into it. 'So Kittenwhatyou downfor?' drivebywitha smugsmileon herface
AskedCheesy'Somestupidcreditcard
drama,but I'mout in eighteenmonths' 'Hello'saidTiegeranswering
thephone.
said Kitten. 'Why do they call you Wouldyouaccepta collectcallfromToiCheesy,or is that your real name?' toi Johnson.Tiegersighed.Shefelt like
AskedKitten.LilBitwasgettingjealous sayingno and hangingup the phone.
becauseCheesywasgettingall theat- 'Yeah'saidTiegerin a I don'tgivea fuck
tention.'Well actuallymy real nameis kindoftone.'Hi Baby'saidCheesy.
Don't
Toitoi,but peoplecall me Cheesybe- callmebabyiswhatTiegerwantedtosay
causeeverybodythinksI havesome butshedidn't.'Goodmorningbaby'said
moneyfroma big drugbustgonebad Tiegertryingto soundhappy'I'm sorry
with somecopsand gangsters.There aboutyesterdaymorning,I wasfeltlikeI
wasa bigshootoutandIwasintheright was losingcontrolor something'said
placeat the righttime,and nowevery- I Tieger.'Sowhydoyouwantto befriends
bodythinksI gotthe cheese,but I was all of a sudden.Yougotsomebodyelse
actuallychargedwith conspiracy'said already?'AskedCheesygettingto the
CheesylookingoveratLil Bit.Lil Bitrolls point.'It ain'tevenlikethat.I justfeellike
hereyes.'Oh really?'SaidKittensmil- were reallynot togetherbecauseyou
ingat Cheesyobliviousto Lil Bitstand- thereandI'mhere.At firstit washardfor
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meto be awayfromyouand nowI'mjust
unsure about us' said Tieger actually
soundingconvincing.'Why you wanna
leaveme whenI'm lockeddownTieger?
Yougave me yourword that you would
stickbyme'saidCheesydeadserious.1'm
stickingto myword,butasfar asour relationship,it can'tworklikethis'saidTieger.
Cheesyfelta emptinesscomeoverher.'I
reallyneedyouto be herefor me Tieger.
We'vebeentogethertoo long to let my
beingawaybreakus up WhenI get out
we will go everywhere
anddo everything
we'vealwayswantedto do' saidCheesy.
That'sthe problemthoughtTieger,I have
to waitthreeyearsbeforeI canenjoymyself.'I don'tknowToitoi.CanI havesome
timeto think?'SaidTiegersincerely.'Just
writeto me okay,andI apologizefor sayingfuckyouyesterday.
I didn'tmeanit' lied
Toitoiastheysaidtheirgoodbyes.Damn.
TiegerthoughtI can'ttakethismuchlonger.
Cherifelt excited.Shewouldblackmail
Tieger.Shecouldgetatleasta fewthousand.But howwas she goingto do it.
Fucka friendship.
Tiegerdon'tmeanshit
to meshethought.Thiswouldreallyfuck
up Toitoiif she knew But I gots to get
paid Cherithoughtas she pulledup to
hercousin'shouse.
T-Bone stood at the counter daydreamingabouttakingJingerto a nice
romantichotelweretheywouldsit in a
jacuzziand drinkAlizelike Puff Daddy.
T-Bonesmiledatthethought.Thesmile
fadedwhenshethoughtabouthowbroke
she was.I gotsto get paid she thought
as she put the ticketsfromthe customers intothe register.
Tinystoodlookingat herselfin the mirror.
Shefelttheswellingaroundhertwopurple
and blackeyes.Hernosewasbrokeand
she was gonnahavea permanentscar
acrossthebridgeof hernose.Tiny'seyes
4
lit up redwithfire as shereplayedin slow
motionthe whitegirl swingingthe metal
gravypotandhrttingherbetween
theeyes.
Herfacehurtwhenshefrowned.Andwhat
about all those people who probably
laughedat her? Tinyslammedher large
fist onto the metalcounterand climbed
backinto the prisonhospitalbed. I'm a
getthat hoshethoughtas shepulledthe
whitesheetoverherthickshoulders.
'So you havea womanhuh?'SaidKitten
repeatingCheesy's words. Toitoi aka
Cheesyshiftedinthemetalchair.'Wellyou
seebaby'saidCheesyscootingherchair
closerto Kitten.'Its likethis,I'm hereand
she'sout there.I'm gonnabe herefor a
whileandI don'tseeanythingwrongwith
a Iii' bumpand grind' saidCheesysmiling.Kittensmiledand leanedbackin her
chair.Her reddishbrown locksfell into
placeagainstherdarkcocoskin.'So you
wanta womanon the insideand on the
outsidehuh?'SaidKrttensomewhatsarcastically.Cheesytuggedthe sleeveof
Kitten's gray sweat shirt. "Come on,
don'tbe likethat.Whenyouthinkaboutit
how long doesthe averagerelationship
last?Notlong.All I'msayingis thatI'd like
to getto knowyoubetterthanjusta friend
so that we bothcan passtimeand keep
eachothercompanyya see'saidCheesy
pinchingKitten'scheek.'I thinkyou'reso
beautifulanderoticlooking'saidCheesy.
'That'strue'saidKittenlookingdeadinto
Cheesy'seyes.Cheesylookedbackinto
Kitten'seyesand for the firsttime in her
lifeshefeltbutterfliesin herstomach.
'Hey
folks'said Lil Bit walkingup to the table
knowinglybreakingup their chemistry
Cheesylookedat Lil Bit andthenbackat
Kitten.CheesythoughtaboutclowningLil
Bitin fronrofKitten,butsinceLil Bitwasa
goodflunkyshedecidedagainstit.Instead
CheesystoodupandpulledKittenbythe
hand and walked awaywithoutsaying
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dollarsigns,asshegrinnedallthirty-two's. behindher 'So where'syourgirl?'Lil Bit
'What?'SaidCheesy.'I
(In Cheri'scasenotthirty-two,
buttwenty- saidsarcastically
nine,becauseshegotthreeteethknocked don't appreciatethe way you treat me
outwhenshewaselevenyearsold)'I want aroundKitten,I thoughtI wasyourhomefive thousand'saidCherichewingon her girl'saidLil Bitas if herfeelingswerehurt.
gum rapidly 'Five thousand?Howam I 'HeyI'msorry,butitwaslikeyouinterrupted
supposed
to explaintoToitoithatfivethou- uson purpose'saidCheesywalkingupto
sanddollarsis missing?'SaidTiegerget- thesupplydoor 'I guessI wasa littlejealtingmorepissedoff.ShethoughtCheriwas ous' said Lil Bit leaningagainstthe gray
goingto saya fewhundred.'I guessthat's cement wall. Cheesy smiled at her.
'What'reyou doing here this early?' yourproblem'saidCherizippingup herold 'Womanyoua trip,butthat'swhyyoumy
her
AskedTiegerlookingoverCheri'sshoul- tan For MembersOnlyjacket.'I wantthe homie'saidCheesyas sherequested
dermakesureT-Bonewasgone.'Well moneyin five days' said Cheri heading suppliesfromthe inmateworker.'Tinywill
maybeweshouldgoto
actuallywe got somebusinessto take quicklyforthedoor.'Go headandtell Toi- bebacktomorrow,
careor saidCheriwalkingconfidently toil I don'tgivea shitlSheain'tgettingout the commissaryand pick her up some
to do?' snacks,what cha think?' AskedLil Bit.
intohercousinToitoi'shouse.'Girl,what forthreeyearsWhatamI supposed
kindofbusinessareyoutalkingabout?' ShoutedTieger.'Payme'saidChericalmly 'Thanks'saidCheesyto theinmateworker
saidCheesy
SaidTiegerlookingonceagaindownthe asshewalkedoutthedoor.'Youain'tget- 'I guesswecandosomething'
streetas she closedthe door. Cheri ting shitl YelledTiegerafterChericlosed puttingher suppliesin the mop bucket.
couldsmellpussyasshewalkedintothe thedoor.Cheriheardher,butit didn'tmat- 'Damnthis mopis funky!'SaidLil Bitputlivingroom.'Damn,what'sbeengoing ter.Herplanhadworkedandnowshewas ting the stringy mop into the bucket.
onin here?'Cheriaskedassheplopped cheesing,
becauseshe'saboutto getpaid. Cheesylookedoverat hershortfriendwho
'We'rein theMoney' lookedlike a littlefrog and smiled.They
downontotheolivegreenleathercouch. Shestartedhumming
'It smellslikefish' saidCherilaughing. asshegotintohergold,lowridingfourdoor bothwalkeddownthe hallwayto the first
laundryroom.
She'sgotto go thoughtTiegeras she Hyundaianddroveoff
'She wantsfive thousanddollarsor else
tightenedher robeand lit a cigarette.
'What'sup Cheri?'SaidTiegersitting 'AfterdinnerCheesywasreadingwhena she'll tell Toitoi?'Said T-Boneinto the
ontheoppositesideof thecouch.She guardcalledherover.'HeyJohnsoncome phone.'Yeahshe'stryingto blackmailus,
hadto tolerateCherionlybecauseshe here'yelledthe guardbeckoningCheesy. doyouthinkI shouldpayher?'SaidTieger.
wantCheesyhissed HellnothoughtT-Bone.Shitthat'smoney
was her girlfriendscousin.'Toitoisaid 'Whatthismuthafucka
foryouto puta package
togetherforme' underherbreath,becausesheknewthat I'mtryingto get T-Bonethought.'Let me
saidCheriknowingthat if Toitoifound if the guardheardher she couldlose a think,maybeI cancomeupwithsomething
outwhatshewasdoingshe'dkill her. tooth,and I can'tbe walkingaroundwith Didshe saywhenshewantedit?' Asked
Thankgodshewaslockeddown.'She no less than thirty-two teeth Cheesy T-Bone.'Five days'said Tieger.'I would
didn'tsay anythingto me' saidTieger thoughtas she laidthe newspaperdown letCheritell Toitoi,butifl doToitoiwillkick
knowingthatCheriwasprobablylying. andgotup.Shestrolledoverto theguard. meoutandcutoff mymoney'saidTieger
veryconcerned.
'Sowhatyougot
'For what anyway?'Said Tiegerin a 'What'sup OfficerGribs?'AskedCheesy sounding
funkytone.'For cheatingon her' said kindly.I hopehedon'twantmeto dosome it like that? You could pay Cheri if you
Cheri boldly and lookingdirectly at stupidshitCheesythought.'It's yourturn wantedto?' AskedT-Bone.'I'm not supTieger.Tiegerfrozefor a momentand to cleantheall thelaundryrooms'saidthe posedto say,butI do haveaccessto a few
suckedon her cigarette.This fuckin' Guard.'All? I thoughtI wassupposedto thousand'saidTieger'Hmmh,don'tworry
bitchiscrazyif shethinksshecanblack- startnextweek?'SaidCheesynot want- aboutit I'll takecareof Cheri'saidT-Bone
1 mailmethoughtTiegeras sheplayed ing to be bothered.'Go get your mop confidently:'Are
you comingover' asked
alongwith Cheri,becauseCheriain't bucketandsuppliesfromthesupplyroom' Tiegerin a whineyvoice.T-Bonesighed.
Igettingshit.'So howmuchdoyouwant said the guard exhaling strong onion Shehasa womananddoesn'treallywant
l to keep your big mouthshut?' Said breath.YoufatpigthoughtCheesyas she tobe botheredwithTieger,butif shecould
Tiegerangrily.Cheri'seyeslit up like wentto gethernewspaperLil Bit ranup get5g'sin a fewdaysit wouldbe worthit.
anythingto Lil Bit. What'sher fuckin'
problemthoughtLil Bit.Kittensmirked
asshegotupfromthetableandfollowed
Cheesy.Lil Bit suckedher teeth and
rolledhereyesat Kitten.Thatbitchis a
fuckin'problem,and to think I had a
crushon herfunkyasswhenshefirst
camein here Lil Bit thoughtas she
walkedawayin theoppositedirection.
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caughtsneakinginto Kitten'sroom she overandpulledthepillowoutofthepilwouldgoto theholepluslosecommissary lowcase.Kittenturnedherbodyaround
for a month.But it didn't matter.Kitten likea persondoeswhentheyneedhelp
quicklyopenedthedoor,andwhenCheesy zippinga dress.CheesytiedthepillowenteredKittenquicklycoveredupthesmall casearoundKitten'sneck.'Harderl'Kitrectangular
windowon thesteeldoor.For tenwhisperedCheesyfrowneda little
a momenttheystoodlookingat eachother and tightenedthe pillowcase.'Damn
andthenKittenbeganto strip.WhenKit- doesn'tthathurt'saidCheesy.
'Shhshh'
ten droppedher prison gown Cheesy's hissedKittenas shegot upandlaidon
eyeswentdirectlyto Kitten'smoundofred- the bunk.'Suckmynipples'whispered
dishbrownpubichairwhichlookederotic KittenintoCheesy'sear.Cheesybegan
I shouldofsaidtenthousandCherithought againsther darkcocobrownskin.Kittens suckingKittensnipples'Harderl'Kitten
yelled.Cheesysuckedharder
as she got off the freeway.She smiledto cellwassmallbecausethereweretwosets practically
herselfwhenshethoughtaboutthe large up bunkbeds. Cheesyquicklypeeledoff on Kittennipples.Kittenbeganmoansackof Chronicshewouldbe gettingfrom herclothsas Kittenwatched.Cheesywas ingloudly.'ShhhshlYou'regonnagetus
the dopeman.Oh yeahI'm a get fucked tallandsemi-lean.
Shehadthickblackhair in trouble'Cheesywhisperedbetween
up.Shechuckled
to herselfasshereached thatsheworein a ponytailandlargebreast. sucks.Just as Cheesywas aboutto
theyhearda
into her ashtraysearchingfor at leasta Cheesy'sthickeyebrowsand lightbrown makeherwaydownsouth
roach.Nothing.HellyeahI'ma tell Tieger eyesturnedKittenon as shecontinuedto key in the lock.Theyboth scrambled
to givemeten thousanddollarsandthen watchCheesyundress.WhenCheesyfin- underthe two wool blanketsas Kitten
It wasCarolone
I'm skippingtown. Cherilookedinto her ishedthey stoodthere lookinginto each untiedthe pillowcase.
mirrorfor the thirdtime at a greenChevy otherseyes.Cheesycouldn'tbelievethat of Kitten'scellmate's.Carolcameinthe
thatappeared
tobefollowingher,especially shewasactuallynervousandfeelingbut- cell and used the bathroom.Kitten
whenshegotoffthefreewayCherislowed terfliesin her stomach. Kittenfelt confi- sighedwithreliefasshepulledtheblandownas the car passedswiftlyby. It was dentthat she could pussywhip Cheesy ket downfromher face.'She'sgone'
justanoldwhiteman.DamnI mustbepara- easilyas she walkedoverto Cheesyse- saidKittensittingup and reachingfor
noidshethoughtas she pickedup speed ductivelyand planteda wet kisson her. her prisongown.'I knowshe noticed
andturnedupherantenna-lessradio.
'Wait baby' said Cheesyafter about a yourcloths'said Kitten.'Do you think
minuteof themkissingeachother.'Come she'llsayanything?'SaidCheesyanxTinywasgettinganxiousto getbackto the overto thebed'saidCheesyasshesaton iousto get the hellout beforea guard
prisoncompound.Layingaroundin the Kittenslowerbunkbed. Kittencameover camein.'I doubtit,Carol'sprettyiscool'
hospitalwasnothappnin'.Shegotout of and stoodbetweenCheesylegs.Cheesy saidKitten.Sheremovedthe pieceof
thebedfortheforthtimethatdayto lookat pulledKittensbodyto her. Kittenslower paperfromthewindowandlookedoutherswollenface.She grimacedwithpain bodywasdirectlypositionedat the same sideher door.Nobodywas in sightas
when she touched her broken nose. It heightas Cheesy'smouth.Cheesydidn't Cheesyquicklygot dress.'I wantyou'
lookedlikeanoldJewishwhiteman'snose, give Tiegerany thoughtas she put both saidKitten.'I know'said Cheesysmilbutblackandfat.Tinyexaminedherface her handson Kitten'sbuttandpulledher ingasshe gaveKittena quickkissand
closelyThisshitis crazyshethought.She bodytowardsher mouth.Kittenheldon to got backto her cell withoutbeingnoyourselfKittenthought
has neverhada brokennosebeforenor thebunkrailsasCheesyhandsmovedfrom ticed.Don'tfiatter
two black eyes Her head was already herbuttto herbreasts.Kittenswayedfrom assheclosedhercelldoorandclimbed
round,but now it was lopsidedHer eye leftto rightas Cheesysuckedhungrilyon backintoherbunkfrustrated
lidshungoverhereyesassheclosedwhat her breasts.KittenstoppedCheesyand
was left of her them and thought,RE- kneeleddownto herknees.'Tiemypillow- Tiegeropeneda freshbottleof Vodka
VENGE.
casearoundmyneckKittenwhispered
into andtook a long swigwithouta frown.
Cheesy'sear. Cheesypausedfor a sec- She had problems.Toitoiaka Cheesy
Laterthat nightCheesytappedlightlyon and.Ah she'sone of thosefreakydeaky her girlfriendwas in prisonfor three
shecouldn'tgetto
Kittensdoor. Cheesyknewthat if shegot kindofwomynshethoughtasshereached yearsforconspiracy;
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'Yeahbaby I'll be there' said T-Boneas
theysaidtheirgood-byes.
Tiegerhadbeen
layingaroundthe houseall day worried
aboutCheriandthe money,but if T-Bone
saidshewouldtakecareof it theneverythingwouldbeokay.Tiegerreachedunder
herbedandpulledout a glassmirror.She
grabbedthe rolledup hundreddollarbill
ontopofthemirrorandinhaledfivefatlines
of cocaine.
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theeightmillionthat'sstashedsomewhere; sayingyoudeservedit' saidLil Bitleaning
hergirlfriends
cousinwasblackmailing
her intoTiny'stwowomancell.'Where'syour
for sleeping with someone else; she roommate?'Asked Lil Bit. 'Shit I don't
couldn'tbe seenwith her lover,and she know'said Tinysittingher largebodyon
wantedher pussysucked.She took an- the smallbox springlessbed. 'Where's
otherlarge gulpof Vodkaand stumbled Cheesy?'AskedTiny 'She'swith Kitten'
back intothe livingroomwith the bottle. saidLil Bit.'So what'sup?Theyfuckin'?'
Shewasfeelinghotso shecalledT-Bone Asked Tiny as she leaned over and
againat work.'I told you notto call meat reachedunderher roommatesbed and
work so much Tieger' T-Bone nearly pulledout someDorritos.'I don't know'
shoutedinto the phone.'I'm, sorrybaby' said Lil Bit irritatedbecauseshe kind of
Tiegerwhinedintothe phone.'HasCheri likedKittenand she didn'twantto think
calledyou?'AskedT-Bonebecauseshe aboutCheesylickingherpussy.'I'mjust
wantedto followCheri'severymove.'No' asking,do youwant some?'AskedTiny
saidTieger.'Do you knowher address?' extendingthe chip bag to Lil Bit. Lil Bit
AskedT-Bone.'No,butshelivesin a hole sighedandgrabbedthebagof Dorritos.
on Douglas& Mainand she drivesan old
uglyfour door Hyundaiyou can't missit' T-Bone looked at her clock. Damnl
said Tieger.'Are you still comingover?' Tieger'sgonnabetrippingbecauseI didn't
AskedTiegerin a slurredvoice.T-Bone go by therelastnightshethoughtas her
sighed,shecouldtelllieger wasdrunkand girlfriendturned over and put her arm
it madehersickto thinkaboutTiegertry- aroundT-Bone'swaist.I can'tkeepgoing
ing to kisson her with funkybreath'Yes on likethisT-Bonethoughtas shegently
armfromaround
TiegerI'm comingby afterwork' said T- removedhergirlsfriend's
Bone lying through her teeth, because her and got up fromtheir kingsizebed.
Cheri'swhereabouts
romefirst.Tiegerlaid Shewalkedintothebathroom
andlooked
onthecouch,openedherrobeandbegan at herselfin the mirror.I can'tcontinueto
touchingherself.'I'll be waitingfor you· cheaton mygirlbecauseI'mtryingto get
Tiegermoanedas she put her righthand at Toitoi's moneyshe thought as she
betweenherthighsandsqueezedwishing splashedcoldwateron hersmoothface
it wasT-Bone'sfingersmassaging
herclit. I needto thinkof a wayto getthe 5'g and
Whentheygot off the phoneTiegertook bailawayfromTieger'scrazyass.Sheran
anotherswigoftheVodkaandmasturbated herfingersthroughhershortsofthairand
leanedon the counter.I couldlet Cheri
herselfto sleep.
getthemoneyfromTiegerandthenI'llget
ThenextmorningLil Bit sawTinycoming the moneyfromCheri.I just hopeI don't
out the prison hospital.'Dammmnshe haveto rub herassout in the processTfuckedyouup' saidLil Bit lookingat Tiny's Bonethoughtas shewashedher hands
purpleandblackeyes.'I knowmuthafucka' andexitedthe bathroom.
saidTinyangrilyas sheand Lil Bitwalked
intothe unit.'Thatbitchis gonnapay Can 'Hey homey how you feeling?' Asked
youbelievethatshit?A whiteho gonnahit Cheesywalkingoverto Tiny and giving
me in the face with a fuckin' gravypot. hera hug. SinceCheesywasa tallanda
Whereis that bitch anyway?'Said Tiny semilargewomanherself,Tinyfeltwarm
openingher bedroomdoor.'I think she's whenCheesyhuggedher.'I'mhangin'and
still in the hole.Everybody's
talkingabout shit'saidTinyas shetwistedin herchair.
what happened,somepeopleare even Itsoundedlikeafartto LilBitandshelooks
at Tinycrazy.'Heythatwasn'tmethat
was the chair' said Tiny defensively
'Yeahright'saidLilBitscootingherchair
awayfromliny.Cheesypulledupa chair
nextto Tiny's.'Dammmnyourface is
fuckedupl'SaidCheesy.
'Thanksforremindingme' said Tiny startingto get
mad.'Comeon, I wasjustmessin'with
you.What'sthis shit on TV?' Cheesy If
asked.'Somebullshit'saidLil Bitnotic- I
ingfourwhrtegirlswalkingintotheroom.
TheysatbehindCheesyandTiny.These
particular
whitegirlswereskinheadsand
didn'ttakeanyshitfromanybody.
LilBit
lookedoverhershoulder
atonewhohad
crossbones
tattooedon her forehead.
She turnedback around.'Yo Cheese
lookwhatjustcamein'whispered
LilBit.
TinyandCheesyturnedaroundat the
sametime.Tinyrecognized
oneof the
womenthatwastalkingto thewhitegirl
thathit herintheface.Tinyinstantly
felt
hertemperrise.Itseemedlikehermouth
hada mindof it'sownwhenshestarted
talkingshitto the whitegirls,butbefore
Tiny could get out 'you fuckin'white
bitches' one of the women straight
bustedTinyin her alreadybrokenose.
It soundinglikea slabof meatbeinghit.
Tiny fell back as Cheesyand Lil Bit
jumpedout the way,afterall this was
Tiny'sbattle.Tinyfelt bloodtrickleinto
hermouthandwentoff.Tinyrushedinto
thewhitegirlandpunched
herintheside
of the face. The white girls buddies
backedoffjustasCheesyandLilBithad.
Tinywastryingto scratchthegirlseyes
out whenthe guardscamein. 'Everybodygetto yourcellsnowl'Yelledone
of the guards.Nobodymovedandbeforethe guardshada chanceto detain
Tinyshe kickedthe whitegirl deadin 1
the facewith her steeltoe workboots
andeverybodywatchedin slowmotion
astwoof thewhitegirlsteethwentsailing across the room. The guards
struggled for five minutestrying to
shacklea screamingandswollenface
Tiny.Oneof the guardsgavethewhite
girla kleenexasthewhitegirlwatched
Tinybeingtripleshackled.
BothCheesy
and Lil Bit shooktheir headsas their
friendwasbeingroughlyescorted
away
'Damn'saidLilBitasshepickedupher
chair.Cheesyandthe othergirlsinthe
roompickeduptheirchairsandsatback
downto watchthe movie.Nobodysaid
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tinueto screamandbeaton the door,we
will kickyourfat,black,assdo you understand?' The white male soundingvoice
said calmly.Tinyfrozein her tracks.'Do
you understand?'the voice said again
morefirmlyTinythoughtfor a secondand
replied 'Yeah, I understand• Tiny said
holdinghertongueknowingtheyrouldand
would kick her ass. Who would know?
She'salreadyfuckedup. Tiny lookedat
herselfin the metalmirror.Her face was
fuckedup.Shedidn'tlooklikeherselfanyFuckthis brokeshit thoughtCherias more.Peoplewillprobablycallhernames.
the hungerpainskickedin. I needfor Probably monster she though as she
Tiegerto giveme somemoneytoday. pickedup the sheetand blanket. 'Pssst
Cheridida quicku-turnandheadedto- whattheygot youin herefor?'Whispered
wardshercousinshouse.Assheturned a voicefromsomewhere.
'Whoin thefuck
thecornershesawT-Bonepullinginto are you?' SnarledTiny noticingthat the
her cousinsdrive way. I wonderif I voicewascomingfromthe wallwhichdishouldtalk shit to both of them she videdthecell.'I'mSahariI'vebeenin here
thought.Fuckitl Cheriwaiteda fewmin- 2 days.I knowit's gonnasoundcrazy,but
utesandthenpulledupbehindT-Bone's I'm in herefor kickingmy roommates
ass
carandgotout.
for eatingmy snickersbar. I'm serious.I
camebackto the room hungryand my
Tinyfell to the floorhardas the prison candybar was gone,I was readyto kick
guardspushedher intothe small5xl0 asssoI did'thevoicesaidpractically
bragcell.Theycallit the hole.Oneoftheof- ging_'I don'tfeelliketalkingrightnow'Tiny
ficersputher kneeintoTiny'sbackas saidas she laidtheblanketon top of the
he uncuffedher. Tiny squirmed,but sheet.'Yeahalrightmaybelater' saidSadidn'tsaynothing.Shewassomadthat hari.Tinylaidherfullsizebodyonthelumpy
shecouldkill somebody,
butsheheldit mattressandstartedto cry.Shecriedbein. One of the guardsthrew a white causeshe was a blackwomanwho was
sheetand a armyblanketin her face fat,broke,beatup,in a prisonholeandno
andlaughedasshelockedthecelldoor. oneto loveher.Saharilistenedto Tinycry,
Tinygotupmadthana muthafuck.
She and for oncein her life actuallyfelt sorry
pacedthe floorfeelingout of control. for someoneelse.
She was mad aboutbeingin prison,
beingfat,havingtwoblackeyesanda Cheesywalkedintothe gameroom.She
brokenose.Shewasmadbecauseshe contortedher face into a seriousfrown
couldn'tdoa damnthingaboutbeingin whenshe saw Kittenflirtingwith another
the hole.'I hateall you muthafucka'sl' inmate.'Hey Cheesyyou know Big Toni
Tinyyelledat the top of her lungs'as right?' Asked Kitten when she saw
shebeaton thesteelcelldoorwithher Cheesy'sfucked up expression.'Yeah
largefists.'Shitl'Tinyscreamedasshe yeahyeah'saidCheesygivingBig Tonia
feltpainspringupherarmwhenshehit fakehandshake.BigToninoticed,butdethedoor.A voicecameoverthe
cidednot to trip, but then againwhy not.
intercom.'LonnieWilliamsif you con- 'Hey Kitten,how'saboutyou and meget-
tin'togethersometime'saidBigToniin her
smoothwomanlyvoice.'Yeahwe can do
that sometime' said Kitten acting as if
Cheesywasnoteventhere.Cheesycould
feelherfaceget hot.BigTonistoodhersix
one frame up and walkedoff withoutanotherword.Cheesyreachedin herpocket
andpulledouta toothpickandstuckit into
her mouth.'Oh it's like that now?'Asked
Cheesyfeelingjealousandwondering
why.
ShehadknownKittenlessthana weekand
she was alreadygettingfeelingsfor her.
'Don'tevenstepto me likethat'saidKitten
givingCheesythe palmas shegot up,basicallystillpissedoffbecauseCheesydim't
finishthe job lastnight. 'Yougota woman
andyou gonnaact funkyjustbecauseI'm
talkingto someoneelse,shit, I ain't even
seeingyou aboutnow'saidKittenas she
walkedoutthegameroom.Cheesyalmost
followedKitten,butthenagainthat'sprobablywhatKittenwants.Cheesylookedfor
an availablepayphoneto callTieger.
Tieger and T-Bonewere arguingwhen
Cheriknockedonthefrontdoor.Tiegerran
to the livingroomminiblindsand peaked
out. Cheriwas lookingrightat her.Cheri
knockedagain,but this time louder.She
saw Tiegerpeakout so she knowsshe's
homeand T-Boneis with her.'It's Cheril'
whisperedTiegerto T-Bone.'Calmdown
I'll handlethis'saidT-Bonethinkingabout
the5g'sshe'llbegettingina coupleofdays
T-Boneopenedthe doorandstoodtoweringoverCheri.'What'sup?'T-Boneasked
Cheriwhensheopenedthedoor.Cheriwas
thrownoff guard becausealthoughshe
knewT-Bonewasthereshedidn'texpect
her to openthe door' I needto speakto
Tieger'saidCheritryingnotto feel intimidatedby T-Bonewhowasobliviouslybigger and tougherlookingthanCheri.'She
ain'there'T-Bonelied.'So whyis the Lex
inthedriveway?'Cheriaskedknowingthat
theywereplayinggames.T-Bonetriedto
be cool,but she knewshe hadto stepto
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GAY BLACK FEMALE January 1998 J_
What Sistah's Can Do To Stop Racism
GAY BLACK FEMALE January 1998
Who Are The Gay Black Females?
ByTa'ShiaAsanti
HowIt Happens-
havethe powerto determine
the outcomeof sitin highplacespolitically
andthatis why
someone's
life. Youcanhatemealldayand racismis allowedalloverthe globe.ReliMostof us havegrownso accustomed
to liv- nightbutyoucan'tstopmefromgettinga job gionis usedto coverup all kindsof racist
ing1Mth
racism,wedon'tevenknowwhenits or gettingin a school.Youcan hatemebut activitiesand manyBlacksstill believe
whereI \Milliveandthe Jesuswasandis a whiteman.Andsex?
happening.Partof thesystemof racismisto you can'tdetermine
deadenour resistance
and responseto the qualityofmyhealthcare.Peopeofcolor,even Whatbettertoolto useto kill Blacksthan
ofthepeopeonthe sex.Weareoppressed
anddepressed
and
dailyassaultswe encounter.It is the same thoughwearenine-tenths
vi- 1
wayin whichthe whipwasusedto breakus planet,donothavepoweron thisplanetand we arean easytargetfor a man-made
thesystem ruscalledAIDSbecause
weusesextofeel
downandgetustothepointwherewebelieved we neverIMIIuntilwe understand
Inordertomaster betteraboutourselves
andarecompulsive
we deservedto be calledniggerand to be ofracismandhowit wCJks.
youmustfirstunderstand
it. Sohere IMthit. Andfinally,WAR Waris a wayto
beaten.Nowtheirwhipsarethejobswe are anything,
slavesto. Theslaveownersareournewcars it is in a nutshell.Racismis aboutthepower divertusfromthetruthcomingout about
andlavishhomes.Whoarethecarandmort- equationof whiteovernon-white.11is about racismWhenyouthrowa groupof-people
gagecompanies
ownedby?Whitefolks.The geneticsurvival.I usedto thinkit wasabout into completecrisissurvivalmode,they
otherpartof themoderndayslaverysystem moneybutmoneyis notthecauseofracismit don't have time to think about racism.
happens
whenwhitefolkszoomin on a pow- is a toolto keepit in place.AsI statedbefore, They'retoo busytryingto survive.It has
of thepeople workedforcenturies.
erful,intelligentBlackperson.Theygiveus peopleof colorare nine-tenths
thejob, thetitle,a secretary
anda fat salary. ontheplanet.Onetenthofthepeopleonthe
of the people Nowthatwe havesomewhat
of an underTheyremindusinsometimes
subtlewaysthat planetare holdingnine-tenths
atthischess standing
'they'gavethisto us. Sowhenwe hearracist hostage.I'dsaytheyare11,1nning
of racism,
whatcanwedoto stop
aboutraccorm,ents
or seeanotherbrotherCJsisterget- game Whatdo you thinkwouldhappenif it? Wecanspeakupin numbers
meat-warfare,
warin ist behavioron ourjobsandinstitutepolitingtreatedunfairly
duetoracism,
wesaynoth- crack,AIDS,aparthied,
ing. Why?Because
themastah,oopsI mean thirdworldcountriesandgangviolencewas ciesto protectourselves.Wecanlendour
thebills-forthatstuff, youknowstufflikethe eliminated?Peopleof colorwouldtakeover time and energyto organizationsand
RangeRover,
ceUphone,thehouseonthehiU, the planetl Don'tthinkfor oneminute,I and causeswhichfightracismWecanrefuse
remarksand
Tommy
Hilfigerdotheswhichmakeusfeellike nowyou,arethe onlypeoplewhoknowthat to tolerateracistcomments,
in ourpersonal
life. Oursilence
wealldat'(yeahI usedebonies)
aredue.Stuff fact. Whydo youthinkthe abovewascre- treatment
notprotectus! Wecanteachourchilthatthewhiteworldsaysshowsthatwe are ated?ThatsrightI saidcreated'Letmebreak 11,111
isimpernented
through drenaboutracismandthepastchallenges
successful.So,justlikethe olddays,wedo itdownfurther;Racism
channels:
EconCJnics,
Education, andvictoriesour forefathers
andmothers
whatthemastertellsusandshutuptosecure thefollov.ing
Labor,Law,Politics,Religion, achievedso theywon'tforgetwherewe
ourimagined
placein thisworld.But,justlike Entertainment,
oldtimes,soonerorlaterthemasterafterthe Sex, War. Threethingsput it in motion: camefromandlestreturn.Wecansupport
firstyou thesistahsinourcommunity
whoaredoing
mastahhasletusgetridofalltheotherBlacks, Thought,SpeechandActionbecause
andthishastobetheprimary
he sendshisboysfor ·us.· Somehow
we're thinkit, thenyousayit, thenyoudo it. Eco- thiswCJk
wa-k
whttesmaintain
contrci
throughkeep- becauseall formsof discrimination
layedoff orfired. Whenwe getto the unem- nCJnically
stem
banksand fromracism.Thegayandlesbiancommuployment
office,whoarewe standingnextto ingthewealthintheircorm,unities,
Africancul- nityisnotgoingtofightracism
inline,thesisterv.e
ddn'tspeakupfa-.Check- institutions.Througheliminating
foruspeople
turein the educational
systemtheykeepthe ofcola-because
mate.
themajority
ofthegayand
generations
of Blackchildrenignorantto their lesbiancommunity
1Mth
anypolitical
power
powerfulhistoryand their ancestralgifts arewhtteandracism
isnotanissueofthem.
HowwecanstopitWhitesmanipulate
theentertainment
industry
Blacksto makemoviesandmu- Nobodyknowswhatits liketo be on the
Number
one,wecanlearnto understand
what to encourage
thentheycol- frontlines
ofthisabomination
calledracism
racismreallyis. Manypeoplemistakeit 11,1thsicwhichdepictus as animals,
ofthecheck.Theyusesports exceptanotheractivist.It takeseverything \
hateor hatecrimes.Thereis a hugediffer- lectthemajority
thesameway.Slavelaborstill we haveto standupagainstit. Wecando
ence.SeeI canhatemysistahorbrother,but entertainment
thathateis justwords,it reallydoesn'thave existin manythirdworldcountriesaswellas thissistahs,we mustdo thisandwe \Mil,
~
anypower.WhenI or the personwhoI hate in theUnitedStates.Thesamelegalsystem ACHE'.Willyoudoyourpart?
pullsouta dollarbill,whatraceisthefacethat thatwascreatedby slaveownersis the one
of the KluKluxKlan PeaceandBlessing
in 1998.Wev.illliveto
isonit? Racism
isaboutpower.Hatedoesn't weusetoday.Members
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seethedawn,Ta'Shia
Asanti.■
R
ecentlyI saw a coupleof women
walkingdownthe streetandit was
obviousbythewaytheywalked,dressed
andactedthattheyweregay.Butwere
they?Peoplealwayswantto stereotype
Whatgaypeoplelookandactlikeintheir
heads. I eventhink that somepeople
thinkthat mostgay womenare these
hardcorestud womenthat look they'll
kickyourass.WhileI'msurethosetypes
aredefinitelyoutthere,I believethe averagegaywomanyoucannottell isgay.
I wrote this article so that if a straight
homophobicpersonwere to readthe
articleshe would understandthat gay
womenlookjust like her.
Womenwho act like guys,but in the bed- Womenwho dress like men, lookslike a
roomfem up.
woman,but acts like menby havingmore
than onewoman.
Womenwho wear men's cloths so that
Womenwho liketo seduceotherwomen.
when she goes out in public with her
womanpeoplewillthinktheyarea couple
Womenwho feel theycan'ttrust men.
Womenwho are divorced,but alwaysfan- Womenwhowantthesensitivityandtouch
tasizesaboutbeingwith a woman.
of a woman.
Womenthatsaiditwouldneverhappento Womenwho have kids, but now that the
them.
kids are grown seeksto fulfill her secret
desires.
Womenwho are married,but alwaysfan- Womenwho are afraidof men.
tasizesaboutbeingwitha woman.Madeit
happen.
Teenagerswho are the daughtersof lesI thinkthegaywomenoutthereare:
biansand now havebecomelesbians(by
Womenwho wereat first paranoidabout choice).
Womenwho were once curious,and lesbians.
nowlivethislife.SomesatisfytheircuriTeenagersthat have crushes on other
osityan go backto the brothers.
Womenwho feel they are a mantrapped samegenderteenagers.
in a woman'sbody.
Womenwhohavebeentreatedsobadly
by menthattheythinka womanwilltreat Womenwho are married.
thembetter.
Womenwhofeelemotionally,
spirrtually
and
physicallyfreewith otherwomen.
Womenthat looklike you.
Womenwho havewatchedtheir brothers
Womenwho have never been with a growup and vowto be likethem.
I truly believe that every woman that
man.
choosesto be with anotherwomanis doingit becausesomethinghashappenedin
Womenwho wererapedby men.
her life.It couldstemfromsimplecuriosity
Womenwho didn't get love as a child
to beingborn a man in a woman'sbody.
fromtheirmotherandnowseekit out in
Womenin the music/filmindustry,politics,
This is only my opinion,but I bet at least
anotherwoman.
mothersand yourco-workers.
one of thesescenariosfit you.■
Womenwhocomfortablein thearmsof Womenwho just want to have a sexual
anotherwoman.
contact.
SISTERHOOD
b o o k s t
Womenwhofeel they can'tget a man. Womenwhoarefeminine(theydon't'look'
gay)
Womenthat weresexuallyor emotionallyabusedas children.
Womenwho are handicapped.
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The 6th annual Pan African Film Festival & Arts Show
Returns to Celebrate the Diaspora, Offering Movies, Fine
Art, Music and Dance for All. Thursday February 5th
through Monday February 16, 1998 at the Magic Johnson
Theatres. Celebrity guest host include Blair Underwood and
Alfre Woodard.
Train Station is a sixteen minute film short written and
starring Ta'Shia Asanti, and Directed by Stephanie Wynne.
It's about a lesbian who in the l 950's searches for love in a
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contact
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direct
at
for The Love Of Bessie's Girls
AlbertaHunter:A Celebration
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today Zorawasnot onlya prolificwriter,
butaninvolved
anthropologist
anda (tosay
theleast)delightfulfolklorist.
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1900-1950
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Cheriandquick.T-Bonesteppedonto the
porchandclosedthe doorbehindher. TBone then snatched Cheri by her cheap
jacket collar. "I know the game you
playing" T-Bone hissed into Cheri's
face. "And I'm only going to say this
one time. If you ever come over here
again threatening to black mail Tieger
I will lock you in that raggedy Hyundai and set fire to it" T-Bone pushed
Cheri into the wall and released her
hold. For a second Cheri froze with terror. Then reality stepped in. "Fuck
you!" Cheri yelled at T-Bone as she ran
wards her car. "You don't scare me
bitch! Don't you know who you're
talking to bitch?!" Cheri screamed at
T-Bone as she tried to start her car. TB one ran towards Cheri's car and
kicked a dent in the door. Cheri continued to try to start her car as Bone
kept kicking dents into it. Several
neighbors had began to notice the
ruckus. Cheri finally got he car started
just as T-Bone picked up a brick and
threw it at Cheri's windshield. T-Bone
missed by an inch as Cheri backed out
the driveway and sped off.
"Why did you do that T-Bone?" Yelled
Tieger when T-Bone walked back into
the house. "What if she tells Toitoi?"
"Don't worry she won't. I had to scare
her a little bit" said T-Bone walking
into the kitchen and getting a Corona
out the fridge. "You know if she tells
Toitoi we're dead right?" Said Tieger
all in the back ofT-Bones neck. "I said
don't worry about it she ain't gonna say
shit. Just give her the fuckin' money"
T-Bone said easing the last line into the
paragraph. "Give her the money?
Why? Why should I give her the
money when she's probably gonna tell
Toitoi anyway!" Yelled Tieger all in
the back of T-Bone's neck again. TPage 30
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Prisoner
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Bone turned around so quickly that dollarsforwhatkindofjob?'AskedTieger
Tieger bumped into her causing T- lookingat T-Bone.'Don'tworrybabywe
Bone to drop her Corona. "Look at this can affordfive hundreddollars' said
shit! I'm trying to help you and you Cheesy.Tiegerpointedto the beer on
trippin'. I'm outta here" said T-Bone the floorandthenlookedat T-Bone.Tjust as the phone rang. Tieger stepped Bonerolledher eyesandwalkedback
over the spilled beer and answered the intothelivingroom.'So youtakingcare
Anyphone as T-Bone grabbed another beer of businessbaby?Anyproblems?
out the fridge and walked into the liv- bodycomingaroundaskingquestions?'
AskedToitoi.'No to all yourquestions.
ing room.
As a matteroffactit'squiet'saidTieger.
"Will you accept a collect call from, 'Anything happnin' in there?' Asked
butshebetcaller say your name" said the opera- Tiegernotreallyconcerned,
tor. "Toitoi" said Cheesy. If Tieger had ter actlikeit. 'It's a trip A friendof mine
known that it was Toitoi she wouldn't got intoa fightwiththiswhitegirla few
have picked up the phone. "Yes" said daysagoin thefoodlineandshegottwo
Tieger trying to sound happy about blackeyes,a brokennoseandendedup
hearing from her woman who was in thehospital.Thenshegotoutandgot
locked down for three years. "Hey intoanotherfightwithsomeof thewhite
baby" said Toitoi aka Cheesy. "Hi girl'sskinheadfriends.So nowshe'sin
baby" said Tieger lighting up a ciga- the hole.This other girl I knowthrew
rette. "I'm just checking in with you somebleachin thiswhitegirlsfacebebaby" said Cheesy actually feeling causethegirltooktoo longwashingher
good about talking to Tieger. She had clothes,butotherthanthatit's all right.I
been so tied up with Kitten that she al- meanI don'tthinkI couldevergetused
I can
most forgot about her woman Tieger. to it, but underthe circumstances
"I'm just thinking about you and how livewithit' saidCheesy.'Soundsexcitfell in the
crazy I've been acting" said Cheesy. ing'sighedTieger.Something
I'm sorry for saying I want to be background'Whatwasthat?' Cheesy
friends. It's just that I miss you baby" askedwonderingif it wassomeoneelse
Tieger lied. "I miss you too" Cheesy overthere. 'I gota cat'liedTieger.'You
lied. "Hey baby you coming to visit me gota cat?I thoughtyoudidn'tlikecats?'
'Well since
this weekend?" Asked Cheesy because SaidCheesysuspiciously.
she wanted to make Kitten jealous. youain'therethecatkeepsmecompany'
Kitten was fine witl1her reddish brown Tiegerliedas shewalkedintothe living
dreadlocks and dark brown coco skin, roomwith her cordlessphone.T-Bone
hershoulbut Tieger was fine too. She looked like lookedatTiegerandshrugged
a healthier version of Toni Braxton. ders.Tiegerrolledher eyes,saton the
"Yeah I'll be out there" Tieger sighed. couch,andlit a Newport
"Come looking fine baby" said Cheesy
smiling into the phone. "I will" said 'Sowhat'supTieger?Youstilldownwith
Tieger as T-Bone walked into the me or what?Said Cheesygettingirrikitchen. Tieger puts her index finger tated.Thelasttimeyoucameto visityou
to herlipstell T-Boneto be quite. 'BabyI wastalkingaboutbeingmyfriendand
wantyouto giveCherifivehundreddollars nowyoutellingmeyouwerejustfeeling
she'sdoinglittlejob for me' saidCheesy. crazy.I'm hearingnoisesandshitin the
andnowyoutellingmeyou
'Youwant me to give Cherifive hundred background
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got a cat, whatkind of shit is that?' Said Therewerea lotofrumorsofwhathap- self as she calledthe dopemanto get a
Cheesyswingingherponytell intothe pay pened,butthetruthto the storyis that twentysackof chroniconcredit.Thedope
phone.TheCherokee
sideof herwasstart- Toitoiwasintherightplaceat the right mansaidyes.Cheripickedupherkeysand
ingto comeout.Tiegerwantedto scream timewhena drugdealwentbad,and bailed.Fuckthoseho'sshethoughtasshe
No11111
wantou\111,
butToitoihadmoneyshe afterthe gun fight she went in to the startedhumming'We'reIn TheMoney.'
andgrabbeda doubledtrash
couldn'tget to. At least not yet anyway apartment
Tiegerstubbedout her cigaretteand laid bagfull of money.Nobodyevenknew 'Hey Tinycan you hear me?Tinyl'Lil bit
loudly.AlthoughTinywasinthe
backonthe leathercouchandopenedher it wasmoney,theythoughtit wastrash whispered
legs.T-BonelookedatTiegerwnheyebrows shewasaboutto throwout,andthat's hole,if someonespokethroughtheairvent
upasTiegerspoke'I dofeellikethreeyears whatshedid.Shethroughthe money theinmatesoouldhearthem.Unfortunately
is a longtimetotell youthatain'tnothingis intothe trashdump.Theonly reason allthe inmatesin the holecouldheareach
evergonnahappen'saidTiegeras sheslid Toitoiis in jailisbecauseherfootprints other. Lil Bit calledfor Tinyagain.'If she
andyellherhandacrossherbreast,downherstom- werefoundin somecokepowderand camein herelastnightscreaming
achto herthickblackbush.Shearchedher matchedto a pairof shoessheworea ing,I thinkshe'ssleep'a voicesaidto Lil
backas she squeezedher pussy.T-Bone lot.So Toitoi'sfootprintsled the Feds Bit.'Who'sthere?'WhisperedLil Bitto the
continued
to lookathercrazy.'Butrightnow to Toitoi.Theycouldn'tpinanythingon voice.'Sahari'saidSahari.'I'm Lil Bit,tell
I'maboutto enrollin someclassesandget her,butgaveherthreeyearsbecause Tiny I cameby okay' said Lil Bit as she
mylifetogetherand stopwastingmytime' she had to knowsomething,but they scurriedaway.'Okay'saidSahari.Hmmh
liedTiegerasshebeckoned
T-Bonewnhher couldn'tproveit. Eventuallythe Feds TinySaharithought,theymustcallherthat
thatToitoiwasbuying becauseshe mustbe petite Soundslike
indexfingerto comeover.T-Bonefollowed wereconvinced
Tieger'sfingerthat lead her directlyto Ti- somecrack.Toitoididn'targue.Sothe mykindof womanSaharithoughtas she
andnowshe pickedupanothermagazineandbeganto
gersbush.T-Boneplantedher headdeep. lawgotherforconspiracy
'I'mnotthinkingaboutdatinganybodyelse wasin a federalprisonforthreeyears. readsincethat'sall youcandowhenyour
becauseI loveyou.All I'msayingis thatwe The Fedsdon'tevenknowaboutthe in the holeand she wouldbe in thereat
leastanotherthreedays.
bothhaveto keepanopenmind.You'rethe moneyor havegaveup looking
onesurrounded
by women'saidTiegerlyingaboutgoingto school,doingbetterand Cheri was mad. 'You wanna play Itfeltgoodmailingthe letter.Cherithought
lovingToitoi.All sheplannedondoingwas gamesbitches'she yelledoutloudto as she crackedher knuckles.Oh yeahI'll
gettinghighand fuckedsinceall the bills herself.WhenCherigothomeshede- fixtheirasses.HercousinToitoiakaCheesy
werepaidforthreeyears,shedidn'thaveto cidedto write her cousinToitoiaka as she'sknownaroundthe prisonwould
AndifTieger
doshit.Butsheknewif Toitoifoundoutthat Cheesya letter.Shewouldtellherthat gettheletterbythisweekend.
shewas sleepingwith T-Boneshe would Tiegeris fuckin'aroundwith T-Bone, goesto see her all hell will breakloose.
andgotherhaveCherior somebodykick her out the andthatsheshouldtrusta familymem- Cheristoppedbythemini-mart
triplexwith no money,and no Lexus.The ber with her money arrangements. self an Old English900 juicer,and then
onlyreasonshewashangingaroundis be- Cherismiledatthethoughtof catching rolleda fat chronicjoint.All she hadto do
causeToitoigot money.Eventhoughshe T-BoneandTiegerin theactandkick- waskickbackandwaitfor hercousinToihasaccesstoa littlebitofthemoneyitwasn't ing theirass out and then she would toi to call her.Shewouldgo to see her in
Cheriprayed
enoughto bail out.'AnywayI haveto go' runshit. Shecouldmovein andsmoke person,butshehaswarrants.
saidCheesy.'I'll be upthereto seeyouthis chronicall day Her mouthwateredat for her Hyundaito starton the first try. It
weekend'Tiegersaid.'Good,I'll be looking the thought.As a matterof fact Cheri did.
forwardtoseeingyou'Toitoisaid.I loveyou liked her newidea betterthan black
Tieger'Toitoilied.'I loveyoutoo'Tiegerlied. mailingTiegerand T-Bone,plus she Cheesyhada dreamthatnight.Shedreamt
Theybothhungupandsighedat the same could live rent free for three years. that she had gottenout of prison.All the
time.T-Boneraisedherheadupandlooked Cheri'scouchsunk in when she sat wayto herhouseshewassmilingandfeelat Tieger.'That 'I love you'sure sounded downtowriteToitoia threepageletter. inggood.Nobodyknewshehadgottenout
real' said T-Bonesarcastically.
'Maybeit ShewantedToitoito get this letteras and she was gonnasurpriseTieger,but
was' said Tigerboldly T-Bonerolled her soonas possible.Cherismiledto her- whenshe got to her houseit had turned
eyes.
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ThenextmorningLilBitfoundoutthatthere Slickwavingthembothoff If Cheesydidn't
was going to be a shakedown,which know any better she thoughtthat Slick
meantthat~ anycontraband
wasfoundyou winkedat her.And if, so why? Cheesy
loseprivileges,commissary
or if you had didn'tpay it any mindand herand Lil Bit
drugs,yougetputinthehole.LilBitwarned wentto work.
Cheesyanda fewothers. 'YeahI heard
thatSlickwasdoingthatshakedown'said 'Psstheyoverthere'Sahariwhisperedto
Lil Bit as shewatchedCheesytie up her Tiny.Tinyheardherbutdon'tfeelliketalktennisshoes.Slickwasa guardthatwas ing so she pretendednotto hearSahari
oncea federalprisoner.Nobodyknowsif althoughshedidlikeSahari'sname.'One
it'strue.SlickandCheesyactuallyfavored of yourfriendswas overherelookingfor
eachother. Theywerethe sameheight youearlier.LilBttI thinkshesaidhername
andbuildandtheybothworetheirhairin was?' Tinysat up. 'When?'AskedTiny
ponytails. 'DamnI don'tfeellikegoingto anxiously.'A littleafterlunch'saidSahari.
worktoday'Cheesysaidas shestoodup 'DamnI mustof beenknockedout' said
and grabbedher brush.Her roommates Tinyas she triedto get up but her body
hadalreadygoneto workso it wasjusther ached al I over. 'Ohhhh moanedTiny
andLilBit.'I don'thaveanythingsoI really deeplyasshetriedto getupfromthe matain'tworried'saidCheesyas shebeganto tress. "Damn you sound like you in
brushher hair. 'So what'shappnin'with pain" said Sahari. "I am" winced Tiny
you and Kitten?'AskedLil Bit sinceshe as she barely stood up. Sahari visualsawBigTonihangingoutwithKitten.'She ized what Tiny looked like. She figtriedto playme in frontof BigToni'said ured Tiny was probably approached by
Cheesyasshepickedhertoothbrush.'It's some rough neck and had to defend her
alrightthough,I justdon'thavetimeto trip poor little self against some amazon.
Let'sgo' saidCheesyas shegrabbedher It made Sahari mad to think that her
workgogglesandjust as shedid, Officer baby Tiny whom she had not met yet
Slickand hertwosidekicksburstintothe was being bullied. "You alright over
cell. 'WellJohnsonwhatyouhidin'in here there?" Asked Sahari. "Yeah" replied
todayas Slicktoldtheothertwoofficersto Tiny. Thanks for asking" said Tiny
friskCheesyand Lil Bit and shakedown wondering
whatSaharilookedliked.
theroom.Cheesyhatedwhentheofficers
wouldfriskher.It seemedliketheyalways At workKittennoticedthatCheesywasn't
squeezedherbreast.'ComeonSlick,you givingheranyenergy.Soshedecidedto
knowI ain'tthe one to haveany contra- bowdownandapproachher. 'So what's
band'said Cheesyas the officercontin- up you madat me?'AskedKitten. 'Nah
uedto friskher.Slickwhowasalsoknown I'malright'saidCheesycontinuing
to sand
to havesleptwitha few inmateslaughed. thewoodenshelf.ActuallyKittendidmake
Thepit?Whereandwhatthe hellwas 'You'refunnyJohnson,but you'renot in- her jealous, but she was so fine that
thepit?Thought
Gigi,anothercellmate. nocent.That'swhytheycallyou Cheesy Cheesycouldn'thelpbutforgiveher. 'I'm
Gigihad heardCheesytalkingin her huh? Cuz you supposedto be 'Da Big sorryabouttheothernight,I justdidn'twant
sleepandwasmorethanwillingto stay Cheese' right?' Said Slick smiling at to getcaught'saidCheesylookingintoKitupandlistenbecauseeverybody
knew Cheesy. 'WhateverSlick' said Cheesy. tens sexybrowneyes. 'Meet me in the
that Cheesywas alwayssmilingbe- Shehatedit whenofficersmadeherfeel gymbathroomafterdinnerandI'll makeit
causeshehadsomemoneyhidsome- likea criminaleventhoughshewas one. upto you' Cheesywhisperedintoherear.
where.Couldit bethepit?Gigithought 'Canwe goto worknow?'Lil Bitaskedof- Kittensmiledandwalkedbackoverto her
ficerSlickafterthefrisk 'Yeahgeton' said work area.
assheyawnedandturnedover.
into a to a old dumpy trailer home.
She had the right address,but this
wasn'therlargetriplex.Sheturnedto
getbackintothecab,but the cabwas
goneandhercousinCheriwasparked
therein heroldgoldHyundai.Where's
my house she could heard herself
screamas she ranoverto Cheri'scar
asif inslowmotion.Cheristartedlaughing,andwhenCheesyturnedaroundto
seewhatshewaslaughingat, Cheesy
sawT-BoneandTiegerdiggingup her
money.
Howdidtheyknowwhereto dig
wasCheesy'sthoughtas sheranover
to themin slowmotion.All of a sudden
Cheesyfelt herselfbeinggrabbedby
someoneandthenshefelt handcuffs
go tightly around her wrist. She
screamed
atTiegerandT-Boneforthem
to leaveher moneyaloneand all they
didwaslaugh.CheesywatchedCheri
jointhemas shestruggledto getaway
fromthecops.'I'ma getallyoubitches''
Cheesyscreamedat them.'That'smy
moneyburiedin the pit, let mego you
muthafucka's'Cheesy yelled. 'Hey
Cheesywake up' said Mariaone of
Cheesy'sroommates.
'Hey girl you're
yellingin yoursleepandyou'rewaking
usup' saidMariaas sheclimbedback
intoherbunk.Cheesywipedher eyes
and lookedat her clock.It was 4am.
'SorryMaria'said Cheesyfluffingher
pillowand gettingcomfortable.That
dreamwas so real she thought.One
thingforsureisthatshe'stheonlyone
thatknowswherethe moneyis.
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anyway.'Chee...sy...!' KitEverything
isgettingcrazyT-Bonethought It wasseveno'clockwhenCherireceived continued
as shehandedthecustomerthe receipt. thecallfromTieger.Cheriwasshockedto ten yelled. 'I'm comingbaby!"Kitten
Sheneeded
tofigureoutawaytoconvince hearthatTiegerhadthemoneyandallshe pantedvery loudly. Sssshhhhsaid
Tiegerto giveherthemoneyto payCheri hadto do waspickit up.Afterwhathap- Cheesygettingexcitedrightalongwith
beforeshegoesto see Toitoion visiting penedearlierwithT-Bonethelastthingshe Kitten.I'mcomingbaby! I'mcoming!'
day.I guesstheonlywayto convinceher expectedwasfor Tiegerto takeherseri- saidKittenraisingup off the sink,but
is to tell her I loveher. T-Bonesighedat ous. Cheriimmediately
grabbedherkeys Cheesyheldherfirmlyin placeas she
tosuckharder.
'Laymeonthe
thethoughtasthenextcustomer
droveup. andfledoutherapartmentShewasgonna continued
have five thousanddollars.Cherifroze floor panted Kitten. "It's cold" said
kissingKittenwithpussybreath.
Tiegerslippedonherhobootsandgrabbed whensheremembered
thatshehadmailed Cheesy
the keysto the Lex. Shedecidedthatii theletterandthattherewasa goodchance I don'tcarelay me on the floor!"Said
wouldbesmarterfor herto goto thebank that Tiegerwas goingto see her cousin Kittenfeelinghotterthan a furnace'
togetthemoneyandpayCheri,thenCheri Toitoiat BroncoStatePrisonthisweekend CheesyhelpedKittento thefloor."Put
tellingToitoiwhat'sgoingon betweenher . It didn'tmatterto Cheriasshepickedup yourfingersinsideme"moanedKitten
andT-Bone. WhenTiegerreachedthe herpace.Theonlythingthatmattered
was as shegyratedherhips."Putyourfinfrontdoorsherealizedthatshehadforgot gettingthe moneyand payingbackthe gersinsideme"moanedKittenas she
gyrated her hips to accommodate
herpursecanister
andwentintothekitchen dopeman.
Cheesy's
longfingers.
Cheesy
tookthree
tofilluptheminipursecanister
fullofvodka.
Tiegersmiledto herselfwhenshehungup of herfingersandpushedtheminside
Kittenlookedatherwatchforthethirdtime thephone.T-Bonewouldbeproudof her Kittens wet vagina. 'Che ...
..! 'Kittenpanted.
'Suckmy
that hour. Shecouldn'twaituntildinner forgivingCherithemoney.Maybenowthey esy..Cheesy
wasover. Herpussywas itchingto get couldbe happier. Tiegerpickedup the pussy!'Kittenhissed.Cheesyreposihow tionedKittensbodyonthecoldconcrete
sucked.Shesmiledto herselfandlicked phonetocallT-Bone,butremembered
floor.Kittenbumped
herhead
herlipsatthethought."Whatareyoulook- madT-Bonegotthelasttimeshecalledher bathroom
ing at?"AskedBig TonibreakingKittens onthejob. Shewouldsurpriseherlater.If onthewallin theprocess.'Ouch!Shit
thoughts.'HeyToniwhat'sup?'SaidKit- Toitoifindsoutaboutthefivethousand
she'll I hit my head!"Kittenyelledbecoming
tenlookingupintoToni'snostrils."Justchil- tell her she had a car accidentor some- irritatedwiththe wholesituation.Why
lin'. Whatare you doingafter dinner?' thing and she settledwith the person. shouldI haveto fuckontheprisongym
floor?Especially
whenthere's
AskedBigTonisiftingnextto Kittenwith- Tiegerfeltsogoodthatshewouldcelebrate bathroom
womanontheprisoncompound
outKitten'spermission.
Gettingmypussy by havinga vodkaontherocks.Shehap- another
suckedis whatKittenwantedto say. 'I'm pilystrolledintothekitchenpoppedthetop who'swaitingformeina nicewarmbed
goingtoplayvolleyball
inthegym'saidKit- fromthevodkaandtooka longswigwith- Kitten thought as Cheesy's hand
ten wishingBigToniwouldgo awaybe- outa frown.Ahhhhshesaidasshecarried poundedintoherflesh.'Stop! Cheesy
causeshe's truly not interested.I only thebottleintothelivingandturnedonMax- stop!' KittenyelledpushingCheesy's
neededyouto makeCheesyjealousKit- well.Asshegroovedtothemusicthedoor head away from her clit. Cheesy
snatchedherfingersoutof Kittensvaten thought."Toobad, I thoughtmaybe bellrang.
gina.'Damn!Whatyoutryingtodobreak
youwouldbeinterested
insomething
a little
suckit baby,suckit!' PantedKit- my neck or something?'Snapped
bitmoreintimate"
saidBigToniseductively 'Hmmmm
rubbingherneck.'I'msorrythis
lickedandsuckedonKitten's Cheesy
in herwomanly
voice.Kittenthoughtfora tenasCheesy
moment
aboutgettingherclitsuckedtwice clit. Kittenwassiftingonthesinkwithher wasn'tagoodidea.I don'tfeelrightfuckopenwhileCheesyfeasted. ing on the floor like this"said Kitten.
in onenightby twodifferentwomen.The legsstraddled
stoodupandturnedonthelight.
thoughtmadeherpussythrob.'Howabout Cheesyonly stoppedwhen someone Cheesy
I lookforyouafterthevolleyball
game"said knockedonthedoorto usethebathroom. Theybothlookedaroundthebathroom
Kittenas shegot up to emptyherdinner At thatpointshewouldjust tell themthat atthesametime.'I seewhatyoumean·
tray. 'Youdo that· saidBigTonias she she'sshitingandtheyshouldfindanother saidCheesy.Kittenstoodupandlooked
never
bathroom.CheesyhadtowarnKittensev- atherselfinthemirrorandthought
watchedKittenwalkaway.
herfacedandpicked
eraltimesfor moaningto loud,but Kitten again.Shewashed
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thousanddollars for blackmailingher
cousin's
girlfriendTieger.Tiegermadeher
promisenotto tell Toitoiby recording
her
voice on the tape recorderand Cheri
agreed,butsheknewthatit wastoo late
for she had alreadysenta letterto her
cousinToitoiwho'sinprison.Cheriheaded
Tinywasfeelingbetter.TalkingwithSa- forthe dopeman's
housein a hurry.She
harireallyhelpedtimetogoby. I wonderif paidDouggie
thedopeman
themoneyshe
sheI likeswomen
Tinythought
assherolled owedhimandDouggie
wassohappythat
Whatjusthappened
in there?Cheesy herlargebodyover.Hermattresslaidon he smokeda big fat bluntwithher.Cheri
thought
asshewalkedintheprisongym. top of a pieceof hard cementso there feltgoodwhensheleftDougies
apartment.
wasn'tanycushion.All the shitthathap- She still had forty-eighthundreddollars
Cherialmosthadthreecaraa:idents
try- penedain'tworthgettinglockedinthishole. cashin herpocket.A crackhead
watched
ingto getto hercousinshouse.When Tinygot up and lookedat herselfin the ChericomeoutofDougies
apartment
smilshe reachedher cousinsstreetshe mirror.Shewashideous.Herfacewas ing He then followedCherito her car.
creeped
aroundthecomer.It couldbe stillswollen,hernosewasbrokeandboth Cheriwassofuckedupthatshedidn'tnoa setup for all sheknows.Shedidn't hereyeswerestillblack. Hertop lip had ticethecrackhead's
shadowwhiskbyand
seeT-Bone's
carsoshepulledupnext swollenandit hada bigblackblister.Tiny thenhidebehindthebackof hercar.Just
toTieger's
Lexus.Shehatedblackmail- closedhereyesandwhenshedidshesaw as Cheriopenedher doorthe crackhead
inghercousin'sgirlfriendlikethis,but the gravypotcomingtowardsherfacein pulledout a switchbladeandran up beshehadto get paid Sincetheyain't slowmotion.Tinyquicklyopenedhereyes hindher.Hegrabbed
Cheribyherhairand
sharing
thewealth,something
hadtobe andshookherhead.'HeyTiny'whisperedputthe knifeto her throat.Cheriwasindone.ChericouldhearMaxwellplay- Sahari.Tinysmiledandstoodon top of stantlysober.Shecouldn'tlosethemoney.
ingwhenshewalkeduptothefrontdoor. herbunk.'What'supSahari?'AskedTiny 'Give me yourfuckin'moneybitchlThe
Shetooka deepbreathandknocked. 'I getoutof thisshitholetomorrow,
hissedintoCheri's
ear,butCheri
when crackhead
Tiegeropenedthedoorandwelcomed areyougettingout?'AskedSahari.'I don't wasfrozenstiff.Thiscouldn'tbe happenCheriin as if nothinghad happened know I couldbeinherethreeorfourmore ingto her.Cheriremembered
a movieshe
CheriknewTiegerhad to be drunk. days'saidTiny.'I'min H Unitsowhenyou sawwherethe ladysteppedon theguys
'Damnyougotherequick'saidTieger get out lookme up alright?'SaidSahari footandelbowedhimthestomach.'I said
turningawayfromCheriandwalking excitedaboutgettingoutthehole.It'sone givemeyo...' Cheristepped
onhisfootand
backintothelivingroom.Cheri'seyes thingtobe lockedina prison,butit'seven elbowedhim in the dick. Thecrackhead
scanned
the livingroom
areathende- worsebeinglockedintheprisonhole.Tiny dropped
theknife.Cheriturnedaroundand
cidednotto go inside.'I'll justwaitright felta littlejealousthatSahariwasleaving hit himin the mouth.Cheripickedupthe
hereuntilyougetthemoney'saidCheri becauseshewasstartingto feelcloserto knifeand grabbedthe crackhead
by his
feelingparanoidWhenTiegercame her. Sahariwouldlistento herfor hours. shirtcollar. 'Youevertry thatshitagain
backto thedoorshehada smallbrown Saharidoesn'tknowI'ma bigfatslobTiny and I'll kill youfooll' YelledCherias she
bagandtaperecorder.
'Comeoninhere thoughtasshelaidbackdownonthemat- kickedhimandgotintohercaranddrove
sowecangetthisshitoverwith.Either tress.Saharismiledto herself.Shesmiled away.'I won'tforgetyoubitch'thecrackwedothisnowor forgetit' saidTieger becauseshewasgettingouttheholeand headmumbled
ashegotupandstaggered
bluffingbecausesheknewshewanted because
shewasfinallygoingto meether away.
to endthe drama.Cherirelaxedand soonto be sweetlittleprettybaby,Tiny.
Walked
insidethetownhouse.
Sahariclosedhereyesanxiousto getthe WhenKittenwalkedintoBigToni'scellit
nightover.
waslike walkinginto a smallapartment.
T-Bonethoughtabouthowroughshe
Shehaddrapes,
afullsizebedandincense
wason Cheriearlier,but this ain't no Cherismiledas she walkedout of her burning.Wherein the helldidshegetingameandneitheris thatfivethousand cousin'shouse.Shehadjust gottenfive censein a prison?'Wowyourroomisthe
upherbra.Thelustwasnolongerthere.
Justas instantly
as ii hadcome,it had
gone. BothKittenand Cheesyfelt ii.
'WellI guessI'll seeyoulater'Cheesy
saidasshegaveKittena peckonthe
cheekand left the bathroom.Kitten
lookedat herselfin the metalmirror.I
don'tbelonghereshethoughtas she
bowedherhead.
dollars.T-Bonetookoff herworkuniform
andtossedit in thebackseatof hercar. I
guessI bettergo tell TiegerI loveherto
geton her goodsideT-Bonethoughtas
shepoppedan ErykahBadutapeintothe
deckandheadedoverto Tieger'shouse.
continued
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tellToishit!Howdidyougetyourownroom?' thing"saidTiegertryingtokissT-Bonewith takecareof it. Cheriwillprobably
Whydidn'tyoucallme?"Said
Kitten
askedBigToni.'Wellwhenyou've herliquorbreath.'I missed
you"liedT-Bone toianyway.
beenhereaslongasI have,youeven- asshetookoffherjacketandlaidii overa T-Bone.'Youtold me notto callyouat
tuallygetyourowncell' saidBigToni. nearby
chair.'Tiegerthere'ssomething
I've work"saidTiegerwithtearspouringdown
"Welldamnhowlonghaveyoubeenin beenwantingto tell you" said T-Bone. herface.T-Bonegotupandgrabbedher
here?'AskedKittensittingontheedge 'Whatis it baby?'AskedTiegersittingon jacket. 'Whereare you going?"Cried
ofBigToni'sbed.'I beeninhereseven thecouch.T-Bonesatnexther. 'Actually Tiegernot wantingT-Boneto leaveher
I wanttotellyoutoo"said alone.'I'm goingto get thatmoneyfrom
yearsandall I got is threemore'said there'ssomething
BigTonitakinga joint out of hertoilet Tiegerleaningto theleftthenright.'I love Cheri. Fuckher! Sheain'tgettingaway
us!"SaidT-Boneasshe
paperroll.'I knowthat'snotwhatIthink youTiegerandIwanttobewithyou.I know withblackmailing
it is? Damnhowdid you get that in Toitoiis yourwoman,but I can'thelpmy- stormedtowardthedoor.Tiegerraninto
andgrabbed
hertrenchcoat.
here?'AskedKittenstandingup and selfIjustwantto bewithyou"liedT-Bone. thebedroom
walking
overto BigToni.'I gotmycon- Tiegerlookedasif shewantedto cry. She SheranoutsideandhoppedintoT-Bone's
nections'
saidBigToniputtinga white reachedoverandhuggedT-Bonelightly. car. 'Whatareyoudoing"askedT-Bone
towelat thebottomof the celldoorso T-BonecouldI smellherstalebreath.'Well whenTiegergot intothecar. 'I'm going
thesmokewouldn'tseepout. BigToni I finallygotthatoffmychest'saidT-Bone withyou.I knowexactlywhereshelives"
lita cigarette
andthenlit thejoint. She gettingupandwalkingintothekitchenaf- whinedTiegerasshesatinthefarcorner
herhold.T-Bone
walked oftheseat."YoutuckedupTieger"saidTturnedoffthelightandsat onthebed. terTiegerreleased
'Soyouwannajoinme?"AskedBigToni backintothe livingroomwitha Coronain Boneas shestartedthe car. That'smy
takinga longhit. Kittensatnextto Big her hand. Tiegerwas silent. 'What's muthafuckinmoneyCherigot T-Bone
ToniasBigTonipositioned
herself
togive wrong'?I haven'tseenyou so quietbe- thoughtassheskiddedoutthedriveway.
Kittena charge.Kitteninhaleddeeply fore"saidT-Bone.'I'm sorry. I'vewaited
andthenlaidbackon BigToni'sbed. so longto hearyousaythatyouloveme" Thisstorywillconcludenextmonth.
'That'sgood.I feelit already'saidKit- saidTieger.T-Bonesat nextto Tieger.'I
tenkickingoff hershoes.Beingin Big loveyou too"saidTiegerlookinginto TToni's
roomwaslikebeingbackhome. Boneseyes. 'So whatnow'?"AskedTTheyfinishedthe skinnyjointandgot Bone. 'Well I'm goingto see Toitoithis
naked.
BigToniclimbedintobedbehind weekendand I'll tell her howI feel"said
Kitten
andputherarmsaroundher.Kit- Tiegertakinga sipofT-Bonesbeer.'What
tenfeltwarmandsecurewithBigToni. if shethreatensto kickyououtthehouse
ShefeltlikeBigTonicaredunlikeCheesy andcutoffyourcashflow'?"AskedT-Bone
akaToitoiwhodidn'tcarewhereshedid becauseif Toitoiwasgoingto cancelout
thewildthing. BigToniwouldbeeasy Tiegerandleaveherbrokethensheain't
topussywhipandplusBigTonimakes gottimetobetrippingwithher.'I ain'tworCheesy
jealous. Kittensmiledat the riedaboutToitoi,shit I'm runnin'!hangs.
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Why BlackWomen Must Speak Out
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OShasbecome
thethirdleadingcause
of deathamongblackwomenbetween
he agesof 25 and44.Thetotalnumberofyoungblackteen-age
girlswiththevirus
is alsoclimbing.At the rateit's going,by the
year2000therewillbemoreblackwomenand
blackbabiesdyingfromthevirusthananyother
groupontheplanet.Asblackwomen,whatcan
we do to makeoursistersawareof thisseriousdiseaseandhowcanwepreventbecominginfectedwithit?Howmaweeducatecommunities
ofblackwomenacrossthenationwho
havealreadytestedpositive,on howtheycan
live together,healthierlivesevenwith the virus?
Education
helpseveryone
Wecanbeginby realizingthatweareoursisters keepers.We muststarttalkingabutthis
situation.
WhetherHIVnegative
or positive,
we
canall benefitfromeducating
ourselves
about
this rapidlyspreadingdisease.Mensuffering
with the virus havelong beenwritingtheir
stores.Manywhitewomenare beginningto
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sistersto hear,share,readandwriteour stories.
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as prostitutes.
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interested
in storieswrittenby
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"yes·to unprotected
sex;womenunknowingly
infectedby theirhusbands,
boyfriends
or lovers;womenwhothoughtii wouldneverhappento them.I amseekingstoriesaboutblack
womenfromall walksof life.
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Writersmayfeelfreetousealiasesandchange
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by or aboutBlackwomenwho havetested
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ti
Building a Positive Self-Concept
By Traci Bryant - NYU
or thoseof youthatreadpartoneof myseriesI sureyoumightof Wheredoourexpectations
comefrom?Theycomefromourfundamental
foundit somewhatlimiting.
Thatwasonlybecause
ofspacereader. beliefsaboutourselves
andthewondaroundus. Ourbeliefsarebasedon
I hopethismonthI candaritya bitmoreofwhereI'mcoming
fromand our self-concept.
Everyone
of us hasa self-concept,
whichis thecontragoingwithmycdumn.
lingfactorin our performance.
Ourself-concept
is a combination
of allthe
ideas,thoughts
andexperiences
thathavehappened
lo usoverthecourse
Questions:
ofourlivesthatcometogether
toforma composite
imageofthepersonwe
believeourselves
to be.Wealwaysperformin a mannerconsistent
with
1.Am I usualyoptimistic,
anddo I usualyexpectthingsto workout our self-concept.
Theself-concept
is madeup of threefundamental
ingreweU?
dients.Understanding
of the self-concept
is a keyto understanding
and
unlocking
humanperformance.
Thefirstelement
of theself-concept
iswhat
2. Do I understand
theimportance
of myselfconceptin determiningwe calltheself-ideal,
or theidealself.Everyoneof us hasnumerous
picmybehavior?
turesfeelings
andthoughtsof theidealpersonwewouldmostliketo be.
It'susually
a composite
ofallthepeoplewehaveadmired.
Wearecontinu3. Whois thepersonI wouldmostliketobe - whatis myself-ideal? allyadjusting
our behaviors,
actionsandwordsto try to be morelikethat
idealperson.
4. DoI usualyexpectthebestof otherpeople?
II
Thesecondpartof theself-concept
is theself-image.
5. DoI likemyself?
is thewaywe seeandthinkaboutourselves;
it'sour"inner
mi'ror."Wetendto walk,talk,sit,act,think,andrelateto otherpeoplein a
6. DoI understand
thedifference
between
self~iking
andarrogance? manner
consistent
withthisselfimage,or innermi'ror.lfwewishtochange
wehaveto changethisinnerpicture.
ourexternal
performance,
Thelawof expectations
is a powerfuconceptthatsaysthatwhatever
we expectwithconfidence
becomesourownself-fulfiling
prophecy. Thethirdelementof theself-concept
is self-esteem.
II is therootof selfPeoplewhoenjoyhighlevelsof accomplishment
arecontinually
talking concept
andthecoreof humanpersonality.
Self-esteem
is themostimporlo andaboutthemselves
asthoughtheyexpectthingslo workoulwel. tantelementin humanperformance.
Thepersonwithhec1lhy
selfesteem
Expectations
havea powerfulimpacton ourrelationsh~s
withothers, likesherself.Peoplewho genuinely
likeandacceptthemselves
as valuandtheyhavea powerfuimpactonwhatwebecome.
al:lehumanbeingsperformat higherlevelsof effectiveness.
Say,"I like
myself,I likemyself,"
overandover,un0it is drivendeeplyintoyoursubTherearcthreekeytypesof expectations
thataffectourlives:first,the conscious.
expectations
our parentshadof us - theseexpectations
havea ci'amaticimpacton howwe performtoday;second,theexpectations
we
haveof our chldren,our spouses,
our suborcinales
andthe people Peoplewhogenuinely
likethemselves
andacceptthemselves
asvalual:le
wholookup to us - peoplewholookup to us alwaystry to ful11our personsli\e andacceptotherpeopleto thesamedegree.II is impossil:je
expectations
of them,whethertheyarepositive
or negative;
third,and to likeor to loveanybodyelsemorethanwe likeor loveourselves
At the
perhaps
mostimportant
of all,theexpectations
we haveof ourselves
- sametime,ii is impossible
to expectanyoneelseto ll<eandrespectus
whichmaybe highor low,positive
or negative.
morethenwelikeandrespectourselves.
Saying
"Ilikemyselris a positive
affirmation
thatcausesusto performin a moreeffective
manner.Theroot
problems,al behavioral
problemsandall d[ficultiesin
Thelawof attraction
saysthateachhumanbeingis a livingmagnet, of al personality
thatwe radiatethoughtenergyandthatwe invariably
attractintoour interactions
withotherpeoplelowself-esteem.
livesthepeopleandcrcumslances
thatharmonize
withour dominant
thoughts.
If wewishto attractdifferent
people,different
circumstancesCanyou answerthe fo/lowi1g
quest.bns?
If notyou mightwantto re-read
whereI'm oomingfrom.Weasblack
anddifferent
events,we haveto changethecontentof ourconscious thisarfic/eandrealyffy to understand
minds.Wecandramaticaly
improvethequalityof ourlivesby laking womenstraightor gay musttrulyfeelgoodaboutourselvesbeforewecan
wehaveveryhighexpeccon~dof ourmindsandmanufacturing
beliefsandexpectations
con- flutyfeelgoodaboutsomeoneelse.Sometimes
sistentwithwhatwe wantto happenin thefuture.Remember,
what tat.bnsof otherpeopleandwe don1knowwhy.
youthink,youare.A positivementalattitudeis an absdutely,
indispensal:le
prerequisite
forsuccess.
Theonlyfactorsthatdetermine
how 1. Listthreeexpectations
youhaveof yourself.
wela persondoesor howfar hegoesareattitudinal.
Attitudes
come
fromour expectations
aboutoutcome.
If we expectthingsto turnout 2. Whatis themostimportant
statement
youcanmakeaboutyourself?
wel,we havepositiveattitudes.
If we expectthingsto turnoutpoony,
we havenegative
attitudes.
Winnersmakea habitof manufacturing3. Whalis yourunderstanding
of the statement
"Whalyou think,you
!her ownpositiveexpectations
wellin advanceof the event. If we
are?
makea habitof always
expecting
thebestoutof everything
we do,we Nextmonth - AcceptingResponsibilityand TakingCharge
haveoneof thekeysto a successfu
l[e.
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GAY BLACK FEMALE January 1998
GBF's in the Biz
For The Love Of Bessie's Girls
byAmandaLove
During my last year in college, I was
introducedto the incredibleworldof the
HarlemRenaissance
ofthe 1920's.It was
sointeresting
andsurprising,
anditbrought
upemotionsin methatrangefromjoyand
fascination,
to prideanda-deeprespectfor
whoI am. I feltblessedto beableto share
my knowledgewith my friendsand colleagues,and hopedto be ableto do it in
thefutureat somepoint.
COMMUNITY NEWS
bookletwill be revised,I hopethat it can
bringthesameemot,onsthatwere
brought
to meduringthegatheringofthe material.
So sit back,relax,andenjoythe lovelyladiesof the HarlemRenaissance.
byTa'ShiaAsanti
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aboutslavery,it isTHEstory.It is powerful,
rich
December
endedanotheryearof GBF'sbeing
andmovingbeyondanythinghuman.It is spirivisibleandpresenton theplanet.Wewhoare
tual in its natureby its merepresence.Folks
hereforthewrapupof 1997needto countour
: (youknowwhatfolks)aretemiedat therelease
blessings
becausemanyof us didn'tmakeit.
of thissignificant
partof ourstoryandthetruth
AsGBFmagazine
movesinto1998
wehopeto
abouthowthisnationwasbuiltandthebacksof
continue
bringing
youstories,newsandwriting
whoit wasactuallybuiltupon.Butwemustsee
whichreflects
ourdiverse
lifestyles,
thoughts
and
process.Let'smakeaneffort thismovie,~ we nevergo to anothermoviein
talents.Wealsohopeto expandto newlevels in ourparenting
in publishing,
takethe maga- stay in committedrelationshipsand work l~e. Takeyourkids,yourfamilies,yourfriends,
The'WorkingWomanandMan'worked anddimensions
together.Letstumback at leasttwice.....thanksbe to StevenandDebforefrontandreachsis- throughourproblems
infactories,
barbershops,asdomestics, zineto theinternational
of our ancestors
and bie.
ourpublisher, to the spiritualpractices
and manyother9 to 5's. And on the tahsacrosstheglobe.Ms.Wynne,
feeltherichness
andpoweroftheirexperiences.
weekendstheymightgo seethe revue tooka leapoffaitheightyearsagoanddecided LetsknowthatwhoweareasBlackwomenwho
Music
to putsomething
outtherein writingto confirm
'My Magnolia'at the LincolnTheateror andaffirmourexistence.
Theuniverse
hassup- lovewomenis perfectandnaturalandindivine ErykahBadu,Live
go strollingdownStrivers'Rowif they portedthispublication
butyouknow,therentis order. Letslet go of shameandembraceour
didn't go home sitting on the stoop late and baby needsa new pair of shoes. love for one another,for in God's/Goddess Someoen
described
herto measthe"BillieHoliAche' ■
watchingthe kidsplay or listeningto We.....L..amrequesting
thesupport
ofthewhole world,therearenomistakes.
day reincarnated.'I tendto agree. Ms.Thing
will raise the conscienceand social
standingof everyone'thought. ObviouslytheupperclassNorthernNegroes
hadthe WE.B.wayof thinkingandthe
laboringSouthernNegroeshad the
BookerT.wayof thinking.
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fulllipsandhips,a longstringofpearlsfallingdownandaroundherneck.Carefree,
drinkinglemonade
withherhandonherhip
in her flowered flapper dress. Livin',
LastyearatSistahfest
I washelpingQueen laughin',lovin'the womanshe'swithand
set up the SacredSpaceand we slipped havin'a swelltime.Thetwentieswereso
into a conversationaboutsistahsof the special. Therewasn'tTV,but therewas
past. WhenI startedramblingon about radio.Thereweremovies,buttheaterwas
to do this: subscribe
to GBF
reallyshowsushervocalabilityonthe"Live'CD.
the differentsistersthat camebeforeus, the rage. Therewas no Hip-Hopor even DukeEllington
ontheradioor MaRainey GBFcommunity
justvoice.Bynoweveryone
has
she suggestedthat I do a workshopnext Be-Bop,but therewasthe Bluesandthis onthephonograph.
Theelitewerepro- Magazine.Whenyousupportthispublication, Books, Flicks & Sounds Noelectronics,
heardtheinfamous
'Tyrone'whichmanyof sisyearandbringsomeof thisknowledgeto newthingcalledJazz. I twas the Roaring fessors,artistsof variousmediums,
Re- yousupportBlackwomanownedbusiness.So ReviewsbyTa'ShiaAsanti
allyousistahlovingwomenshowussomelove.
tah hasmadetheirpersonalanthembothgay
thewomynin attendance
thatweekend.I 20's and peoplefelt fortunate,free, and altorsandvariousotherprofessionsOn
Nowon the biztip.....December
tookus home Books
andstraight.Thestorybehindthe songis that
hadgottensomuchofeverything
thatcould readyto live. Peopleof Africandescent theirweekends
theymightgotoa salon withsomespecialeventsincludingKwanzaa.
shewroteit on thespurof themomentduringa
SoulKiss,ByShayYoungblood
begottenfrommytimesatSistahfestthatI werestrivingfor allthejewelsof life. They to hearCounteeCullenreadsomepo- Thepracticeof NguzoSaba,TheSevenPrinsoundcheck. Tyronehasbecomeone of her
was morethan eagerto give back. This werethe 'New Negroes·discovering
and etryor goto oneofA'leilaWalker'swell ciples.Formoreinformation
onhowto practice A souttully
writtennovelaboutthejourneyof a biggesthits. EveryGBFhasat leastonesistah
theAfrican-American
Holiday,
callthe younggirl'snearromantic
onlyhelpedtofuelmyenthusiasm
to share developingwho they were as a people. knownsoireesiftheydidn'tgohomeand Kwanzaa,
affairwithhermother shecandedicatethe songTyroneto. I havea
thispreciousinformation
aboutthe Harlem Racepridewasof utmostimportance.Al- listento DukeEllingtonon the radioor AfricanCulturalCenteron54thStreetinLosAn- andhermother's
survivalof seriousheartbreak couple.Buttherestof thealbumis justashot.
eventevery throughracist,sexisttimes.Thisisa mustread The live recordings
bringa newenergyto the
duringthe 1920's.
mosteverything
thatwaswrittenaddressed MaRaineyonthephonographPeople geles.Theyhosta largeKwanzaa
year.Theprinciples
of Kwanzaa
canandshould butaseasoned
songsfromherfirstalbumthattouchyouinside.
writer
who
ha
mastered
the
use
the race issuein someway. But believe weredifferentyetalwaysremainedthe be practicedby everyone,especiallyAfricanespecially
the
ofwords.Youngblood
tellsthisstoryfroma spiri- Thefivenewsongsareawesome,
I knewI neededto havea bookletthat la- me,atthattimewetrulytalkedthetalkand samein someways.
Americans
allyearlong.I wanttocelebrate
and tualplace,takesyouon a walkdownmemory remakeof Chaka's'Stay.' Theseheresounds
diescouldreadlater,andhavesomething walkedthewalk.Wehadindependent
film
honorLinda"Queen'Hollinswhois sistahto so lane thoughthe writingis purelyfiction,we areforeveryone's
ears.I feelyouMs.Badd-Du,
to useto go off anddotheirownresearch makerslikeOscarMicheauxandAliceB. Extensiveand multifaceted
was what manyof us. Herrebirthdaywasin December. think.....Enjoythis oneoversomecappucino, youalldatgirl,on andon......
onparticulars
thatinterested
themthemost. Russell,aviatorslikeBessieColeman,ac- couldbesaidtodayofthecommunity
of Thewayis opensis,thewayis open,we love softjazzanda rainywinterafternoon.Sureto
It was a bit thoughtprovokingbecauseI tivistsand journalistslikeAlice Dunbar- samegenderlovingfolksofthe Harlem youmuch.Forthoseof youwhohaveseenthe do yajustright.
Queens of African
andphilanthropistsRenaissance.Butfirst let me explain filmTrainStationwrittenby yourstrulyTa'shia
wantedto includeso muchinformation,I Nelson,millionairesses
Music, Various Artists
Asantianddirectedbyyourveryownpublisher
wantedit to readeasy,unlikea research likeA'leilaWalker,
andacclaimed
artistslike thatatthattime,therewerenopolitically
Films
of GBF,wewouldliketo sharesomeverygood
book,andI wantedit to befun. I chosethe writer Zora Neale Hurston,singer and correcttermsusedfor folkswhowere newswithyoufaithfulreaders!TrainStation,a AMISTAD,
StevenSpielberg,
DebbieAllen
Thisis a wonderful
combination
of traditional
Africansounds,allfemale.FromAngelique
Kidjo
tlifor the Loveof Bessie'sGirlsbecause BessieSmith.
'likethat'. Theyjustwentwiththeirfeel- filmaboutBlacklesbians
inthe1950's,
hasbeen
I relateandidentifywithBessieSmith.She
ingsandtheenergyofthefriendswhich acceptedintothe 1998PanAfricanFilmFesti- If thisfilmdoesn'treceiveeverysingleaward to the MohatellaQueens,balladsandcarnival
wasa womanwhowouldnotbekeptdown. Nowsegregationwas the normand Ne- theysurrounded
themselves
with,and val,theveryfirstlesbianfilmto be acceptedin availableto man,wearegoingto marchandI musicthisCDtakesyouhometothemotherland
festival,heldat MagicJohnson meanmarch!Thisfilmis themotherandfather throughthe vocalchordsof beautifulBlacksisthat was that'swonderful,
Her spirits were up throughouther life groeshadtheir own community
butreallydifferent
from theinternational
of RootsandSankofa.Debbiesharedtheper- tahs.Thiscollection
is calledtheSoulKitchen
of
whereshecouldneverbe calledpitifulor evenmoretightlyknitthantoday. Within today. Fromtoday'sviewpoint,it was Theatres.Pleasesupportusbyshowingup in sonalstoryof the makingof thisfilmwithmil- Africanmusic. No wonder,thesewomenare
numbers.Theyneedto knowwe havebeen,
the
Negro
community
there
were
two
main
pathetic.Thatis an idealwe all needto
reallydifferentbeingsamegenderlovontheOprahWinfrey
show.She cooking,steaminghot and damnyou would
areandalwayswillbeapartof theAfricancom- lionsofviewers
live upto as samegenderlovingwomyn, racialthoughtsOne,the BookerT.Wash- ing backthen. Therewas no political munity.In 1998,letslearnhowto practicethe hasbeentryingtogetthisstorytothebigscreen wannatastetheirstew. Everytuneis a meal,
op- everynoteis dessert,so so good. Pickit up in
not only for ourselvesbut for thosewho ington,'Pull yourselfupbyyourownboot- movement,
whichmeantthevocabulary KwanzaaprincipleUmojaor Unity. No disre- fortenyears.Shewasfacedbyincredible
so,AMISTAD
is a true the worldmusicsectionof yourfavoriterecord
arelearningaboutwhotheyareaswomyn. strapsandlearna trade'WorkingWoman we knowtodaydidn'texist;no lesbian, specting
relationships,
tearingeachotherdown, position,understandibly
natureof the store. •
Well,I did mybestandwhileI knowthat I and Man thought;And two, the W.E.B gay,bior anyofthoseterms.Therealso judgingeachotherandlyingtooneanother.Lets storyaboutthedeadly,scandalous
slavetrade.However,
it is notjustanotherstory
will be doingotherworkshopswherethis DuBois,'Thereis the TalentedTenththat werenooommunity
centersor gaybook- reachouttosistahsinneed,supporteachother
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For The Love Of Bessie's Girls
continued
Prisoner Of Love
ByStephanie
'Dakara"Wynne
requests
fromreaders 'So howwasit?"AskedCheri.'Whatdo
Ourwhitestaris rightinfrontofus. Just Dueto numerous
reachoutandit'syours.It'sreallyyours, forthe fullversionof 'Prisonerof Love' youmeanhowwasit? It'sa fuckin'funky
asshe
hasprompted
metore-runthestory.Itried assprison"saidTiegersarcastically
Angelinatoldmeso.
toputthewholestoryin thisissue,butit startedupherLexus.'What'swrongwith
said
wouldn't
fit. Soit willbedividedintotwo you?Ijustaskedyoua littlequestion"
TheWomenof the Time
'I toldToitoithatI wanted
issues.Thisstoryis nottrueandtotally Cherioffended.
as
exaggerated.
It doesn'trepresenthow tobefriends"saidTiegerapologetically
BessieSmith
GBF'sliveandhavesex. Soif you'rea shepulledouttheprisonparkinglot. 'You
then toldToitoithatyouwantedto befriends?" werehandcuffedto a partner.
Bessiewasandis the Empressof the visualpersonanddon'tlikeprofanity
'Damnshe
AskedCherishocked.'What?Yougonna fine!"SaidTinylookingat a womanabout
Blues.Shewastherageofthedecade. don'treadthisstory.
bailouton mycuzbecauseshe'slocked a thirdofTiny'ssize.Tinywasattracted
Shewentfromtravelingshows,to makto
Toitoi(Toy-Toy)
shouted
intothe down?"SaidCherigettinga littleirritated littlepetitewomen.Usuallyunder5'1 so
ing records,to evenstaringin movie Afriend?"
Toitoiwashercousinandshehad thatitwouldmakeher57 289poundframe
short.Bessiemarriedbutshelovedher prisonphone."Ohsonowyouwannabe because
friend?Fuckyou!"Toitoi herback.'I ain'tbailingout on her"said lookintimidating
women.LillianSimpsonwas one of mymuthafuckin'
andTinylovedto intimiAlsosamegenderlovingwhitefolksfound Bessie'smainlovesduringhertouring slammeddownthe prisonphoneand Tieger.Cherididn'treplybutstaredat the datewomen.Shesmiledto herselfand
stoodher5'9inchframeupfromthece- dryhillsideareatheyweredrivingthrough. lickedthechocolate
refugein Harlem. Theyfounda place daysin themid-twenties.
offherfingersandlit
mentstool.TiegerwatchedToitoibeing HowTiegergonnaleavemycousinafter a cigarette.'Fuuuck!"SaidLilBitpointing
wherepeoplewerelikethemandtheycould
If youfoundsomeoneyouwantedto be beopen BlairNiles's1931novelStrange EthelWaters
escortedbehindthe cellbars,probably all shedidfor thiswomanCherithought. at a finedarkskinnedwoman.'Wherein
girlfriends
with,rentpartiesorget-togethersBrotherspeaksof this whenone of the
for the last time. Tiegerhungup the CherifrownedandIii a Newport.
thehellis shefrom?Sheis fine!"SaidLil
at salonsalongwiththe DragBallsat the characters
saysaboutHarlem,'In Harlem Ethelwasanacclaimed
singerandac- chewedupphoneandgotthehelloutof
Bit as the womenpassedby. The dark
Savoywere
placesyoubothcouldgo. 'Un- I foundcourageandjoy andtolerance.I tressduringandaftertheHarlem
'Yo Cheesy"yelledTinyoneof Cheesy's womanlookedover in their direction.
BroncoStatePrison.
derground
vibe'bestdescribes
theatmo- canbemyselfthere....theyknowallabout Renaissance.
groupiesas shewaddledoverto Cheesy 'She'slookin'overhere"saidLil BitexcitSheperformed
infamed
sphereduringthattime. Bluessongslike meandI don't haveto lie.•
orCheesy
for andLilBit.'Ayyodidyouhereaboutwhat edly as she nudged Cheesy.I know
movieslike Cabinin the Skyandwas Toitoiaka'DaBigCheese"
'Proveit OnMe'and'B.D.Woman's
Blues'
wellknownforherBluesstyleevendur- shortis what she was calledaround happenedin the laundryroom?"Asked thoughtCheesy,
because
she'slookingat
hadlyricsthattalkedabouthowfolkswere Fromgoingto rentparties,to hangingout ingthe periodof BessieSmith'sreign. BroncoStatePrison.Itwasrumored
that nny outofbreathasshesatnexttoCheesy me. Cheesylooked directly into the
livin'. Somewrittenworkhadslightrefer- with your friends,to listeningto Ma or Ethelhada longtimegirlfriendnamed Cheesy
andfewotherpeoplepulledoffa makingthewoodenbenchmoan.'Stella woman'sdarkexoticeyes.'She'slooking
ences~ youwereinthatliterarycrowd.The Bessie,orjustreadingPassina
orHometo EthelWilliams
andwasfairlyopenabout hiestthatgrossedthemeightmilliondol- threwsomebleachinthiswhitegirlseyes. at meman!"YelledLil Bit.'Shutup,she
butch/femme
lookwasdefinitely
goingfull Harlemfor thefirsttime,therewasa place herloveofwomen.
larsandthatthemoneywasneverfound. Thenshehada fewhomiesholdthewhite ain'tlookingat you"saidTinyin ajealous
throttle. GladysBentleyreally demon- forusduringthe1920'sHarlem,
theHarlem
Although
nobodyreallyknowswhathap- girlsarms,andtheyputa sockin theher toneasshethumpedLil Bitin thebackof
stratedthatwearingherfulltuxedoin her Renaissance.
Yes,it wasfarfromwhatit's MabelHampton
pened,everybody
thinksCheesy
hasthe mouthwhilethe girl's eyesburnedout. thehead.Thedarkwomancrackeda grin
cabaretacts. Somebutch/femme
women liketodaybutit'sourherstoryAndit'sours
money.
Cheesyletsthemthinkwhatthey Theyput Stellain thehole.Canyou be- andlookedaway.I'm a get that Cheesy
atthattimemarried
theirfemalefiancesand to standuponin orderto liftthosethatwill Mabelwas a well knowntheaterper- want.Sheknewthetruth.
lievethatshit?It'sgettingcraz.y
roundhere" thoughtlickingherbottomlip.
some even had elaborate weddings, comeafterus. AndI don'tthinkthat'stoo formerduringtheHarlemRenaissance.
saidnny reaching
intohershirtpocketand
bridesmaids
andall. Somemarriedmen bad.InoneofAngelina
a meltedSnickers
bar.'Yeahthat Tiegerknewdeepdownthatshewouldn't
walkedintoherthreewomancell grabbing
WeldGrimke's
un- Shewasalsowellknownlaterinlifefor Cheesy
asfrontsor eitherjusthada husbandand published poemsshe writes about a hergayandlesbianactivism,
were is craz.y"said Cheesylookingawaynot leaveToitoi.Shereachedintoherashtray
likebeing andclosedthedoor.Herroommates
a girlfriend.Beingthatmendidn'ttakesex womanandsays,
a foundingmemberof the Lesbian outin the yardso shecouldcry alone. reallyintotheshegossiplikeshenormally andpulledouthalfajointthatshestubbed
or lovebetweenwomenas 'real' sex or
knock,knock.'AyCheesy
areyou was. At that momenttheyhearda loud outbeforegoingintotheprison.Shewas
Herstory
Archives.Mabelspentmostof Knock,
'legitimate'
love,havinga girlfriendwasn't Thouareto mea lonewhitestar,
herlife,1938-1979
withherlifepartner inthere?"AskedLil Bitthroughthedoor. hornsound.Theboathadcomein. The happyto get rid of Cheri'sass. She'sa
too difficultor if your husbandwas also ThatI maygazeon fromafar;
LillianFoster.
Cheesyquicklyclearedher throatand boatisa loadofnewwomenbeingbrought problemTiegerthought.MaybeI should
samegenderlovingit wasevenmoreso ButI mayneverpress
driedher eyes.'Yeah I'll be out in a intotheprison.Cheesyshookoffherhurt haveher rµbbedout. Shechuckledto
convenient.
Again,hanging
withyourgroup Mylipsonthinein mutecaress,
GladysBentley
on the benches herselfabouttheidea.Shepulledupinto
minute"said Cheesy.Cheesyhad an as she sat comfortably
andtheoneyouwerelovin'wasthemain E'entouchthehemof thypuredress,
imageto standupto andthatmeantno waitingforthefreshfleshtowalkby. Upto herdriveway
ofherandToitoi's
threebedsourceof rolemodels,anda refugefrom Thouartso far,sofar...
Gladyswasa bluessingerandpianist crying.Shewipedherfaceandgrabbed thispointshehadbeentrueto Tieger,but roomtriplexlocatedsomewhere
in Los
meansociety.
duringthe1920's.Shewasknown
herpackof Newportsandopenedthe shit'saboutto change.Cheesywatched Angeles.SheparkedandgotouttheLex.
closelyasthewomen
gotoffthebus.Each 'Ching,ching.Ching,ching" it washer
door.
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storeswerethe booksactuallyhavegay
themes.Also,therewerenoprideringsor
pinktriangles So whatdid they have?
Whatwasit liketobea Negrowomanwho
was•inthelife'duringthe20's.Wellif you
werein Harlem,you could hangout at
Gumby'sBookstoreor go to the Clam
Houseto party Oryoumightevengoto a
friend'srentparty. MabelHamptonsaid,
'Privatepartieswerethe best placefor
Blacklesbianandgaymentosocialize.
We
useto go to partieseveryothernight.
Thegirlsall hadthe parties•It wasa socializinggettingto knowwhoyou are as
thiswomanwholoveswomenandother
folkslikeyoukindof vibe.
NowstraightNegroes
weresomewhat
acceptingand in a lot of respectsmoreacceptingthanwhites.A lotof Negroleaders
and role modelswere'known'[in a not
openlytalkedaboutbut'everybody'
knew
to lovefolksof the samegender.Bruce
Nugentoncesaidaboutthe timeperiod,
'Youdidn'tgetontherooftopandshout,'I
fuckedmywifelastnight.'Sowhywould
yougeton theroofandsay'I lovedprick'.
Youdidn't. Youjustdidwhatyouwanted
to do. Nobodywasin the closet.There
wasn'tanycloset.'
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GAY BLACK FEMALE January 1998 ./.
Prisoner
Of Love
EMPLOYMENTOPPORTUNITES
continued
again,but with a morefunkiertone.'Ex- do this myway okay,but I did tell her
cuseme,but youjustcrowedme'saidthe that I wantedto be friends.Whydon't
whitegirlstandingwith herarmscrossed. you comeoverand let me giveyou a
SaidTiegerseducCheesy& Lil Bitwalked.Thelineinstantly fullbodymassage?'
gotquiet All eyeswerefocusedonthefat tivelyassheslidherhandsbetweenher
blackgirl, the shortblackgirl and the tall closedlegs.'Is it safe?'AskedT-Bone
blackgirl.'Sowhat'sup?Iseverything
cool wantingto be assuredthat everything
Tiny?'AskedCheesysteppingin frontof was goingto be cool,becauseif she
It waslunchtimeand Cheesyhatedwait- Tiny'Yeahis everythingcool?'SaidLil Bit droveallthewayacrosstownshewasn't
ingin line.Soshedecidedto fiexherrepu- steppingin frontof Cheesy.Everythingis goinghome.'Everythingis cool baby
tation.'I'mhungrythena muthafuck.
Lil Bit cool'saidTinywhileglaringintothewhite I'llbewaitingfor you'saidTiegerasshe
howmanypeopleare in frontof us?'Said girlseyes.Tinyturnedaroundandstarted gaveT-Bonedial tone.T-Bonepicked
andwasout
Cheesy.
LilBitimmediately
beganto count. bullshitingwithCheesyandLil Bit.'I'm so upherkeysandtoothbrush
'It'sthirty-fourpeopleincludingme'saidLil sickof thisshit' mumbledthe whitegirlto thedoor.
Bit proudly 'Whatchagonnado Cheesy, her friend. Tinyheardher,but chosenot
whatchagonnado?'AskedTinyin a goofy to get ill on her.As theygot closerto the Whyshe wannatrip whenI'm locked
toherexcitedkindaway.Cheesylookedat Tiny food areathe whitegirl was still bitchin'. down?ToitoiakaCheesythought
as if to say,shutup youfatstupidoaf.Tiny Tinyquicklyturnedaround.'So what'sup self.Cheesythoughtaboutherconveroomplaining
butyou It'sbest sationwith Tiegerearlier.Thirty-three
wastotallyunawarethatherlifewasabout ho? Nobody's
tochange.'Tinylistenup,thisiswhatI want you chill or be laid out chilling'said Tiny more months.Cheesysighedat the
you do.Go crowdthatwhitegirl withthe andturnedbackaround.Thewh~egirltook thoughtas sheturnedoverinherbunk.
cheapbluejacketand redscarf,andthen a final dragfromherfriendscigarettebe- Shehatedbeinglockedup,butit'sworth
callusupthere.Onyourwayuptherebump foretheyenteredthefood area.Herface itshethoughtEightmilliondollarsisdefiintoa few girlson purposeand don'tsay wasclearlygettingredderandredder.Tiny nitelyworthit Whatif Tiegerfindsthe
excuseme. It will makethemfeel likeyou grabbeda trayandbeganloadingupona moneyand runsCheesythoughtThe
don'tgive a fuck' said Cheesyconfident largehelpingof potatoeson herplateshe bunksqueakedasCheesyturnedover.
thatTinycoulddo it. Tinyquicklyscanned suddenlyfelt somethinghoton top of her Herlastthoughtbeforeshewenttosleep
thewomeninfrontof them. Can'tnoneof jhericurl.Tinyscreamed
asshefeltthehot wasof Tieger.Shecouldn'thelpit she
themkickmyassshethoughtas shepro- gravy on her head. She quicklyturned lovedher.
ceededto walkto the frontof the dinner aroundto see an emptygravypot in the
line. Tinylookedbackas shewaddledto- whitegirlshand Tinylungedforthewhite 'That'sit babylRightthere,rightthere,
wardsthe frontof the linebumpingintoa girlsthroatjustasthewhitegirlswungthe don't moveT-Bone'pantedTiegeras
womanhereandthere. Whenshealmost pot andhit Tinydirectlybetweenthe eyes they grindedeach other.They were
straddledacrossTieger& Toitoi'sking
wentblack.
reached
thefrontoftheline.Someone
from andnose. Everything
behindhersaid'Wheredoyouthinkyou're
sizebed in a 'scissorposition'(Tieger
goingfatgirt?'Butwhentinyturnedaround Tiegerrelaxedon the couchwithher cell straddled
herlegsandT-Bonestraddled
phonein hand 'We've been talkingfor her legsandtheir coochiesmet in the
nobodysaidanything
hours aren't you worried about your middle),andT-Bonewasworkingit out
Tinykeepswalkingandthenstepsin front phone?'AskedT-Bone.'Areyoukidding? T-Bonelickedon Tieger'stoesas she
of the white girl that Cheesytold her to Shit,I don'tevenhavea bill'laughedTieger gyrated her hips against Tieger's
standin frontof, whowas havinga con- as shekickedoffherhopumps.'Ohyeah coochie.T-BonefiippedTiegeroveron
versation with anotherwhite girl. Tiny I forgot,you roll largelikethat' sighedT- herbackand pulledherto the edgeof
'What'swrongbaby?' the bed and began suckingher clit
smirksand beckonsCheesy& Lil Bit to Bonesarcastically.
comeupfront.'Excuseme'saidthewhite Asked Tieger.'You know what's wrong Tiegerlickedher lips withdelightand
girlwiththecheapbluejacketandtwomiss- Tieger.Didyou dropToitoi?'SaidT-Bone moanedloudlywith pleasure Tieger
ingfrontteeth.Tinydidn'tpay her any at- withher deepraspyvoice.'Damnthe girl grabbedT-Boneshairas sheclimaxed
tention.'Excusemel' Said the white girl ain't beengonebut threemonths,let me for the fifthtimethat night 'Alrightmy
cellphone.Herringeron hercellphoneis
set to the cash registersound. Tieger
quicklyreachedinto herpursefor her cell
phone.'Hello'saidTiegeras she walked
towardsherfrontdoor. 'Hi baby'saidthe
raspyvoice.Tiegersmiledas she put the
keyintothe lockandopenherfrontdoor.
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turn'saidT-Boneasshelayedon herback but she knewthat was hopeless.Cheri
andopenedherthickhairylegs
sighed.Hercousingoteightmilliondollars
andI ain'tgotenough
ToitoiakaCheesywokeupin a badmood. stashedsomewhere
Shehada dreamthatTiegerwascheating for mycarnote.Fuckthisbrokeshill I gots
on her.AfterbreakfastCheesycalledher to getpaid.I lovemycousinand all,but I
cousinCheri.'Willyouaccepta collectcall gotsto get PAIDNOWCherigrabbedthe
fromToitoi'the operatoraskedCheriwho keysto heroldHyundaiandbailedoutthe
pickedup the phone.Cheriacceptedthe door.
call.Shecouldtell by howfast hercousin
spokethatshewasupset.'Thedreamwas 'Damnyou were good last night' Tieger
so real'saidCheesyfeelinga lossof con- said to T-Boneas she leanedover and
trolof herlife,woman,andmoney.'What's kissedheronthe lips.T-Boneopenedher
crazyaboutthe dream is that she was eyes,focusedand thenremembered
that
sleepingwithT-Bone'said Cheesycalm- she was with Tiegerand not Jinjer.'Hey
ingdown.'T-Bone?YeahI guessthatwas baby' said T-Bonewith a groggyvoice.
a dream'said Cheriknowingthat Tieger Tiegeratethe fuckout of her coochielast
and T-Bonefell out yearsago and don't night and now she was feeling proper.
evenspeakto eachother.'WellI doubtthat She'snotasgoodasJinjer,butthat'sokay.
will ever happen'said Cheri confidently. 'So whattimedoyouhaveto beat work?'
'CheriI needfor you to watchmyshit on TiegeraskedT-Boneassheslidoutof the
theoutside.YouknowI'll hookyouup.Just bed.'Nineo'clock'saidT-Bone
irritated
that
keepaneyeonTiegerfor me.As a matter shehadto getupandgoto workwhenshe
of fact on Saturdaynightcouldyou drive knewthatTiegerhadagripofmoneysomeby at aboutthreein the morningto see if whereandsheshouldbe hookingherup'I
youseeanybody's
carinthedriveway
other gotto do somerunningaround,but if you
thanthe Lex' saidCheesy.Cheriagreed, feel like comingby laterI'll cookyou dinmainlybecauseshe knewher cuzwould ner' said Tiegeras she walkedinto the
takecareof her.Cheesywill tell Tiegerto bathroom.T-BonewatchedTiegergo into
breakheroffa littlesomething,
soshewas the bathroom.Damnshe's fine and she
downto do what ever her cousinToitoi doeshavea niceass,butthatwon'tmean
wanted. ToitoitoldCherithatshewasstill I won'trubherassoutifit comesdownto it
pissedoffthatTiegertold hershewanted T-Bonethoughtas shesat up. I'mgetting
to be friends.Cheri agreedthat it was mesomefuckin'moneyonewayoranother
fuckedup that after being togetherfour T-Bonegrinnedto herself.
yearsthatTiegerwantedto befriendswith
Toitoijustbecauseshe'slockeddownfor HeyLil Bithaveyouheardanynewsabout
threeyears.Afteranotherten minutesthey Tiny?'AskedCheesywhenshegottowork.
hungup Cheesystoodtherethinkingfor a Herand Lil Bit workedin the woodshop.
moment.
Whatwouldshedoif Tiegerfinds 'Danasaidthatshewastakento the hosthe moneyandbails?DamnI was a fool pital last night'said Lil Bit.'Really?'Said
for takingthisfuckin'rap Cheesythought Cheesyfeelingslightlyguilty.'Whathapas she walkeddownstairsto the game penedwiththe whitegirl?'AskedCheesy
room.
'I thinkshewentto thehole'saidLil Bit as
sheput on hergoggles.
Cherihungup. Damnshe thought,I sure
wish I knewwherethat moneyis. Cheri Later on that afternoon,the wood shop
thoughtaboutfollowingTiegereverywhere, supervisorbroughtin three newwomen.
'Checkoutwhatjustwalkedthroughthe ing there.Lil Bit suckedher teeth and
door'saidLilBitexcited.Cheesylooked. walkedaway.'What'swrongwith her'
Itwasthedarkskinnedwomanshesaw saidKitten.'She'salright.Sowhatroom
yesterdaycomein offthe boat.Cheesy areyouin?'AskedCheesydisplaying
all
couldn'tbelieveit. 'Oh yeahI'm a get thirty-twoteeth.
that' said Lil Bit noddingher head.
Cheesydidn'tsayanything,becauseLil I hate gettingup early in the morning
Bit ain't gettingshit. The dark woman Cherithoughtas she turnedonto her
boldlycameovertothem.'Heyya'IIwhat cousin'sstreet.Cheriwantedto get the
arewesupposed
tobedoing?'Shesaid moneythat Toitoihad promisedher as
in a Jamaicanaccentwhile looking soonas possible.ShecouldseesomeCheesyin the eye.Lil Bit quicklyintro- one comingout of her cousinshouse.
ducedherself.'I'm Lil Bit andthisis my Cherislowedher cardown.'Hell nawlI
homieCheesy'saidLilBitextending
her knowthat ain't T-Bonecomingout of
hand.The darkwomanshookLil Bit's Toitoi'shouse'Cherisaidoutloudto herhandlightlyandthenquicklyextended self. Cheri quicklypulled up behinda
her hand to Cheesy. 'My name is whitevan.Shecouldn'tbelievehereyes.
Katrina,but everybodycallsme Kitten' WhatthefuckwasT-Bonedoingcoming
saidKitten.Lil Bit noticedthatCheesy out of Toitoi'shouse?Whatthe hell is
hadn't releasedKitten'shand.Lil Bit goingon? What if Toitoi'sdreamwas
quicklypickedup a pair of gogglesto true? Damn!Whatif Tiegeris messin'
breakup the chemistryof Cheesyand withT-Bone?Butthey hateeachother
Kitten. 'Hey Kitten you might need Cherithought.Chericouldsee Tieger
these' said Lil Bit handinga pair of wavingto T-Bonefromherwindow.Oh
gogglesto Kitten. Cheesyreleased hell yeah I'm aboutto get paid Cheri
Kitten'shandas Kittenreachedfor the thoughtand startedhumming'WereIn
gogglesTheywalkedoverto a large TheMoney'asshesunkintoherbucket
woodtablewithvariousnamescarved seatandwatchedin her mirrorT-Bone
into it. 'So Kittenwhatyou downfor?' drivebywitha smugsmileon herface
AskedCheesy'Somestupidcreditcard
drama,but I'mout in eighteenmonths' 'Hello'saidTiegeranswering
thephone.
said Kitten. 'Why do they call you Wouldyouaccepta collectcallfromToiCheesy,or is that your real name?' toi Johnson.Tiegersighed.Shefelt like
AskedKitten.LilBitwasgettingjealous sayingno and hangingup the phone.
becauseCheesywasgettingall theat- 'Yeah'saidTiegerin a I don'tgivea fuck
tention.'Well actuallymy real nameis kindoftone.'Hi Baby'saidCheesy.
Don't
Toitoi,but peoplecall me Cheesybe- callmebabyiswhatTiegerwantedtosay
causeeverybodythinksI havesome butshedidn't.'Goodmorningbaby'said
moneyfroma big drugbustgonebad Tiegertryingto soundhappy'I'm sorry
with somecopsand gangsters.There aboutyesterdaymorning,I wasfeltlikeI
wasa bigshootoutandIwasintheright was losingcontrolor something'said
placeat the righttime,and nowevery- I Tieger.'Sowhydoyouwantto befriends
bodythinksI gotthe cheese,but I was all of a sudden.Yougotsomebodyelse
actuallychargedwith conspiracy'said already?'AskedCheesygettingto the
CheesylookingoveratLil Bit.Lil Bitrolls point.'It ain'tevenlikethat.I justfeellike
hereyes.'Oh really?'SaidKittensmil- were reallynot togetherbecauseyou
ingat Cheesyobliviousto Lil Bitstand- thereandI'mhere.At firstit washardfor
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meto be awayfromyouand nowI'mjust
unsure about us' said Tieger actually
soundingconvincing.'Why you wanna
leaveme whenI'm lockeddownTieger?
Yougave me yourword that you would
stickbyme'saidCheesydeadserious.1'm
stickingto myword,butasfar asour relationship,it can'tworklikethis'saidTieger.
Cheesyfelta emptinesscomeoverher.'I
reallyneedyouto be herefor me Tieger.
We'vebeentogethertoo long to let my
beingawaybreakus up WhenI get out
we will go everywhere
anddo everything
we'vealwayswantedto do' saidCheesy.
That'sthe problemthoughtTieger,I have
to waitthreeyearsbeforeI canenjoymyself.'I don'tknowToitoi.CanI havesome
timeto think?'SaidTiegersincerely.'Just
writeto me okay,andI apologizefor sayingfuckyouyesterday.
I didn'tmeanit' lied
Toitoiastheysaidtheirgoodbyes.Damn.
TiegerthoughtI can'ttakethismuchlonger.
Cherifelt excited.Shewouldblackmail
Tieger.Shecouldgetatleasta fewthousand.But howwas she goingto do it.
Fucka friendship.
Tiegerdon'tmeanshit
to meshethought.Thiswouldreallyfuck
up Toitoiif she knew But I gots to get
paid Cherithoughtas she pulledup to
hercousin'shouse.
T-Bone stood at the counter daydreamingabouttakingJingerto a nice
romantichotelweretheywouldsit in a
jacuzziand drinkAlizelike Puff Daddy.
T-Bonesmiledatthethought.Thesmile
fadedwhenshethoughtabouthowbroke
she was.I gotsto get paid she thought
as she put the ticketsfromthe customers intothe register.
Tinystoodlookingat herselfin the mirror.
Shefelttheswellingaroundhertwopurple
and blackeyes.Hernosewasbrokeand
she was gonnahavea permanentscar
acrossthebridgeof hernose.Tiny'seyes
4
lit up redwithfire as shereplayedin slow
motionthe whitegirl swingingthe metal
gravypotandhrttingherbetween
theeyes.
Herfacehurtwhenshefrowned.Andwhat
about all those people who probably
laughedat her? Tinyslammedher large
fist onto the metalcounterand climbed
backinto the prisonhospitalbed. I'm a
getthat hoshethoughtas shepulledthe
whitesheetoverherthickshoulders.
'So you havea womanhuh?'SaidKitten
repeatingCheesy's words. Toitoi aka
Cheesyshiftedinthemetalchair.'Wellyou
seebaby'saidCheesyscootingherchair
closerto Kitten.'Its likethis,I'm hereand
she'sout there.I'm gonnabe herefor a
whileandI don'tseeanythingwrongwith
a Iii' bumpand grind' saidCheesysmiling.Kittensmiledand leanedbackin her
chair.Her reddishbrown locksfell into
placeagainstherdarkcocoskin.'So you
wanta womanon the insideand on the
outsidehuh?'SaidKrttensomewhatsarcastically.Cheesytuggedthe sleeveof
Kitten's gray sweat shirt. "Come on,
don'tbe likethat.Whenyouthinkaboutit
how long doesthe averagerelationship
last?Notlong.All I'msayingis thatI'd like
to getto knowyoubetterthanjusta friend
so that we bothcan passtimeand keep
eachothercompanyya see'saidCheesy
pinchingKitten'scheek.'I thinkyou'reso
beautifulanderoticlooking'saidCheesy.
'That'strue'saidKittenlookingdeadinto
Cheesy'seyes.Cheesylookedbackinto
Kitten'seyesand for the firsttime in her
lifeshefeltbutterfliesin herstomach.
'Hey
folks'said Lil Bit walkingup to the table
knowinglybreakingup their chemistry
Cheesylookedat Lil Bit andthenbackat
Kitten.CheesythoughtaboutclowningLil
Bitin fronrofKitten,butsinceLil Bitwasa
goodflunkyshedecidedagainstit.Instead
CheesystoodupandpulledKittenbythe
hand and walked awaywithoutsaying
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dollarsigns,asshegrinnedallthirty-two's. behindher 'So where'syourgirl?'Lil Bit
'What?'SaidCheesy.'I
(In Cheri'scasenotthirty-two,
buttwenty- saidsarcastically
nine,becauseshegotthreeteethknocked don't appreciatethe way you treat me
outwhenshewaselevenyearsold)'I want aroundKitten,I thoughtI wasyourhomefive thousand'saidCherichewingon her girl'saidLil Bitas if herfeelingswerehurt.
gum rapidly 'Five thousand?Howam I 'HeyI'msorry,butitwaslikeyouinterrupted
supposed
to explaintoToitoithatfivethou- uson purpose'saidCheesywalkingupto
sanddollarsis missing?'SaidTiegerget- thesupplydoor 'I guessI wasa littlejealtingmorepissedoff.ShethoughtCheriwas ous' said Lil Bit leaningagainstthe gray
goingto saya fewhundred.'I guessthat's cement wall. Cheesy smiled at her.
'What'reyou doing here this early?' yourproblem'saidCherizippingup herold 'Womanyoua trip,butthat'swhyyoumy
her
AskedTiegerlookingoverCheri'sshoul- tan For MembersOnlyjacket.'I wantthe homie'saidCheesyas sherequested
dermakesureT-Bonewasgone.'Well moneyin five days' said Cheri heading suppliesfromthe inmateworker.'Tinywill
maybeweshouldgoto
actuallywe got somebusinessto take quicklyforthedoor.'Go headandtell Toi- bebacktomorrow,
careor saidCheriwalkingconfidently toil I don'tgivea shitlSheain'tgettingout the commissaryand pick her up some
to do?' snacks,what cha think?' AskedLil Bit.
intohercousinToitoi'shouse.'Girl,what forthreeyearsWhatamI supposed
kindofbusinessareyoutalkingabout?' ShoutedTieger.'Payme'saidChericalmly 'Thanks'saidCheesyto theinmateworker
saidCheesy
SaidTiegerlookingonceagaindownthe asshewalkedoutthedoor.'Youain'tget- 'I guesswecandosomething'
streetas she closedthe door. Cheri ting shitl YelledTiegerafterChericlosed puttingher suppliesin the mop bucket.
couldsmellpussyasshewalkedintothe thedoor.Cheriheardher,butit didn'tmat- 'Damnthis mopis funky!'SaidLil Bitputlivingroom.'Damn,what'sbeengoing ter.Herplanhadworkedandnowshewas ting the stringy mop into the bucket.
onin here?'Cheriaskedassheplopped cheesing,
becauseshe'saboutto getpaid. Cheesylookedoverat hershortfriendwho
'We'rein theMoney' lookedlike a littlefrog and smiled.They
downontotheolivegreenleathercouch. Shestartedhumming
'It smellslikefish' saidCherilaughing. asshegotintohergold,lowridingfourdoor bothwalkeddownthe hallwayto the first
laundryroom.
She'sgotto go thoughtTiegeras she Hyundaianddroveoff
'She wantsfive thousanddollarsor else
tightenedher robeand lit a cigarette.
'What'sup Cheri?'SaidTiegersitting 'AfterdinnerCheesywasreadingwhena she'll tell Toitoi?'Said T-Boneinto the
ontheoppositesideof thecouch.She guardcalledherover.'HeyJohnsoncome phone.'Yeahshe'stryingto blackmailus,
hadto tolerateCherionlybecauseshe here'yelledthe guardbeckoningCheesy. doyouthinkI shouldpayher?'SaidTieger.
wantCheesyhissed HellnothoughtT-Bone.Shitthat'smoney
was her girlfriendscousin.'Toitoisaid 'Whatthismuthafucka
foryouto puta package
togetherforme' underherbreath,becausesheknewthat I'mtryingto get T-Bonethought.'Let me
saidCheriknowingthat if Toitoifound if the guardheardher she couldlose a think,maybeI cancomeupwithsomething
outwhatshewasdoingshe'dkill her. tooth,and I can'tbe walkingaroundwith Didshe saywhenshewantedit?' Asked
Thankgodshewaslockeddown.'She no less than thirty-two teeth Cheesy T-Bone.'Five days'said Tieger.'I would
didn'tsay anythingto me' saidTieger thoughtas she laidthe newspaperdown letCheritell Toitoi,butifl doToitoiwillkick
knowingthatCheriwasprobablylying. andgotup.Shestrolledoverto theguard. meoutandcutoff mymoney'saidTieger
veryconcerned.
'Sowhatyougot
'For what anyway?'Said Tiegerin a 'What'sup OfficerGribs?'AskedCheesy sounding
funkytone.'For cheatingon her' said kindly.I hopehedon'twantmeto dosome it like that? You could pay Cheri if you
Cheri boldly and lookingdirectly at stupidshitCheesythought.'It's yourturn wantedto?' AskedT-Bone.'I'm not supTieger.Tiegerfrozefor a momentand to cleantheall thelaundryrooms'saidthe posedto say,butI do haveaccessto a few
suckedon her cigarette.This fuckin' Guard.'All? I thoughtI wassupposedto thousand'saidTieger'Hmmh,don'tworry
bitchiscrazyif shethinksshecanblack- startnextweek?'SaidCheesynot want- aboutit I'll takecareof Cheri'saidT-Bone
1 mailmethoughtTiegeras sheplayed ing to be bothered.'Go get your mop confidently:'Are
you comingover' asked
alongwith Cheri,becauseCheriain't bucketandsuppliesfromthesupplyroom' Tiegerin a whineyvoice.T-Bonesighed.
Igettingshit.'So howmuchdoyouwant said the guard exhaling strong onion Shehasa womananddoesn'treallywant
l to keep your big mouthshut?' Said breath.YoufatpigthoughtCheesyas she tobe botheredwithTieger,butif shecould
Tiegerangrily.Cheri'seyeslit up like wentto gethernewspaperLil Bit ranup get5g'sin a fewdaysit wouldbe worthit.
anythingto Lil Bit. What'sher fuckin'
problemthoughtLil Bit.Kittensmirked
asshegotupfromthetableandfollowed
Cheesy.Lil Bit suckedher teeth and
rolledhereyesat Kitten.Thatbitchis a
fuckin'problem,and to think I had a
crushon herfunkyasswhenshefirst
camein here Lil Bit thoughtas she
walkedawayin theoppositedirection.
I
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caughtsneakinginto Kitten'sroom she overandpulledthepillowoutofthepilwouldgoto theholepluslosecommissary lowcase.Kittenturnedherbodyaround
for a month.But it didn't matter.Kitten likea persondoeswhentheyneedhelp
quicklyopenedthedoor,andwhenCheesy zippinga dress.CheesytiedthepillowenteredKittenquicklycoveredupthesmall casearoundKitten'sneck.'Harderl'Kitrectangular
windowon thesteeldoor.For tenwhisperedCheesyfrowneda little
a momenttheystoodlookingat eachother and tightenedthe pillowcase.'Damn
andthenKittenbeganto strip.WhenKit- doesn'tthathurt'saidCheesy.
'Shhshh'
ten droppedher prison gown Cheesy's hissedKittenas shegot upandlaidon
eyeswentdirectlyto Kitten'smoundofred- the bunk.'Suckmynipples'whispered
dishbrownpubichairwhichlookederotic KittenintoCheesy'sear.Cheesybegan
I shouldofsaidtenthousandCherithought againsther darkcocobrownskin.Kittens suckingKittensnipples'Harderl'Kitten
yelled.Cheesysuckedharder
as she got off the freeway.She smiledto cellwassmallbecausethereweretwosets practically
herselfwhenshethoughtaboutthe large up bunkbeds. Cheesyquicklypeeledoff on Kittennipples.Kittenbeganmoansackof Chronicshewouldbe gettingfrom herclothsas Kittenwatched.Cheesywas ingloudly.'ShhhshlYou'regonnagetus
the dopeman.Oh yeahI'm a get fucked tallandsemi-lean.
Shehadthickblackhair in trouble'Cheesywhisperedbetween
up.Shechuckled
to herselfasshereached thatsheworein a ponytailandlargebreast. sucks.Just as Cheesywas aboutto
theyhearda
into her ashtraysearchingfor at leasta Cheesy'sthickeyebrowsand lightbrown makeherwaydownsouth
roach.Nothing.HellyeahI'ma tell Tieger eyesturnedKittenon as shecontinuedto key in the lock.Theyboth scrambled
to givemeten thousanddollarsandthen watchCheesyundress.WhenCheesyfin- underthe two wool blanketsas Kitten
It wasCarolone
I'm skippingtown. Cherilookedinto her ishedthey stoodthere lookinginto each untiedthe pillowcase.
mirrorfor the thirdtime at a greenChevy otherseyes.Cheesycouldn'tbelievethat of Kitten'scellmate's.Carolcameinthe
thatappeared
tobefollowingher,especially shewasactuallynervousandfeelingbut- cell and used the bathroom.Kitten
whenshegotoffthefreewayCherislowed terfliesin her stomach. Kittenfelt confi- sighedwithreliefasshepulledtheblandownas the car passedswiftlyby. It was dentthat she could pussywhip Cheesy ket downfromher face.'She'sgone'
justanoldwhiteman.DamnI mustbepara- easilyas she walkedoverto Cheesyse- saidKittensittingup and reachingfor
noidshethoughtas she pickedup speed ductivelyand planteda wet kisson her. her prisongown.'I knowshe noticed
andturnedupherantenna-lessradio.
'Wait baby' said Cheesyafter about a yourcloths'said Kitten.'Do you think
minuteof themkissingeachother.'Come she'llsayanything?'SaidCheesyanxTinywasgettinganxiousto getbackto the overto thebed'saidCheesyasshesaton iousto get the hellout beforea guard
prisoncompound.Layingaroundin the Kittenslowerbunkbed. Kittencameover camein.'I doubtit,Carol'sprettyiscool'
hospitalwasnothappnin'.Shegotout of and stoodbetweenCheesylegs.Cheesy saidKitten.Sheremovedthe pieceof
thebedfortheforthtimethatdayto lookat pulledKittensbodyto her. Kittenslower paperfromthewindowandlookedoutherswollenface.She grimacedwithpain bodywasdirectlypositionedat the same sideher door.Nobodywas in sightas
when she touched her broken nose. It heightas Cheesy'smouth.Cheesydidn't Cheesyquicklygot dress.'I wantyou'
lookedlikeanoldJewishwhiteman'snose, give Tiegerany thoughtas she put both saidKitten.'I know'said Cheesysmilbutblackandfat.Tinyexaminedherface her handson Kitten'sbuttandpulledher ingasshe gaveKittena quickkissand
closelyThisshitis crazyshethought.She bodytowardsher mouth.Kittenheldon to got backto her cell withoutbeingnoyourselfKittenthought
has neverhada brokennosebeforenor thebunkrailsasCheesyhandsmovedfrom ticed.Don'tfiatter
two black eyes Her head was already herbuttto herbreasts.Kittenswayedfrom assheclosedhercelldoorandclimbed
round,but now it was lopsidedHer eye leftto rightas Cheesysuckedhungrilyon backintoherbunkfrustrated
lidshungoverhereyesassheclosedwhat her breasts.KittenstoppedCheesyand
was left of her them and thought,RE- kneeleddownto herknees.'Tiemypillow- Tiegeropeneda freshbottleof Vodka
VENGE.
casearoundmyneckKittenwhispered
into andtook a long swigwithouta frown.
Cheesy'sear. Cheesypausedfor a sec- She had problems.Toitoiaka Cheesy
Laterthat nightCheesytappedlightlyon and.Ah she'sone of thosefreakydeaky her girlfriendwas in prisonfor three
shecouldn'tgetto
Kittensdoor. Cheesyknewthat if shegot kindofwomynshethoughtasshereached yearsforconspiracy;
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theysaidtheirgood-byes.
Tiegerhadbeen
layingaroundthe houseall day worried
aboutCheriandthe money,but if T-Bone
saidshewouldtakecareof it theneverythingwouldbeokay.Tiegerreachedunder
herbedandpulledout a glassmirror.She
grabbedthe rolledup hundreddollarbill
ontopofthemirrorandinhaledfivefatlines
of cocaine.
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Of
Love
Prisoner
continued
theeightmillionthat'sstashedsomewhere; sayingyoudeservedit' saidLil Bitleaning
hergirlfriends
cousinwasblackmailing
her intoTiny'stwowomancell.'Where'syour
for sleeping with someone else; she roommate?'Asked Lil Bit. 'Shit I don't
couldn'tbe seenwith her lover,and she know'said Tinysittingher largebodyon
wantedher pussysucked.She took an- the smallbox springlessbed. 'Where's
otherlarge gulpof Vodkaand stumbled Cheesy?'AskedTiny 'She'swith Kitten'
back intothe livingroomwith the bottle. saidLil Bit.'So what'sup?Theyfuckin'?'
Shewasfeelinghotso shecalledT-Bone Asked Tiny as she leaned over and
againat work.'I told you notto call meat reachedunderher roommatesbed and
work so much Tieger' T-Bone nearly pulledout someDorritos.'I don't know'
shoutedinto the phone.'I'm, sorrybaby' said Lil Bit irritatedbecauseshe kind of
Tiegerwhinedintothe phone.'HasCheri likedKittenand she didn'twantto think
calledyou?'AskedT-Bonebecauseshe aboutCheesylickingherpussy.'I'mjust
wantedto followCheri'severymove.'No' asking,do youwant some?'AskedTiny
saidTieger.'Do you knowher address?' extendingthe chip bag to Lil Bit. Lil Bit
AskedT-Bone.'No,butshelivesin a hole sighedandgrabbedthebagof Dorritos.
on Douglas& Mainand she drivesan old
uglyfour door Hyundaiyou can't missit' T-Bone looked at her clock. Damnl
said Tieger.'Are you still comingover?' Tieger'sgonnabetrippingbecauseI didn't
AskedTiegerin a slurredvoice.T-Bone go by therelastnightshethoughtas her
sighed,shecouldtelllieger wasdrunkand girlfriendturned over and put her arm
it madehersickto thinkaboutTiegertry- aroundT-Bone'swaist.I can'tkeepgoing
ing to kisson her with funkybreath'Yes on likethisT-Bonethoughtas shegently
armfromaround
TiegerI'm comingby afterwork' said T- removedhergirlsfriend's
Bone lying through her teeth, because her and got up fromtheir kingsizebed.
Cheri'swhereabouts
romefirst.Tiegerlaid Shewalkedintothebathroom
andlooked
onthecouch,openedherrobeandbegan at herselfin the mirror.I can'tcontinueto
touchingherself.'I'll be waitingfor you· cheaton mygirlbecauseI'mtryingto get
Tiegermoanedas she put her righthand at Toitoi's moneyshe thought as she
betweenherthighsandsqueezedwishing splashedcoldwateron hersmoothface
it wasT-Bone'sfingersmassaging
herclit. I needto thinkof a wayto getthe 5'g and
Whentheygot off the phoneTiegertook bailawayfromTieger'scrazyass.Sheran
anotherswigoftheVodkaandmasturbated herfingersthroughhershortsofthairand
leanedon the counter.I couldlet Cheri
herselfto sleep.
getthemoneyfromTiegerandthenI'llget
ThenextmorningLil Bit sawTinycoming the moneyfromCheri.I just hopeI don't
out the prison hospital.'Dammmnshe haveto rub herassout in the processTfuckedyouup' saidLil Bit lookingat Tiny's Bonethoughtas shewashedher hands
purpleandblackeyes.'I knowmuthafucka' andexitedthe bathroom.
saidTinyangrilyas sheand Lil Bitwalked
intothe unit.'Thatbitchis gonnapay Can 'Hey homey how you feeling?' Asked
youbelievethatshit?A whiteho gonnahit Cheesywalkingoverto Tiny and giving
me in the face with a fuckin' gravypot. hera hug. SinceCheesywasa tallanda
Whereis that bitch anyway?'Said Tiny semilargewomanherself,Tinyfeltwarm
openingher bedroomdoor.'I think she's whenCheesyhuggedher.'I'mhangin'and
still in the hole.Everybody's
talkingabout shit'saidTinyas shetwistedin herchair.
what happened,somepeopleare even Itsoundedlikeafartto LilBitandshelooks
at Tinycrazy.'Heythatwasn'tmethat
was the chair' said Tiny defensively
'Yeahright'saidLilBitscootingherchair
awayfromliny.Cheesypulledupa chair
nextto Tiny's.'Dammmnyourface is
fuckedupl'SaidCheesy.
'Thanksforremindingme' said Tiny startingto get
mad.'Comeon, I wasjustmessin'with
you.What'sthis shit on TV?' Cheesy If
asked.'Somebullshit'saidLil Bitnotic- I
ingfourwhrtegirlswalkingintotheroom.
TheysatbehindCheesyandTiny.These
particular
whitegirlswereskinheadsand
didn'ttakeanyshitfromanybody.
LilBit
lookedoverhershoulder
atonewhohad
crossbones
tattooedon her forehead.
She turnedback around.'Yo Cheese
lookwhatjustcamein'whispered
LilBit.
TinyandCheesyturnedaroundat the
sametime.Tinyrecognized
oneof the
womenthatwastalkingto thewhitegirl
thathit herintheface.Tinyinstantly
felt
hertemperrise.Itseemedlikehermouth
hada mindof it'sownwhenshestarted
talkingshitto the whitegirls,butbefore
Tiny could get out 'you fuckin'white
bitches' one of the women straight
bustedTinyin her alreadybrokenose.
It soundinglikea slabof meatbeinghit.
Tiny fell back as Cheesyand Lil Bit
jumpedout the way,afterall this was
Tiny'sbattle.Tinyfelt bloodtrickleinto
hermouthandwentoff.Tinyrushedinto
thewhitegirlandpunched
herintheside
of the face. The white girls buddies
backedoffjustasCheesyandLilBithad.
Tinywastryingto scratchthegirlseyes
out whenthe guardscamein. 'Everybodygetto yourcellsnowl'Yelledone
of the guards.Nobodymovedandbeforethe guardshada chanceto detain
Tinyshe kickedthe whitegirl deadin 1
the facewith her steeltoe workboots
andeverybodywatchedin slowmotion
astwoof thewhitegirlsteethwentsailing across the room. The guards
struggled for five minutestrying to
shacklea screamingandswollenface
Tiny.Oneof the guardsgavethewhite
girla kleenexasthewhitegirlwatched
Tinybeingtripleshackled.
BothCheesy
and Lil Bit shooktheir headsas their
friendwasbeingroughlyescorted
away
'Damn'saidLilBitasshepickedupher
chair.Cheesyandthe othergirlsinthe
roompickeduptheirchairsandsatback
downto watchthe movie.Nobodysaid
anything.
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Love
continued
tinueto screamandbeaton the door,we
will kickyourfat,black,assdo you understand?' The white male soundingvoice
said calmly.Tinyfrozein her tracks.'Do
you understand?'the voice said again
morefirmlyTinythoughtfor a secondand
replied 'Yeah, I understand• Tiny said
holdinghertongueknowingtheyrouldand
would kick her ass. Who would know?
She'salreadyfuckedup. Tiny lookedat
herselfin the metalmirror.Her face was
fuckedup.Shedidn'tlooklikeherselfanyFuckthis brokeshit thoughtCherias more.Peoplewillprobablycallhernames.
the hungerpainskickedin. I needfor Probably monster she though as she
Tiegerto giveme somemoneytoday. pickedup the sheetand blanket. 'Pssst
Cheridida quicku-turnandheadedto- whattheygot youin herefor?'Whispered
wardshercousinshouse.Assheturned a voicefromsomewhere.
'Whoin thefuck
thecornershesawT-Bonepullinginto are you?' SnarledTiny noticingthat the
her cousinsdrive way. I wonderif I voicewascomingfromthe wallwhichdishouldtalk shit to both of them she videdthecell.'I'mSahariI'vebeenin here
thought.Fuckitl Cheriwaiteda fewmin- 2 days.I knowit's gonnasoundcrazy,but
utesandthenpulledupbehindT-Bone's I'm in herefor kickingmy roommates
ass
carandgotout.
for eatingmy snickersbar. I'm serious.I
camebackto the room hungryand my
Tinyfell to the floorhardas the prison candybar was gone,I was readyto kick
guardspushedher intothe small5xl0 asssoI did'thevoicesaidpractically
bragcell.Theycallit the hole.Oneoftheof- ging_'I don'tfeelliketalkingrightnow'Tiny
ficersputher kneeintoTiny'sbackas saidas she laidtheblanketon top of the
he uncuffedher. Tiny squirmed,but sheet.'Yeahalrightmaybelater' saidSadidn'tsaynothing.Shewassomadthat hari.Tinylaidherfullsizebodyonthelumpy
shecouldkill somebody,
butsheheldit mattressandstartedto cry.Shecriedbein. One of the guardsthrew a white causeshe was a blackwomanwho was
sheetand a armyblanketin her face fat,broke,beatup,in a prisonholeandno
andlaughedasshelockedthecelldoor. oneto loveher.Saharilistenedto Tinycry,
Tinygotupmadthana muthafuck.
She and for oncein her life actuallyfelt sorry
pacedthe floorfeelingout of control. for someoneelse.
She was mad aboutbeingin prison,
beingfat,havingtwoblackeyesanda Cheesywalkedintothe gameroom.She
brokenose.Shewasmadbecauseshe contortedher face into a seriousfrown
couldn'tdoa damnthingaboutbeingin whenshe saw Kittenflirtingwith another
the hole.'I hateall you muthafucka'sl' inmate.'Hey Cheesyyou know Big Toni
Tinyyelledat the top of her lungs'as right?' Asked Kitten when she saw
shebeaton thesteelcelldoorwithher Cheesy'sfucked up expression.'Yeah
largefists.'Shitl'Tinyscreamedasshe yeahyeah'saidCheesygivingBig Tonia
feltpainspringupherarmwhenshehit fakehandshake.BigToninoticed,butdethedoor.A voicecameoverthe
cidednot to trip, but then againwhy not.
intercom.'LonnieWilliamsif you con- 'Hey Kitten,how'saboutyou and meget-
tin'togethersometime'saidBigToniin her
smoothwomanlyvoice.'Yeahwe can do
that sometime' said Kitten acting as if
Cheesywasnoteventhere.Cheesycould
feelherfaceget hot.BigTonistoodhersix
one frame up and walkedoff withoutanotherword.Cheesyreachedin herpocket
andpulledouta toothpickandstuckit into
her mouth.'Oh it's like that now?'Asked
Cheesyfeelingjealousandwondering
why.
ShehadknownKittenlessthana weekand
she was alreadygettingfeelingsfor her.
'Don'tevenstepto me likethat'saidKitten
givingCheesythe palmas shegot up,basicallystillpissedoffbecauseCheesydim't
finishthe job lastnight. 'Yougota woman
andyou gonnaact funkyjustbecauseI'm
talkingto someoneelse,shit, I ain't even
seeingyou aboutnow'saidKittenas she
walkedoutthegameroom.Cheesyalmost
followedKitten,butthenagainthat'sprobablywhatKittenwants.Cheesylookedfor
an availablepayphoneto callTieger.
Tieger and T-Bonewere arguingwhen
Cheriknockedonthefrontdoor.Tiegerran
to the livingroomminiblindsand peaked
out. Cheriwas lookingrightat her.Cheri
knockedagain,but this time louder.She
saw Tiegerpeakout so she knowsshe's
homeand T-Boneis with her.'It's Cheril'
whisperedTiegerto T-Bone.'Calmdown
I'll handlethis'saidT-Bonethinkingabout
the5g'sshe'llbegettingina coupleofdays
T-Boneopenedthe doorandstoodtoweringoverCheri.'What'sup?'T-Boneasked
Cheriwhensheopenedthedoor.Cheriwas
thrownoff guard becausealthoughshe
knewT-Bonewasthereshedidn'texpect
her to openthe door' I needto speakto
Tieger'saidCheritryingnotto feel intimidatedby T-Bonewhowasobliviouslybigger and tougherlookingthanCheri.'She
ain'there'T-Bonelied.'So whyis the Lex
inthedriveway?'Cheriaskedknowingthat
theywereplayinggames.T-Bonetriedto
be cool,but she knewshe hadto stepto
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GAY BLACK FEMALE January 1998 J_
What Sistah's Can Do To Stop Racism
GAY BLACK FEMALE January 1998
Who Are The Gay Black Females?
ByTa'ShiaAsanti
HowIt Happens-
havethe powerto determine
the outcomeof sitin highplacespolitically
andthatis why
someone's
life. Youcanhatemealldayand racismis allowedalloverthe globe.ReliMostof us havegrownso accustomed
to liv- nightbutyoucan'tstopmefromgettinga job gionis usedto coverup all kindsof racist
ing1Mth
racism,wedon'tevenknowwhenits or gettingin a school.Youcan hatemebut activitiesand manyBlacksstill believe
whereI \Milliveandthe Jesuswasandis a whiteman.Andsex?
happening.Partof thesystemof racismisto you can'tdetermine
deadenour resistance
and responseto the qualityofmyhealthcare.Peopeofcolor,even Whatbettertoolto useto kill Blacksthan
ofthepeopeonthe sex.Weareoppressed
anddepressed
and
dailyassaultswe encounter.It is the same thoughwearenine-tenths
vi- 1
wayin whichthe whipwasusedto breakus planet,donothavepoweron thisplanetand we arean easytargetfor a man-made
thesystem ruscalledAIDSbecause
weusesextofeel
downandgetustothepointwherewebelieved we neverIMIIuntilwe understand
Inordertomaster betteraboutourselves
andarecompulsive
we deservedto be calledniggerand to be ofracismandhowit wCJks.
youmustfirstunderstand
it. Sohere IMthit. Andfinally,WAR Waris a wayto
beaten.Nowtheirwhipsarethejobswe are anything,
slavesto. Theslaveownersareournewcars it is in a nutshell.Racismis aboutthepower divertusfromthetruthcomingout about
andlavishhomes.Whoarethecarandmort- equationof whiteovernon-white.11is about racismWhenyouthrowa groupof-people
gagecompanies
ownedby?Whitefolks.The geneticsurvival.I usedto thinkit wasabout into completecrisissurvivalmode,they
otherpartof themoderndayslaverysystem moneybutmoneyis notthecauseofracismit don't have time to think about racism.
happens
whenwhitefolkszoomin on a pow- is a toolto keepit in place.AsI statedbefore, They'retoo busytryingto survive.It has
of thepeople workedforcenturies.
erful,intelligentBlackperson.Theygiveus peopleof colorare nine-tenths
thejob, thetitle,a secretary
anda fat salary. ontheplanet.Onetenthofthepeopleonthe
of the people Nowthatwe havesomewhat
of an underTheyremindusinsometimes
subtlewaysthat planetare holdingnine-tenths
atthischess standing
'they'gavethisto us. Sowhenwe hearracist hostage.I'dsaytheyare11,1nning
of racism,
whatcanwedoto stop
aboutraccorm,ents
or seeanotherbrotherCJsisterget- game Whatdo you thinkwouldhappenif it? Wecanspeakupin numbers
meat-warfare,
warin ist behavioron ourjobsandinstitutepolitingtreatedunfairly
duetoracism,
wesaynoth- crack,AIDS,aparthied,
ing. Why?Because
themastah,oopsI mean thirdworldcountriesandgangviolencewas ciesto protectourselves.Wecanlendour
thebills-forthatstuff, youknowstufflikethe eliminated?Peopleof colorwouldtakeover time and energyto organizationsand
RangeRover,
ceUphone,thehouseonthehiU, the planetl Don'tthinkfor oneminute,I and causeswhichfightracismWecanrefuse
remarksand
Tommy
Hilfigerdotheswhichmakeusfeellike nowyou,arethe onlypeoplewhoknowthat to tolerateracistcomments,
in ourpersonal
life. Oursilence
wealldat'(yeahI usedebonies)
aredue.Stuff fact. Whydo youthinkthe abovewascre- treatment
notprotectus! Wecanteachourchilthatthewhiteworldsaysshowsthatwe are ated?ThatsrightI saidcreated'Letmebreak 11,111
isimpernented
through drenaboutracismandthepastchallenges
successful.So,justlikethe olddays,wedo itdownfurther;Racism
channels:
EconCJnics,
Education, andvictoriesour forefathers
andmothers
whatthemastertellsusandshutuptosecure thefollov.ing
Labor,Law,Politics,Religion, achievedso theywon'tforgetwherewe
ourimagined
placein thisworld.But,justlike Entertainment,
oldtimes,soonerorlaterthemasterafterthe Sex, War. Threethingsput it in motion: camefromandlestreturn.Wecansupport
firstyou thesistahsinourcommunity
whoaredoing
mastahhasletusgetridofalltheotherBlacks, Thought,SpeechandActionbecause
andthishastobetheprimary
he sendshisboysfor ·us.· Somehow
we're thinkit, thenyousayit, thenyoudo it. Eco- thiswCJk
wa-k
whttesmaintain
contrci
throughkeep- becauseall formsof discrimination
layedoff orfired. Whenwe getto the unem- nCJnically
stem
banksand fromracism.Thegayandlesbiancommuployment
office,whoarewe standingnextto ingthewealthintheircorm,unities,
Africancul- nityisnotgoingtofightracism
inline,thesisterv.e
ddn'tspeakupfa-.Check- institutions.Througheliminating
foruspeople
turein the educational
systemtheykeepthe ofcola-because
mate.
themajority
ofthegayand
generations
of Blackchildrenignorantto their lesbiancommunity
1Mth
anypolitical
power
powerfulhistoryand their ancestralgifts arewhtteandracism
isnotanissueofthem.
HowwecanstopitWhitesmanipulate
theentertainment
industry
Blacksto makemoviesandmu- Nobodyknowswhatits liketo be on the
Number
one,wecanlearnto understand
what to encourage
thentheycol- frontlines
ofthisabomination
calledracism
racismreallyis. Manypeoplemistakeit 11,1thsicwhichdepictus as animals,
ofthecheck.Theyusesports exceptanotheractivist.It takeseverything \
hateor hatecrimes.Thereis a hugediffer- lectthemajority
thesameway.Slavelaborstill we haveto standupagainstit. Wecando
ence.SeeI canhatemysistahorbrother,but entertainment
thathateis justwords,it reallydoesn'thave existin manythirdworldcountriesaswellas thissistahs,we mustdo thisandwe \Mil,
~
anypower.WhenI or the personwhoI hate in theUnitedStates.Thesamelegalsystem ACHE'.Willyoudoyourpart?
pullsouta dollarbill,whatraceisthefacethat thatwascreatedby slaveownersis the one
of the KluKluxKlan PeaceandBlessing
in 1998.Wev.illliveto
isonit? Racism
isaboutpower.Hatedoesn't weusetoday.Members
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seethedawn,Ta'Shia
Asanti.■
R
ecentlyI saw a coupleof women
walkingdownthe streetandit was
obviousbythewaytheywalked,dressed
andactedthattheyweregay.Butwere
they?Peoplealwayswantto stereotype
Whatgaypeoplelookandactlikeintheir
heads. I eventhink that somepeople
thinkthat mostgay womenare these
hardcorestud womenthat look they'll
kickyourass.WhileI'msurethosetypes
aredefinitelyoutthere,I believethe averagegaywomanyoucannottell isgay.
I wrote this article so that if a straight
homophobicpersonwere to readthe
articleshe would understandthat gay
womenlookjust like her.
Womenwho act like guys,but in the bed- Womenwho dress like men, lookslike a
roomfem up.
woman,but acts like menby havingmore
than onewoman.
Womenwho wear men's cloths so that
Womenwho liketo seduceotherwomen.
when she goes out in public with her
womanpeoplewillthinktheyarea couple
Womenwho feel theycan'ttrust men.
Womenwho are divorced,but alwaysfan- Womenwhowantthesensitivityandtouch
tasizesaboutbeingwith a woman.
of a woman.
Womenthatsaiditwouldneverhappento Womenwho have kids, but now that the
them.
kids are grown seeksto fulfill her secret
desires.
Womenwho are married,but alwaysfan- Womenwho are afraidof men.
tasizesaboutbeingwitha woman.Madeit
happen.
Teenagerswho are the daughtersof lesI thinkthegaywomenoutthereare:
biansand now havebecomelesbians(by
Womenwho wereat first paranoidabout choice).
Womenwho were once curious,and lesbians.
nowlivethislife.SomesatisfytheircuriTeenagersthat have crushes on other
osityan go backto the brothers.
Womenwho feel they are a mantrapped samegenderteenagers.
in a woman'sbody.
Womenwhohavebeentreatedsobadly
by menthattheythinka womanwilltreat Womenwho are married.
thembetter.
Womenwhofeelemotionally,
spirrtually
and
physicallyfreewith otherwomen.
Womenthat looklike you.
Womenwho havewatchedtheir brothers
Womenwho have never been with a growup and vowto be likethem.
I truly believe that every woman that
man.
choosesto be with anotherwomanis doingit becausesomethinghashappenedin
Womenwho wererapedby men.
her life.It couldstemfromsimplecuriosity
Womenwho didn't get love as a child
to beingborn a man in a woman'sbody.
fromtheirmotherandnowseekit out in
Womenin the music/filmindustry,politics,
This is only my opinion,but I bet at least
anotherwoman.
mothersand yourco-workers.
one of thesescenariosfit you.■
Womenwhocomfortablein thearmsof Womenwho just want to have a sexual
anotherwoman.
contact.
SISTERHOOD
b o o k s t
Womenwhofeel they can'tget a man. Womenwhoarefeminine(theydon't'look'
gay)
Womenthat weresexuallyor emotionallyabusedas children.
Womenwho are handicapped.
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GAY BLACK FEMALE January 1998
GAY BLACK FEMALE January 1998
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Press Release
The 6th annual Pan African Film Festival & Arts Show
Returns to Celebrate the Diaspora, Offering Movies, Fine
Art, Music and Dance for All. Thursday February 5th
through Monday February 16, 1998 at the Magic Johnson
Theatres. Celebrity guest host include Blair Underwood and
Alfre Woodard.
Train Station is a sixteen minute film short written and
starring Ta'Shia Asanti, and Directed by Stephanie Wynne.
It's about a lesbian who in the l 950's searches for love in a
train station. Tain Station will be shown in 'the five hundred seat theatre along with some other entertaining films.
Train Station is the first gay film to be picked up by the Pan
African Film Festival. The turn out is expected to very large
for all the entertainment. Don't miss out! For more information
contact
Ta'Shia
Asanti
direct
at
for The Love Of Bessie's Girls
AlbertaHunter:A Celebration
in Blues
for hertuxedoattirealongwithher clever NellaLarson
by FrankC Taylor
andrisquelyrics.Shewasveryopenabout
hersexualityduringherheyday,flaunting Nellawasanothersignificantwriterof the
HarlemRenaissance.
Her novelsQuick- Color, Sex and Race: Three writers
hergirlfriends
proudly.
sandand Passingspokeof the time:the womenfromthe HarlemRenaissance
Negromovement,
women'sissuesandbi- by GloriaT Hull
Jackie"Moms"Mahley
racialdistress.Passingis considered
one
Lesbian-esque Infantsof Spring
Momswas a comedienne
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Prisoner
Cheriandquick.T-Bonesteppedonto the
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face. "And I'm only going to say this
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Cheri into the wall and released her
hold. For a second Cheri froze with terror. Then reality stepped in. "Fuck
you!" Cheri yelled at T-Bone as she ran
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bitch! Don't you know who you're
talking to bitch?!" Cheri screamed at
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kicked a dent in the door. Cheri continued to try to start her car as Bone
kept kicking dents into it. Several
neighbors had began to notice the
ruckus. Cheri finally got he car started
just as T-Bone picked up a brick and
threw it at Cheri's windshield. T-Bone
missed by an inch as Cheri backed out
the driveway and sped off.
"Why did you do that T-Bone?" Yelled
Tieger when T-Bone walked back into
the house. "What if she tells Toitoi?"
"Don't worry she won't. I had to scare
her a little bit" said T-Bone walking
into the kitchen and getting a Corona
out the fridge. "You know if she tells
Toitoi we're dead right?" Said Tieger
all in the back ofT-Bones neck. "I said
don't worry about it she ain't gonna say
shit. Just give her the fuckin' money"
T-Bone said easing the last line into the
paragraph. "Give her the money?
Why? Why should I give her the
money when she's probably gonna tell
Toitoi anyway!" Yelled Tieger all in
the back of T-Bone's neck again. TPage 30
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Of
Love
Prisoner
continued
Bone turned around so quickly that dollarsforwhatkindofjob?'AskedTieger
Tieger bumped into her causing T- lookingat T-Bone.'Don'tworrybabywe
Bone to drop her Corona. "Look at this can affordfive hundreddollars' said
shit! I'm trying to help you and you Cheesy.Tiegerpointedto the beer on
trippin'. I'm outta here" said T-Bone the floorandthenlookedat T-Bone.Tjust as the phone rang. Tieger stepped Bonerolledher eyesandwalkedback
over the spilled beer and answered the intothelivingroom.'So youtakingcare
Anyphone as T-Bone grabbed another beer of businessbaby?Anyproblems?
out the fridge and walked into the liv- bodycomingaroundaskingquestions?'
AskedToitoi.'No to all yourquestions.
ing room.
As a matteroffactit'squiet'saidTieger.
"Will you accept a collect call from, 'Anything happnin' in there?' Asked
butshebetcaller say your name" said the opera- Tiegernotreallyconcerned,
tor. "Toitoi" said Cheesy. If Tieger had ter actlikeit. 'It's a trip A friendof mine
known that it was Toitoi she wouldn't got intoa fightwiththiswhitegirla few
have picked up the phone. "Yes" said daysagoin thefoodlineandshegottwo
Tieger trying to sound happy about blackeyes,a brokennoseandendedup
hearing from her woman who was in thehospital.Thenshegotoutandgot
locked down for three years. "Hey intoanotherfightwithsomeof thewhite
baby" said Toitoi aka Cheesy. "Hi girl'sskinheadfriends.So nowshe'sin
baby" said Tieger lighting up a ciga- the hole.This other girl I knowthrew
rette. "I'm just checking in with you somebleachin thiswhitegirlsfacebebaby" said Cheesy actually feeling causethegirltooktoo longwashingher
good about talking to Tieger. She had clothes,butotherthanthatit's all right.I
been so tied up with Kitten that she al- meanI don'tthinkI couldevergetused
I can
most forgot about her woman Tieger. to it, but underthe circumstances
"I'm just thinking about you and how livewithit' saidCheesy.'Soundsexcitfell in the
crazy I've been acting" said Cheesy. ing'sighedTieger.Something
I'm sorry for saying I want to be background'Whatwasthat?' Cheesy
friends. It's just that I miss you baby" askedwonderingif it wassomeoneelse
Tieger lied. "I miss you too" Cheesy overthere. 'I gota cat'liedTieger.'You
lied. "Hey baby you coming to visit me gota cat?I thoughtyoudidn'tlikecats?'
'Well since
this weekend?" Asked Cheesy because SaidCheesysuspiciously.
she wanted to make Kitten jealous. youain'therethecatkeepsmecompany'
Kitten was fine witl1her reddish brown Tiegerliedas shewalkedintothe living
dreadlocks and dark brown coco skin, roomwith her cordlessphone.T-Bone
hershoulbut Tieger was fine too. She looked like lookedatTiegerandshrugged
a healthier version of Toni Braxton. ders.Tiegerrolledher eyes,saton the
"Yeah I'll be out there" Tieger sighed. couch,andlit a Newport
"Come looking fine baby" said Cheesy
smiling into the phone. "I will" said 'Sowhat'supTieger?Youstilldownwith
Tieger as T-Bone walked into the me or what?Said Cheesygettingirrikitchen. Tieger puts her index finger tated.Thelasttimeyoucameto visityou
to herlipstell T-Boneto be quite. 'BabyI wastalkingaboutbeingmyfriendand
wantyouto giveCherifivehundreddollars nowyoutellingmeyouwerejustfeeling
she'sdoinglittlejob for me' saidCheesy. crazy.I'm hearingnoisesandshitin the
andnowyoutellingmeyou
'Youwant me to give Cherifive hundred background
continued
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Love
continued
got a cat, whatkind of shit is that?' Said Therewerea lotofrumorsofwhathap- self as she calledthe dopemanto get a
Cheesyswingingherponytell intothe pay pened,butthetruthto the storyis that twentysackof chroniconcredit.Thedope
phone.TheCherokee
sideof herwasstart- Toitoiwasintherightplaceat the right mansaidyes.Cheripickedupherkeysand
ingto comeout.Tiegerwantedto scream timewhena drugdealwentbad,and bailed.Fuckthoseho'sshethoughtasshe
No11111
wantou\111,
butToitoihadmoneyshe afterthe gun fight she went in to the startedhumming'We'reIn TheMoney.'
andgrabbeda doubledtrash
couldn'tget to. At least not yet anyway apartment
Tiegerstubbedout her cigaretteand laid bagfull of money.Nobodyevenknew 'Hey Tinycan you hear me?Tinyl'Lil bit
loudly.AlthoughTinywasinthe
backonthe leathercouchandopenedher it wasmoney,theythoughtit wastrash whispered
legs.T-BonelookedatTiegerwnheyebrows shewasaboutto throwout,andthat's hole,if someonespokethroughtheairvent
upasTiegerspoke'I dofeellikethreeyears whatshedid.Shethroughthe money theinmatesoouldhearthem.Unfortunately
is a longtimetotell youthatain'tnothingis intothe trashdump.Theonly reason allthe inmatesin the holecouldheareach
evergonnahappen'saidTiegeras sheslid Toitoiis in jailisbecauseherfootprints other. Lil Bit calledfor Tinyagain.'If she
andyellherhandacrossherbreast,downherstom- werefoundin somecokepowderand camein herelastnightscreaming
achto herthickblackbush.Shearchedher matchedto a pairof shoessheworea ing,I thinkshe'ssleep'a voicesaidto Lil
backas she squeezedher pussy.T-Bone lot.So Toitoi'sfootprintsled the Feds Bit.'Who'sthere?'WhisperedLil Bitto the
continued
to lookathercrazy.'Butrightnow to Toitoi.Theycouldn'tpinanythingon voice.'Sahari'saidSahari.'I'm Lil Bit,tell
I'maboutto enrollin someclassesandget her,butgaveherthreeyearsbecause Tiny I cameby okay' said Lil Bit as she
mylifetogetherand stopwastingmytime' she had to knowsomething,but they scurriedaway.'Okay'saidSahari.Hmmh
liedTiegerasshebeckoned
T-Bonewnhher couldn'tproveit. Eventuallythe Feds TinySaharithought,theymustcallherthat
thatToitoiwasbuying becauseshe mustbe petite Soundslike
indexfingerto comeover.T-Bonefollowed wereconvinced
Tieger'sfingerthat lead her directlyto Ti- somecrack.Toitoididn'targue.Sothe mykindof womanSaharithoughtas she
andnowshe pickedupanothermagazineandbeganto
gersbush.T-Boneplantedher headdeep. lawgotherforconspiracy
'I'mnotthinkingaboutdatinganybodyelse wasin a federalprisonforthreeyears. readsincethat'sall youcandowhenyour
becauseI loveyou.All I'msayingis thatwe The Fedsdon'tevenknowaboutthe in the holeand she wouldbe in thereat
leastanotherthreedays.
bothhaveto keepanopenmind.You'rethe moneyor havegaveup looking
onesurrounded
by women'saidTiegerlyingaboutgoingto school,doingbetterand Cheri was mad. 'You wanna play Itfeltgoodmailingthe letter.Cherithought
lovingToitoi.All sheplannedondoingwas gamesbitches'she yelledoutloudto as she crackedher knuckles.Oh yeahI'll
gettinghighand fuckedsinceall the bills herself.WhenCherigothomeshede- fixtheirasses.HercousinToitoiakaCheesy
werepaidforthreeyears,shedidn'thaveto cidedto write her cousinToitoiaka as she'sknownaroundthe prisonwould
AndifTieger
doshit.Butsheknewif Toitoifoundoutthat Cheesya letter.Shewouldtellherthat gettheletterbythisweekend.
shewas sleepingwith T-Boneshe would Tiegeris fuckin'aroundwith T-Bone, goesto see her all hell will breakloose.
andgotherhaveCherior somebodykick her out the andthatsheshouldtrusta familymem- Cheristoppedbythemini-mart
triplexwith no money,and no Lexus.The ber with her money arrangements. self an Old English900 juicer,and then
onlyreasonshewashangingaroundis be- Cherismiledatthethoughtof catching rolleda fat chronicjoint.All she hadto do
causeToitoigot money.Eventhoughshe T-BoneandTiegerin theactandkick- waskickbackandwaitfor hercousinToihasaccesstoa littlebitofthemoneyitwasn't ing theirass out and then she would toi to call her.Shewouldgo to see her in
Cheriprayed
enoughto bail out.'AnywayI haveto go' runshit. Shecouldmovein andsmoke person,butshehaswarrants.
saidCheesy.'I'll be upthereto seeyouthis chronicall day Her mouthwateredat for her Hyundaito starton the first try. It
weekend'Tiegersaid.'Good,I'll be looking the thought.As a matterof fact Cheri did.
forwardtoseeingyou'Toitoisaid.I loveyou liked her newidea betterthan black
Tieger'Toitoilied.'I loveyoutoo'Tiegerlied. mailingTiegerand T-Bone,plus she Cheesyhada dreamthatnight.Shedreamt
Theybothhungupandsighedat the same could live rent free for three years. that she had gottenout of prison.All the
time.T-Boneraisedherheadupandlooked Cheri'scouchsunk in when she sat wayto herhouseshewassmilingandfeelat Tieger.'That 'I love you'sure sounded downtowriteToitoia threepageletter. inggood.Nobodyknewshehadgottenout
real' said T-Bonesarcastically.
'Maybeit ShewantedToitoito get this letteras and she was gonnasurpriseTieger,but
was' said Tigerboldly T-Bonerolled her soonas possible.Cherismiledto her- whenshe got to her houseit had turned
eyes.
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Clubs. RestauTants & Coffee Houses
LOS ANGELES
BAY AREA
Michelle's XXX Revue
Tuesdays
7969 Santa Monica Blvd.
West Hollywood
Live female strippers
(213) 657-0280
Bench & Bar (Rimshot)
Saturday 50/50
12011 11st@ Oak
Oakland (510) 465-8920
Catch One
Thursday & Saturday
4067 Pico Blvd
Los Angeles
Live female strippers (Saturdays)
(213) 734-8849
Her-She (the sh*t)
Thursdays
9911 W. Pico Blvd.
(CenturyPark@Roxbury)
Beverly Hills
Free before 10pm
For info (213) 427-8647
Female Strippers/Celebrities
Appropraite attair a must
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Mermaids
Wednesdays
At The Network Club
11669 Sherman Way
(oneblockeastof Lankershim)
N. Hollywood
Drink specials and buffet
Info (800) 422-5151
Checca
7323 Santa Monica Blvd.
West Hollywood
(213) 850-7471
Palms
8572 Santa Monica Blvd
West Hollywood
(310) 652-8851
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5006 West Pico Blvd.
Los Angeles (213) 934-4405
Comfort Zone
Saturdays 50/50
581 5th Street
Oakland
MICHIGAN
Zippers
Saturdays
6221 Davison Ave
Detroit (313) 872-0166
Silent Legacy
Saturdays 50/50
1641 Middlebelt Road
Detroit (313) 729-8980
Black owned
COFFEE HOUSES &
RESTAURANTS
Tsunami Coffee House
Open Mike
Comedy Music & Poetry
4019 Sunset Blvd.
Silver Lake - FREE
(213) 661-7771
Lucy Florence Coffeehouse
6541 Santa Monica Blvd
Hollywood (213) 463-7585
,.
Rosco's House of Chicken &
Waffles
1514 N. Gower
Hollywood (213) 466-7453 &
Hot Wings Cafe
7011 Melrose Ave
Hollywood (213) 930-1233
Simply Wholesome Cafe
4508 W. Slauson Ave
Los Angeles (213) 294-2144
Aunt Kizzy's Back Porch Soul
Food
4371 Glencoe Ave.
Marina Del Rey (213) 823-8703
Long Beach Hot Wings
951 Redondo Ave.
Long Beach (310) 987-0036
Kukatonor African Restaurant
4212 W. Pico Blvd.
Los Angeles (213) 937-2208
Coley's Kitchen
Jamaican Food
4335 Crenshaw Blvd.
Los Angeles (213) 290-4010
133 N. LaCienega the Blvd
Beverly Hills (310) 358-1300
MASSAGE SERVICES
Ann Roberts - Licensed
Massage Therapist
(213) 913-0031
Kiev Camden Asanti - Certified
Massage Therapist
Spiritual/Mental/Physical
(310)676-4273
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ThenextmorningLilBitfoundoutthatthere Slickwavingthembothoff If Cheesydidn't
was going to be a shakedown,which know any better she thoughtthat Slick
meantthat~ anycontraband
wasfoundyou winkedat her.And if, so why? Cheesy
loseprivileges,commissary
or if you had didn'tpay it any mindand herand Lil Bit
drugs,yougetputinthehole.LilBitwarned wentto work.
Cheesyanda fewothers. 'YeahI heard
thatSlickwasdoingthatshakedown'said 'Psstheyoverthere'Sahariwhisperedto
Lil Bit as shewatchedCheesytie up her Tiny.Tinyheardherbutdon'tfeelliketalktennisshoes.Slickwasa guardthatwas ing so she pretendednotto hearSahari
oncea federalprisoner.Nobodyknowsif althoughshedidlikeSahari'sname.'One
it'strue.SlickandCheesyactuallyfavored of yourfriendswas overherelookingfor
eachother. Theywerethe sameheight youearlier.LilBttI thinkshesaidhername
andbuildandtheybothworetheirhairin was?' Tinysat up. 'When?'AskedTiny
ponytails. 'DamnI don'tfeellikegoingto anxiously.'A littleafterlunch'saidSahari.
worktoday'Cheesysaidas shestoodup 'DamnI mustof beenknockedout' said
and grabbedher brush.Her roommates Tinyas she triedto get up but her body
hadalreadygoneto workso it wasjusther ached al I over. 'Ohhhh moanedTiny
andLilBit.'I don'thaveanythingsoI really deeplyasshetriedto getupfromthe matain'tworried'saidCheesyas shebeganto tress. "Damn you sound like you in
brushher hair. 'So what'shappnin'with pain" said Sahari. "I am" winced Tiny
you and Kitten?'AskedLil Bit sinceshe as she barely stood up. Sahari visualsawBigTonihangingoutwithKitten.'She ized what Tiny looked like. She figtriedto playme in frontof BigToni'said ured Tiny was probably approached by
Cheesyasshepickedhertoothbrush.'It's some rough neck and had to defend her
alrightthough,I justdon'thavetimeto trip poor little self against some amazon.
Let'sgo' saidCheesyas shegrabbedher It made Sahari mad to think that her
workgogglesandjust as shedid, Officer baby Tiny whom she had not met yet
Slickand hertwosidekicksburstintothe was being bullied. "You alright over
cell. 'WellJohnsonwhatyouhidin'in here there?" Asked Sahari. "Yeah" replied
todayas Slicktoldtheothertwoofficersto Tiny. Thanks for asking" said Tiny
friskCheesyand Lil Bit and shakedown wondering
whatSaharilookedliked.
theroom.Cheesyhatedwhentheofficers
wouldfriskher.It seemedliketheyalways At workKittennoticedthatCheesywasn't
squeezedherbreast.'ComeonSlick,you givingheranyenergy.Soshedecidedto
knowI ain'tthe one to haveany contra- bowdownandapproachher. 'So what's
band'said Cheesyas the officercontin- up you madat me?'AskedKitten. 'Nah
uedto friskher.Slickwhowasalsoknown I'malright'saidCheesycontinuing
to sand
to havesleptwitha few inmateslaughed. thewoodenshelf.ActuallyKittendidmake
Thepit?Whereandwhatthe hellwas 'You'refunnyJohnson,but you'renot in- her jealous, but she was so fine that
thepit?Thought
Gigi,anothercellmate. nocent.That'swhytheycallyou Cheesy Cheesycouldn'thelpbutforgiveher. 'I'm
Gigihad heardCheesytalkingin her huh? Cuz you supposedto be 'Da Big sorryabouttheothernight,I justdidn'twant
sleepandwasmorethanwillingto stay Cheese' right?' Said Slick smiling at to getcaught'saidCheesylookingintoKitupandlistenbecauseeverybody
knew Cheesy. 'WhateverSlick' said Cheesy. tens sexybrowneyes. 'Meet me in the
that Cheesywas alwayssmilingbe- Shehatedit whenofficersmadeherfeel gymbathroomafterdinnerandI'll makeit
causeshehadsomemoneyhidsome- likea criminaleventhoughshewas one. upto you' Cheesywhisperedintoherear.
where.Couldit bethepit?Gigithought 'Canwe goto worknow?'Lil Bitaskedof- Kittensmiledandwalkedbackoverto her
ficerSlickafterthefrisk 'Yeahgeton' said work area.
assheyawnedandturnedover.
into a to a old dumpy trailer home.
She had the right address,but this
wasn'therlargetriplex.Sheturnedto
getbackintothecab,but the cabwas
goneandhercousinCheriwasparked
therein heroldgoldHyundai.Where's
my house she could heard herself
screamas she ranoverto Cheri'scar
asif inslowmotion.Cheristartedlaughing,andwhenCheesyturnedaroundto
seewhatshewaslaughingat, Cheesy
sawT-BoneandTiegerdiggingup her
money.
Howdidtheyknowwhereto dig
wasCheesy'sthoughtas sheranover
to themin slowmotion.All of a sudden
Cheesyfelt herselfbeinggrabbedby
someoneandthenshefelt handcuffs
go tightly around her wrist. She
screamed
atTiegerandT-Boneforthem
to leaveher moneyaloneand all they
didwaslaugh.CheesywatchedCheri
jointhemas shestruggledto getaway
fromthecops.'I'ma getallyoubitches''
Cheesyscreamedat them.'That'smy
moneyburiedin the pit, let mego you
muthafucka's'Cheesy yelled. 'Hey
Cheesywake up' said Mariaone of
Cheesy'sroommates.
'Hey girl you're
yellingin yoursleepandyou'rewaking
usup' saidMariaas sheclimbedback
intoherbunk.Cheesywipedher eyes
and lookedat her clock.It was 4am.
'SorryMaria'said Cheesyfluffingher
pillowand gettingcomfortable.That
dreamwas so real she thought.One
thingforsureisthatshe'stheonlyone
thatknowswherethe moneyis.
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anyway.'Chee...sy...!' KitEverything
isgettingcrazyT-Bonethought It wasseveno'clockwhenCherireceived continued
as shehandedthecustomerthe receipt. thecallfromTieger.Cheriwasshockedto ten yelled. 'I'm comingbaby!"Kitten
Sheneeded
tofigureoutawaytoconvince hearthatTiegerhadthemoneyandallshe pantedvery loudly. Sssshhhhsaid
Tiegerto giveherthemoneyto payCheri hadto do waspickit up.Afterwhathap- Cheesygettingexcitedrightalongwith
beforeshegoesto see Toitoion visiting penedearlierwithT-Bonethelastthingshe Kitten.I'mcomingbaby! I'mcoming!'
day.I guesstheonlywayto convinceher expectedwasfor Tiegerto takeherseri- saidKittenraisingup off the sink,but
is to tell her I loveher. T-Bonesighedat ous. Cheriimmediately
grabbedherkeys Cheesyheldherfirmlyin placeas she
tosuckharder.
'Laymeonthe
thethoughtasthenextcustomer
droveup. andfledoutherapartmentShewasgonna continued
have five thousanddollars.Cherifroze floor panted Kitten. "It's cold" said
kissingKittenwithpussybreath.
Tiegerslippedonherhobootsandgrabbed whensheremembered
thatshehadmailed Cheesy
the keysto the Lex. Shedecidedthatii theletterandthattherewasa goodchance I don'tcarelay me on the floor!"Said
wouldbesmarterfor herto goto thebank that Tiegerwas goingto see her cousin Kittenfeelinghotterthan a furnace'
togetthemoneyandpayCheri,thenCheri Toitoiat BroncoStatePrisonthisweekend CheesyhelpedKittento thefloor."Put
tellingToitoiwhat'sgoingon betweenher . It didn'tmatterto Cheriasshepickedup yourfingersinsideme"moanedKitten
andT-Bone. WhenTiegerreachedthe herpace.Theonlythingthatmattered
was as shegyratedherhips."Putyourfinfrontdoorsherealizedthatshehadforgot gettingthe moneyand payingbackthe gersinsideme"moanedKittenas she
gyrated her hips to accommodate
herpursecanister
andwentintothekitchen dopeman.
Cheesy's
longfingers.
Cheesy
tookthree
tofilluptheminipursecanister
fullofvodka.
Tiegersmiledto herselfwhenshehungup of herfingersandpushedtheminside
Kittenlookedatherwatchforthethirdtime thephone.T-Bonewouldbeproudof her Kittens wet vagina. 'Che ...
..! 'Kittenpanted.
'Suckmy
that hour. Shecouldn'twaituntildinner forgivingCherithemoney.Maybenowthey esy..Cheesy
wasover. Herpussywas itchingto get couldbe happier. Tiegerpickedup the pussy!'Kittenhissed.Cheesyreposihow tionedKittensbodyonthecoldconcrete
sucked.Shesmiledto herselfandlicked phonetocallT-Bone,butremembered
floor.Kittenbumped
herhead
herlipsatthethought."Whatareyoulook- madT-Bonegotthelasttimeshecalledher bathroom
ing at?"AskedBig TonibreakingKittens onthejob. Shewouldsurpriseherlater.If onthewallin theprocess.'Ouch!Shit
thoughts.'HeyToniwhat'sup?'SaidKit- Toitoifindsoutaboutthefivethousand
she'll I hit my head!"Kittenyelledbecoming
tenlookingupintoToni'snostrils."Justchil- tell her she had a car accidentor some- irritatedwiththe wholesituation.Why
lin'. Whatare you doingafter dinner?' thing and she settledwith the person. shouldI haveto fuckontheprisongym
floor?Especially
whenthere's
AskedBigTonisiftingnextto Kittenwith- Tiegerfeltsogoodthatshewouldcelebrate bathroom
womanontheprisoncompound
outKitten'spermission.
Gettingmypussy by havinga vodkaontherocks.Shehap- another
suckedis whatKittenwantedto say. 'I'm pilystrolledintothekitchenpoppedthetop who'swaitingformeina nicewarmbed
goingtoplayvolleyball
inthegym'saidKit- fromthevodkaandtooka longswigwith- Kitten thought as Cheesy's hand
ten wishingBigToniwouldgo awaybe- outa frown.Ahhhhshesaidasshecarried poundedintoherflesh.'Stop! Cheesy
causeshe's truly not interested.I only thebottleintothelivingandturnedonMax- stop!' KittenyelledpushingCheesy's
neededyouto makeCheesyjealousKit- well.Asshegroovedtothemusicthedoor head away from her clit. Cheesy
snatchedherfingersoutof Kittensvaten thought."Toobad, I thoughtmaybe bellrang.
gina.'Damn!Whatyoutryingtodobreak
youwouldbeinterested
insomething
a little
suckit baby,suckit!' PantedKit- my neck or something?'Snapped
bitmoreintimate"
saidBigToniseductively 'Hmmmm
rubbingherneck.'I'msorrythis
lickedandsuckedonKitten's Cheesy
in herwomanly
voice.Kittenthoughtfora tenasCheesy
moment
aboutgettingherclitsuckedtwice clit. Kittenwassiftingonthesinkwithher wasn'tagoodidea.I don'tfeelrightfuckopenwhileCheesyfeasted. ing on the floor like this"said Kitten.
in onenightby twodifferentwomen.The legsstraddled
stoodupandturnedonthelight.
thoughtmadeherpussythrob.'Howabout Cheesyonly stoppedwhen someone Cheesy
I lookforyouafterthevolleyball
game"said knockedonthedoorto usethebathroom. Theybothlookedaroundthebathroom
Kittenas shegot up to emptyherdinner At thatpointshewouldjust tell themthat atthesametime.'I seewhatyoumean·
tray. 'Youdo that· saidBigTonias she she'sshitingandtheyshouldfindanother saidCheesy.Kittenstoodupandlooked
never
bathroom.CheesyhadtowarnKittensev- atherselfinthemirrorandthought
watchedKittenwalkaway.
herfacedandpicked
eraltimesfor moaningto loud,but Kitten again.Shewashed
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thousanddollars for blackmailingher
cousin's
girlfriendTieger.Tiegermadeher
promisenotto tell Toitoiby recording
her
voice on the tape recorderand Cheri
agreed,butsheknewthatit wastoo late
for she had alreadysenta letterto her
cousinToitoiwho'sinprison.Cheriheaded
Tinywasfeelingbetter.TalkingwithSa- forthe dopeman's
housein a hurry.She
harireallyhelpedtimetogoby. I wonderif paidDouggie
thedopeman
themoneyshe
sheI likeswomen
Tinythought
assherolled owedhimandDouggie
wassohappythat
Whatjusthappened
in there?Cheesy herlargebodyover.Hermattresslaidon he smokeda big fat bluntwithher.Cheri
thought
asshewalkedintheprisongym. top of a pieceof hard cementso there feltgoodwhensheleftDougies
apartment.
wasn'tanycushion.All the shitthathap- She still had forty-eighthundreddollars
Cherialmosthadthreecaraa:idents
try- penedain'tworthgettinglockedinthishole. cashin herpocket.A crackhead
watched
ingto getto hercousinshouse.When Tinygot up and lookedat herselfin the ChericomeoutofDougies
apartment
smilshe reachedher cousinsstreetshe mirror.Shewashideous.Herfacewas ing He then followedCherito her car.
creeped
aroundthecomer.It couldbe stillswollen,hernosewasbrokeandboth Cheriwassofuckedupthatshedidn'tnoa setup for all sheknows.Shedidn't hereyeswerestillblack. Hertop lip had ticethecrackhead's
shadowwhiskbyand
seeT-Bone's
carsoshepulledupnext swollenandit hada bigblackblister.Tiny thenhidebehindthebackof hercar.Just
toTieger's
Lexus.Shehatedblackmail- closedhereyesandwhenshedidshesaw as Cheriopenedher doorthe crackhead
inghercousin'sgirlfriendlikethis,but the gravypotcomingtowardsherfacein pulledout a switchbladeandran up beshehadto get paid Sincetheyain't slowmotion.Tinyquicklyopenedhereyes hindher.Hegrabbed
Cheribyherhairand
sharing
thewealth,something
hadtobe andshookherhead.'HeyTiny'whisperedputthe knifeto her throat.Cheriwasindone.ChericouldhearMaxwellplay- Sahari.Tinysmiledandstoodon top of stantlysober.Shecouldn'tlosethemoney.
ingwhenshewalkeduptothefrontdoor. herbunk.'What'supSahari?'AskedTiny 'Give me yourfuckin'moneybitchlThe
Shetooka deepbreathandknocked. 'I getoutof thisshitholetomorrow,
hissedintoCheri's
ear,butCheri
when crackhead
Tiegeropenedthedoorandwelcomed areyougettingout?'AskedSahari.'I don't wasfrozenstiff.Thiscouldn'tbe happenCheriin as if nothinghad happened know I couldbeinherethreeorfourmore ingto her.Cheriremembered
a movieshe
CheriknewTiegerhad to be drunk. days'saidTiny.'I'min H Unitsowhenyou sawwherethe ladysteppedon theguys
'Damnyougotherequick'saidTieger get out lookme up alright?'SaidSahari footandelbowedhimthestomach.'I said
turningawayfromCheriandwalking excitedaboutgettingoutthehole.It'sone givemeyo...' Cheristepped
onhisfootand
backintothelivingroom.Cheri'seyes thingtobe lockedina prison,butit'seven elbowedhim in the dick. Thecrackhead
scanned
the livingroom
areathende- worsebeinglockedintheprisonhole.Tiny dropped
theknife.Cheriturnedaroundand
cidednotto go inside.'I'll justwaitright felta littlejealousthatSahariwasleaving hit himin the mouth.Cheripickedupthe
hereuntilyougetthemoney'saidCheri becauseshewasstartingto feelcloserto knifeand grabbedthe crackhead
by his
feelingparanoidWhenTiegercame her. Sahariwouldlistento herfor hours. shirtcollar. 'Youevertry thatshitagain
backto thedoorshehada smallbrown Saharidoesn'tknowI'ma bigfatslobTiny and I'll kill youfooll' YelledCherias she
bagandtaperecorder.
'Comeoninhere thoughtasshelaidbackdownonthemat- kickedhimandgotintohercaranddrove
sowecangetthisshitoverwith.Either tress.Saharismiledto herself.Shesmiled away.'I won'tforgetyoubitch'thecrackwedothisnowor forgetit' saidTieger becauseshewasgettingouttheholeand headmumbled
ashegotupandstaggered
bluffingbecausesheknewshewanted because
shewasfinallygoingto meether away.
to endthe drama.Cherirelaxedand soonto be sweetlittleprettybaby,Tiny.
Walked
insidethetownhouse.
Sahariclosedhereyesanxiousto getthe WhenKittenwalkedintoBigToni'scellit
nightover.
waslike walkinginto a smallapartment.
T-Bonethoughtabouthowroughshe
Shehaddrapes,
afullsizebedandincense
wason Cheriearlier,but this ain't no Cherismiledas she walkedout of her burning.Wherein the helldidshegetingameandneitheris thatfivethousand cousin'shouse.Shehadjust gottenfive censein a prison?'Wowyourroomisthe
upherbra.Thelustwasnolongerthere.
Justas instantly
as ii hadcome,it had
gone. BothKittenand Cheesyfelt ii.
'WellI guessI'll seeyoulater'Cheesy
saidasshegaveKittena peckonthe
cheekand left the bathroom.Kitten
lookedat herselfin the metalmirror.I
don'tbelonghereshethoughtas she
bowedherhead.
dollars.T-Bonetookoff herworkuniform
andtossedit in thebackseatof hercar. I
guessI bettergo tell TiegerI loveherto
geton her goodsideT-Bonethoughtas
shepoppedan ErykahBadutapeintothe
deckandheadedoverto Tieger'shouse.
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tellToishit!Howdidyougetyourownroom?' thing"saidTiegertryingtokissT-Bonewith takecareof it. Cheriwillprobably
Whydidn'tyoucallme?"Said
Kitten
askedBigToni.'Wellwhenyou've herliquorbreath.'I missed
you"liedT-Bone toianyway.
beenhereaslongasI have,youeven- asshetookoffherjacketandlaidii overa T-Bone.'Youtold me notto callyouat
tuallygetyourowncell' saidBigToni. nearby
chair.'Tiegerthere'ssomething
I've work"saidTiegerwithtearspouringdown
"Welldamnhowlonghaveyoubeenin beenwantingto tell you" said T-Bone. herface.T-Bonegotupandgrabbedher
here?'AskedKittensittingontheedge 'Whatis it baby?'AskedTiegersittingon jacket. 'Whereare you going?"Cried
ofBigToni'sbed.'I beeninhereseven thecouch.T-Bonesatnexther. 'Actually Tiegernot wantingT-Boneto leaveher
I wanttotellyoutoo"said alone.'I'm goingto get thatmoneyfrom
yearsandall I got is threemore'said there'ssomething
BigTonitakinga joint out of hertoilet Tiegerleaningto theleftthenright.'I love Cheri. Fuckher! Sheain'tgettingaway
us!"SaidT-Boneasshe
paperroll.'I knowthat'snotwhatIthink youTiegerandIwanttobewithyou.I know withblackmailing
it is? Damnhowdid you get that in Toitoiis yourwoman,but I can'thelpmy- stormedtowardthedoor.Tiegerraninto
andgrabbed
hertrenchcoat.
here?'AskedKittenstandingup and selfIjustwantto bewithyou"liedT-Bone. thebedroom
walking
overto BigToni.'I gotmycon- Tiegerlookedasif shewantedto cry. She SheranoutsideandhoppedintoT-Bone's
nections'
saidBigToniputtinga white reachedoverandhuggedT-Bonelightly. car. 'Whatareyoudoing"askedT-Bone
towelat thebottomof the celldoorso T-BonecouldI smellherstalebreath.'Well whenTiegergot intothecar. 'I'm going
thesmokewouldn'tseepout. BigToni I finallygotthatoffmychest'saidT-Bone withyou.I knowexactlywhereshelives"
lita cigarette
andthenlit thejoint. She gettingupandwalkingintothekitchenaf- whinedTiegerasshesatinthefarcorner
herhold.T-Bone
walked oftheseat."YoutuckedupTieger"saidTturnedoffthelightandsat onthebed. terTiegerreleased
'Soyouwannajoinme?"AskedBigToni backintothe livingroomwitha Coronain Boneas shestartedthe car. That'smy
takinga longhit. Kittensatnextto Big her hand. Tiegerwas silent. 'What's muthafuckinmoneyCherigot T-Bone
ToniasBigTonipositioned
herself
togive wrong'?I haven'tseenyou so quietbe- thoughtassheskiddedoutthedriveway.
Kittena charge.Kitteninhaleddeeply fore"saidT-Bone.'I'm sorry. I'vewaited
andthenlaidbackon BigToni'sbed. so longto hearyousaythatyouloveme" Thisstorywillconcludenextmonth.
'That'sgood.I feelit already'saidKit- saidTieger.T-Bonesat nextto Tieger.'I
tenkickingoff hershoes.Beingin Big loveyou too"saidTiegerlookinginto TToni's
roomwaslikebeingbackhome. Boneseyes. 'So whatnow'?"AskedTTheyfinishedthe skinnyjointandgot Bone. 'Well I'm goingto see Toitoithis
naked.
BigToniclimbedintobedbehind weekendand I'll tell her howI feel"said
Kitten
andputherarmsaroundher.Kit- Tiegertakinga sipofT-Bonesbeer.'What
tenfeltwarmandsecurewithBigToni. if shethreatensto kickyououtthehouse
ShefeltlikeBigTonicaredunlikeCheesy andcutoffyourcashflow'?"AskedT-Bone
akaToitoiwhodidn'tcarewhereshedid becauseif Toitoiwasgoingto cancelout
thewildthing. BigToniwouldbeeasy Tiegerandleaveherbrokethensheain't
topussywhipandplusBigTonimakes gottimetobetrippingwithher.'I ain'tworCheesy
jealous. Kittensmiledat the riedaboutToitoi,shit I'm runnin'!hangs.
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1119111,
lint lrotk
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thought
andturnedoverandkissedBig ToitoineedsmejustasmuchasI needher"
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warmbody.ForthenexthourBigToni herbigmouthshut"saidTiegerpractically
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madepassionate
loveto Kitten.
boasting.'What?!YoupaidCherifivethouORDER:
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